primadonna

happy sports day :))

today seemed like a happy day for a lot of people

mr daren got mad at me more than once today -______-
i'm kinda worried about our skit
i hope we win the regatta tomorrow
i'm going to fail my math test tomorrow
and i'm barely half way done with my AP worksheet
and i want to sleeep
i'm such a WHINER

blehleblelehleleblehlee

i'm so antisocial and mean these days :P
T_T

edit:
LOL i tried taking claritin with my retainer in. that didn't work.

so walking to second period, i passed by my favorite coach in the world, meester hodgin
and i didn't acknowledge him and he says "hey little one" and i was like
"...wtf is he talking to me?" hahaaha
but indeed he was o_o
what a strange man. must have been in a good mood -____-
whatever happened to "stephanie better not come anywhere near the track team blablabla"
-___-, i go wherever i want D:<

paul became a man yesterday. he scored a prettay girl to prom :B
so cute!
hmmm so if seany's parents are okay with the guys' dates (APPARENTLY OURS AREN'T INVITED and APPARENTLY WE'RE ON THE GUY SIDE OF THE LIST.) it's going to be so awkward o_o
i'm excited for prom KINDA
but uhm. geez so stressful
i can't wait till a week from now T_T
NO MORE CALC UNLESS I FAIL THE AP AND I HAVE TO TAKE IT IN COLLEGE.
T_T

today, the guys sprayed whipped cream all over me. SO GROSS D:
jerks D:<

"it's so much harder for the girl because she's got to wait for someone to ask her even when she already knows who she wants to go with"
-friend
i'm so distracted these days, and so bad at studying T_T
for APs and stuff, i'm just so tired
and lazy.
and thinking about other things :/
that's what i do during bio and history LOL everyone always has their laptops but me and they're always doing random crap on them
but i sit there
and think about other things -_-
geez maybe i should pay attention :/

I'M SO BURNT OUT.

my friends&my mom think i'm anorexic.
fools.

"i trust you" BAHAHA -_____-

D:<
today was a good day :)
but i'm pretty sure a lot of people are mad at me. or at least frustrated
lol i can be a bitch. i guess i'm sorry but i think everyone should stay out of my business
GTFO MANG
he thinks he knows everything about me -____-
he doesn't stalk me from what i know so srsly. get over yourself.

they aggravate me so much sometimes!
I DO WHAT I WANT OKAY? i don't need your approval

anyways. spirit week <3 is so fun :))
we placed second during our lunch!! i dunno what 5B was thinking -_- bahaha :D
simi baked me a really good cake, it's half gone and no one used utensils DDD:
THE GUYS WON TODAY.

















paul wouldn't be my best friend if i wore this everyday.

so we just found out that.....
the finals in two months.....
are tHE LAST ONES WE WILL EVER HAVE TO TAKE IN HIGHSCHOOL.
don't worry beloved class of '10, we'll be sure to ruin it for you :)

so you ask, why is the class of '09 so awesome?

well i mean, we look good, for starters :)
i don't really care anymore if the sophomores beat us, i don't even care if we get dead last (okay maybe i do) but srsly
i love our class. so much. i'm so glad i'm in this class and not in '10 (i might have been o_o)
or any other class
these people are pretty much amazing
diverse, intelligent, clever, witty, creative
maybe it doesn't show but i think we all love each other deep down
& maybee we suck at spirit :/ but at least we're not unified only when we have to be :)
i'm kind of sad that almost 3/4 of highschool is over. it goes way too fast

brian told me he was talking about super serious stuff with sean. like
"who he was" and stuff like that
lol. i wonder if they've never thought about it before....?

i think i'll be back later.

YOU'RE STUPID

bahahah :P
today was a NG day :/

bcus kevin kim totally stole my DNS book (which was partly my fault bcus i left it there but who steals books geez T_T) and it had other things in it that are pretty important :/
and bcus my bio grade went down to a B+ which is like DD: srsly. i don't have that many chances to make it up :/
but i did get a 116/120 on my dante test :D
hrm

bah i'm so tired of school T_T
and i dunno what to wear for tomorrow :/
i could come normal
...:B

AUUGHHHH
i'll be back.

