One.Five days

-get a good start on my USC/OTHER app/s
-send D1
-shoooop for secret santa :) i'm so mega excited
-do all duhh homework
-dance
-go dress shopping!! teeheeee
-movies.
-secreeet :)
-bake some tasty treats.
-clean my room
-have the time of my life, basically.

THIS IS WHAT I STILL HAVE TO DO T_T
+
-buy scottlane stuff
-SECRETSECRETSECRET
-finish yb christmas stuff
-design a sweatshirt
-read apes, review psych sunday night, stats wksht, stats hw, stage2 for english, review one flew over the cuckoo's nest

siiigh i don't even feel like i procrastinated,
i went to school all the way through wednesday T_T GIVE ME A REAL BREAK D:<
this break was real good though :)

BBL.
daddy leaves tonight :(

EDIT:
i just watched KUNGFU DUNK
and it was SOO GOOD in the cheesy, really fake, corny, chinese movie kinda way :B pahaha JAY WAS SMOKIN' :))
NOELLY, WE MUST WATCH TOGETHER BCUS
....
O_O hahaha
soo ballin' AND he kicks ass
siigh, whurr are these people in real life? hahaha
he's not even that good looking but he's soo attractive
and then i spent forever looking for the OST just for that tofu-gongfu song bahahha
and i found it.
CONTENT WITH LIFE. sort of

in the process of looking for my AP psych test prep book, i piled all my SAT books in one big stack and it comes to about half thigh O_O
yet, looking at it gives me such a sense of accomplishment.
...
which, for some reason, reminds me of how i IMed noel in a panic the other night bcus i was freaking out about INDENTS on my UC app.

what the eff. i DLed itunes (no i didn't have it before) a few months ago just so i could listen to kkimchee's song and for some reason, everytime it askes for an update or whatevs, it's in KOREAN. GREAT, i can't READ THAT T_T
and sometimes, when i import chinese songs, it's in half korean half chinese characters. fantastic.

i'd like to point out that hit-5, although does not produce the best songs ever, has very good looking people in it. namely ze mei dao :B

lolz this tofu song is awesome.
jayjayjay <3

i kind of want to know why there are 60 people still online -___- at 1AM.
CHURCH TOMORROW <3

I AM THANKFUL FOR

i don't get it T_T

Jesus, 4hoc, my family, harker, my teachers and classes, my friends and classmates, my best friends (SOSr), the guys!, deniz (my other half), mai, mashaa, won hee oppa, our school community, yearbook, the varsity tennis team, yogurtland, textmessages, hot tea, college counseling (martin walsh), late night phone calls, soompi forums ;), europe 2008, music, blogger, emails, lame jokes, oil pastels, nailpolish, bacon, dance, autumn, hong kong, china, SAE, johnny rockets, friday night lights, santana row late at night, internet, facebook, macros, the class of '08, kimchee ramen, the class of '09 :)), jay chou, youtube, homecoming 2008, life, God :D

most of those are in no particular order. and i've probably forgotten a lot of things...

from alexhe:
HAVE A GREAT THANKSGIVING! :] eat your heart out haha.

:)

hmmm i'm thinking that tonight we'll drive to gilroy to shop :)) and then valleyfair?
i really miss megan. she wrote her UC essay about us and our bestfriendship (SOSr). i didn't even know that word until her <3 i hope i see her tomorrow :)
tomorrow night i'm going to church for a huuuge second thanksgiving feast :) dress to impress! i hope james hasn't forgotten our competition