edit:
i found my old middle school sweater so i can wear it tomorrow :B it is HUGE i wonder how big it was on my eleven-year old self :/
the sleeve is all torn from the constant picking that occurred during the weekly assemblies :)
ah middle school...i miss it so much D:
i wish i still had my sweatshirt but i lost it at blackford last track season so they must have kept it in the lost and found thinking it belonged to one of the kids.
boo :(

i'm kinda done with my hw and i know i should be studying for APs but i really don't want to
i love spirit week :)
bahahah i'm so excited for tomorrow

thinking about prom is so AUAGHGHHGHG
i wonder what we'll do after.
perhaps some breakfast at tiffany's. or ice cream.
:) fat.

today in dante we were discussing why dante couldn't expose the prophecies and mr mitchell says that "the most beautiful writing does not compare, memory and vocabulary are inadequate [. . .] what you put into words immediately does not measure up, it is bound"

so whats the point of a blog :)
stop reading this and go live your life :B




















editedit: so i'm kind of happy today. but so many people aren't and i feel guilty T_T when i can't help. but then there are those days when i'm D:and everyone else is :D and then i feel bad too :/ conclusion? be happy :D
i'm a big, fat, hypocrite.

HUGME

today in church, we talked about discipleship and embracing the truth
and eric talked about hugging! hahaha i'm practically prophetic :/

HUG ETIQUETTE
-always respect someone's space
-always ask for a hug unless you're comfortable
-hug accordingly. bahahaha too hard to explain -_-
and then he talked about the different kinds of hugs: side to side hug, hug yourself, cheek to cheek, the manly hug, A frame hug, the bear hug :B
but he didn't talk about the underpits hug :/ :(
i suppose i'll never know.

I'M REALLY NERVOUS/WORRIED :/

i should probably get back to my APSA book :/




















i'll be back later.

irrelephant

i am SO good at procrastinating T_T
i barely had any hw this weekend and i've barely done any!
i did start my AP wksht though but only bcus my mom is making me so i can go to yb tomorrow D:

todays weather was nice :)

i'm kinda worried. about everything?

so i'm going to make a list
lists make everything clearer.

ten things i want:
-a good passing grade in calc and a 5 on the AP!/all my grades to go up
-a concrete job in HK T_T
-clear skin
-a cute prom dress&& a cute prom date :)
-my license
-these 6 weeks to pass by fast
-to see megan soon!
-more sleep
-doraemon converse! bahaha :B

oh yeah and i want to be allergy-free T_T
GOOD NIGHT.

i need to die now.

i can't believe he told him D:

edit:
他告诉他如果我不跟他去，我就自己去。
好丢脸 D:
现在还不知道是个好还是不好的景况。。。他一定是觉得我喜欢他巴 -_-
阿~整个事情好无聊。

TIME IS TICKING

it feels good to be friday :)

ermm on thursday, i failed my calculus test but i think my grade went up T_T sadly enough. it better have....
we talked about the skit afterwards during advisory :B
won hee ate lunch with me. (he did the eating)
and the first thing he said to me was "so how are you?" which made me realize that we haven't talked in such a long time. and since he's basically never eaten lunch with me
it was fun :)
although mr daren was terribly embarrassing about it :/
we had our third to last dante lecture :(

so today i didn't fail my calc test as bad as i thought i did but PRETTY bad, deserving of only a 4 on the AP D: i desperately need good grades, i had my c.c. meeting and talking about college always bums me out :/
well today was fun, hiding from people and such :/
i wish mr daren would extend the magazine project, i'm getting stressed out again haahhaa
PROM is so stressful!! haha and i hear so much drama o_o i kinda just want to go dress shopping now :P
anyways. i dunno what to do :P GOD HELP ME :B

i'm like totally killing my lucky bamboo D:
i'm such a failure. i was totally set up for this bcus i'm a total plant killer and when you give me a lucky plant, that just isn't fair :/

bahahah simi is telling me awkward stories about her and boys and it's funny :)
ana told me last year that when a girl is romantically interested in someone, they hug them around the neck and when they're just friends or something, it's UNDER THE PITS. is that true? i say nahh
well actually me and sim say
it really depends eh? hahaa

omgeez

mai knows someone who's going to ask me to prom
how the HECK am i supposed to avoid mystery person if she won't stinkin tell me who it is? geez i might as well go live in a cave now
uasdfoghjk
he better not ask for like a week bcus i gotta think of a plan
D:
i might regret saying ^^but as for now i'm very distracted by this whole thing
MATH TEST TOMORROWW???? OMFGWTFBBQ!!!111??!?

i wish i had studly hot manfrandz out of school to go with.
or that our school was big.

today, i overwatered my lucky bamboo. bad sign? i think so.

ONE

I HAVE MY PERMIT :D OMEFFFF YAY :))
finally :)

so i went home early after leaving the DMV and i've spent about an hour drafting my Gatsby paper and i have to say, so far, i'm pretty satisfied with it :P
and i feel extremely accomplished despite the thousands of other things i have to do tonight because last night i fell asleep at 11 reading the DMV guide thing T_T i woke up at 3 bcus i left the light on and then i freaked out around 6 bcus my blanket was half on the portable heater i instinctively switched on around 5
i could have died D:

lol.

only junior year can make something like prom, stressful.
everyone thinks i'm going to ask _______
LOL :/
or should i say, everyone is pressuring me to ask T_T
even if wanted to, i'm just not that kind of person
-_- hahahaha
i'm so scared of rejection D: and even then, what if they say yes but really mean "NOOOOOO" inside?? and you never know?? and you have to endure >4 hours of seemingly infinite awkwardness??? D:

heidiwang gave me a pretty flower today.
i'm not quite sure what kind of flower it is. but if it is not a daisy (one of my favoriiite flowers), this may become another one of my favorite flowers!
deniz: "steff, if i ever get you flowers, i'll make sure i know what kind it is."
i love my friends, they're the best!
heidi jiee <3

also, philly chu asked jessica to prom very cutely. i'm kinda jealous :/ sort of ? i'm pretty sure i don't really want to go with anyone who might ask me so what am i waiting for -_- WHY CAN'T I GET SOME CUTE THOUGHTFUL ROMANTICAL GUY (who i am somewhat interested in)?????
oh well.

:)
i'll be back later perhaps, after i give up on calculus.

maxbright+courtneysmith

so last night i fell asleep reading chapter 24 and woke up bcus i started drooling T_T bahahah yes i do tell people that. but my excuse is that i have allergies which means i have to sleep with my mouth open. eughhh i'm so gross D:

anyways that means i didn't finish my dante or gatsby paper and finish studying for bio -_- i tried to get up at 445 this morning but that didn't work either

so tonight, i have like NO homework and just waisted like 4 hours doing NOTHING hahaha it feels good T_T

so ______ is asking the sophomore to prom!! <3 <3 so cuteee
oh and i got a lucky bamboo yesterday, it's pretty cute
i water it everyday even though that's probably not recommended
it supposedly grows really fast too :P
but i'm a plant killer so who knows, hopefully this one lasts :D

goodnight.

SO SLEEPY T_T

talking to harry kim makes me want to be in asia :(
summer is so far away
but not really so i really only have so much time to pull my grades up D:

and i keep falling asleep trying to read chapter 24 for bio so i'm trying to write my dante paper instead. heady theology instead of immune system? i think so.

this week is so packed
and i'm so tired
ashdiflkg

NO MORE WHINING STEFFO.

i want to hang out with my friends :)
today, won hee wanted to hang out with me but i couldn't, which made me really sad
and then i looked at underclassman pictures of me and tianna and that made me kinda sad too bcus we used to be really close
i also found a [cute] picture of me and sim.
voila !

只要笑一笑...

TODO:
1. math extra credit check!
2. yearbook paragraph check!
3. history paper check!
4. mando NHS stuff, grammar quiz check!
5. english paper
6. study for bio test about to!
7. dante paper
8. 7 drawings plz :) ...i did 6 or so :P good enough...

i'm tired.
BAH and i'm hungry
and there is nothing to eat
the library closes in 20 minutes D:
i'm so screwed :))!
my throught process sucks.

edit:
SOOSLEEPPPPY but i gotta study for bio
i need an A T_T
my shoe is fugly on page 10 0f my sketchbook. it says "AUGHH IM SO FUGLY"
plz don't look at it :)

-mahatma gandhi

three quarters of the miseries and misunderstandings in the world would finish if people were to put on the shoes of their adversaries and understand their points of view.

wow i really need to stop procrastinating on my APSA projects T_T 3 days and 22 pages to go D: hha 7 pages a day? i can do it T_T
well i'm doing my series on shoes :B bcus i really like shoes. and i really want to go out and buy shoes but i've got to stay home and draw them instead :/
< hongki's gangsta kicks are my inspiration
but so is kevin connolly
he was born legless and he photographs people staring at him. cool, right? haha
well we're supposed to research a significant historical artist whose work enhances our own ides about our subject o_o
lol it doesn't really work for me but eh~
art is subjective.
this weekend is so exhausting T_T three papers and two tests DD:
what the eff mang.

so i didn't procrastinate as much as usual and i got three drawings done, my study guide :O, studied a bit for bio, mandarin hw, yearbook, etc done. now i gotta study and write D: and draw :)

so i was talking to _____ lol and she was like D: i can't ask him bcus he's a SOPHOMORE LOL LOL right, like who wants to hang out with a sophomore anyways -_- but we were also thinking it'd be so cute if he asked anyways "will you ask me to prom?" bahaha or something along those lines <3
i'm not too worried about going alone though, i think it's not big deal. :)

but having a date is nice too.
actually i always think that dates are no fun unless you're somewhat mutually attracted,
other than that, if you're not good friends, it's really awkward. and if the guy is like trying to dance with you and you're like DDD:
NG NG.

i woke up early today (well...early for me) like at 8AM! on a sunday??? i took a shower and
ajodsuio EUGGHHHH SPIDERS SPIDERS DD:
i can't imagine life without church.
or God for that matter, but church on sundays has been there for 16 years of my life.
anyways, so i tried to draw freaking more shoes and now i'm getting annoyed
esp since i don't have printer paper so i can't print out my "inspiration" and my "artist research" (to take up more space in the 25 pages i have to fill T_T)
i should go to the library after church :/
anyways i should have tried writing my history paper during this time but i decided i'd rather post this instead! for you lovely readers who not yet exist
:D

HAPPY SUNDAY!

you can't get a man with a gun

ANNIE GET YOUR GUN was really good
except the theater was oversold by 200 tickets which was not so good :/
the vball game was not so good either because the team was pretty bad :( i felt really bad for them!! #25 was cute :) HAHA
should have asked him to prom
...
just kidding

"how do guys slide in vball without pads??"
"...hairy knees"
of course barrett can't do that bcus he's got no hair -_- JEALOUS.

ATM i want to get breakfast with deniz
and have straight As
and go prom shopping
and not think about APs and SATs and other monstrous acronyms

so at first i was kinda bummed that i didn't get to hang out with won hee bcus the place was so overcrowded :/ i bought friday tickets bcus he was going D:< LOSAR
oh well.
we were in shah and the guys were like oh you're asking alex kim right hahaahah (joking) and suddenly barrett overhears and he's like o_o WHAT, TO PROM?????
lol his face was so funny LOL anyways it was a you had to be there moment
but the guys thought it was funnier when i blew glish off and he called me a bitch o_o
ouch
hmm we went to jamba and drove around. i can't wait till i get to drive. i don't even care about driving other people or whatever i just want to drive my car B)
hahaah

EPIKHIGH'S NEW ALBUM IS <3
i'm still pretty jealous of mai bcus she's going to hb but.....PROM BETTER BE BOMB
but she's also going to japan at the same time FTi is promoting their japanese album (they're so pro!!! only debuted a year ago at that point o_o impressive <3)
eh we'll see if i can VISIT her.
and meet WONBIN <3

WHAT IS UP WITH THIS WEATHER
i want to frolic in shorts outside at 9PM D: but i can't do that D:<
screw global warming
the world is ending.
my sunglasses make my nose look small
:)
daniel said i looked like an asian supahstar. if only D:
WHAR THE FANBOYZ??

so this whole tibet thing is getting retarded LOL
hm i read somewhere this girl saying
if you want me to see its faults then leave it alone, putting down my country only makes me more proud of it
at first i was like ??? but now it makes sense.
LEAVE BRITNEY ALONE

i'm so worried.

friday EH we lay on the field and ranted about the ASB. it was fun :)

GAH i want to be in HK so baddd so bad

TIME IS TICKING TI TIME IS TICKING TIME IS TICKING TI TIME IS TICKING AWAY.

ADJUFIASJGOJASOIDJAOIJ

wtf stupid sophomores won the election.
ROAOISDJFIASDFJOAIJDGAOIFAS
they suck i don't like their class. perhaps i am biased, but still D:<
i feel awful for the juniors who lost and won't have another chance
and besides, they had an unfair advantage because every sophomore will vote for them regardless
i don't think the sophomores should run at all -_-

whatever we're gonna own them in spirit
i hope their stupid boat sinks with them in it.
in the deep end.
:)

they're really cocky, i wish they would get over themselves :/

mmm

today, i read that tigerbalm helps with zits. YAYY :D
i'm going to annie get your gun tomorrow, i'm pretty excited. and bcus it's friday, and seany said we'd go to BJ's. well i kinda want to get ice cream but ehh
hrm tonight i have to do my AP worksheet and my english detailed outline and i'm thinking that'll take like three hours possibly, the least hw i've had all week!

we had an assembly today and the guy was all psychiatric on us and demanded that we daydream so i didn't really pay attention to the rest of the talking :/

today afterschool, i talked with alyssa, priya, noelly, and jiajun for a little about prom and it was fun :)

PYLORIC SPHYNCTOR, MYTHICAL BEAST.
so i got an 86 on my bio test and i'm pretty annoyed D:< even though i did really well on my quiz today. BLAH NEED A PLZZ it's so hard to do like REALLY well on his tests, he grades so hard on the writing parts i guess i'm pretty stupid though, the highest i've ever gotten is a 92 on his tests T_T. THAT WILL CHANGE ON TUESDAY. must. get. A. man, if i had tried first semester, my grades wouldn't be as SUCK as they are now. i wish i could move every grade up one letter grade, my life would be so good. anyways i think i should go eat potato sticks now.

edit: why am i so stupid T_T

editedit: i wonder if won hee is okay :/ i'm kind of worried~ he never tells me what's going on :(( well at least he's alive :) so i tried to do the last bits of my AP worksheet but i'm like soo stupid. so i think i'll do them tomorrow morning :/ & i should sleep in my "extra" time but i don't even feel like it anymore i should probably study for bio though :/ I AM GOING TO OWN THAT TEST SO BAD. SO BAD.
GOOD NIGHT.

改变自己

this blog is possibly the most pointless and sporadic blog i've ever written. but nobody reads it :)

hrmm today
i made several stupid mistakes on my math test which is very much not good

i also went to the baseball game which i was superr exciting :)) we beat SHS! yes but afterr i had to go back to school and be a tourguide for the small children (8th graders)
i have definitely developed respect for tourguides T_T it was so awful. and awkward. half the places we went to were locked D:

anyways they're pretty cute i suppose.

[23:19] oryloverpalex91: there's a charlie the unicorn #2
[23:19] oryloverpalex91: thoguht ud like to konw

BAHAHAAHAHAHAHA

anyways so in english, we finished the Great Gatsby and i've decided it's going on my nonexistent list of favorite books although i despise all the characters :/ well maybe nick less so but still, he loves jordan and she sucks D:

It's vanished trees, the trees that made way for Gatsby's house, had once pandered in whispers to the last and greatest of all human dreams; for a transitory enchanted moment man must have held his breath in the presence of this continent, compelled into an aesthetic contemplation he neither understood or desired, face to face for the last time in history with something commensurate to his capacity for wonder.

Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that's no matter--to-morrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms further....And one fine morning----
So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past

i suppose at one point i liked gatsy. actually, i think it was pity.
"now think about this before running off to the east for college" says mr hanlon
so impersonal and so cold.
:/ just thinking about it confuses me
i can't help but worry about gatsby's goals and how it relates to an almost universal dream of success. but do we ever reach it?
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i'm writing my gatsby paper about colors
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i think i should go study for history now :)
good night!

i know shindong, i think he's really cute

<3 jay chouu

i wonder how much fatter i will get for eating ice cream so late at night :/
this weather feels so good to fall asleep and wake up to.
today at church we told very bad jokes and i felt guilty T_T
now i'm talking to harrykim and maimai and alex. and trying to write my dante paper.
my brain is mushy.
i can't be deep and philisophical and think about the inner workings of theology and the themes of hope, mercy, and grace when all i want to do is frolic outside in the sun :(

"3:30, TIME FOR FROLICKING."

this weather looks good on everything

it felt like summer today :)

it's a shame to study on a day like this
my mom and i went out in the convertible for the first time in so long
and it felt good hahaha
being outside in the weather made campbell downtown so appealing for some reasons
we went by santana row too

but my lab report calls to me
a reminder that there are two months left
jiayouu

mm
i'm talking to people now online
i wish i was in asia :/
i'm listening to wei chen wei chen :))

01

new blog new blog!
with nothing much to say
i'll be back later :)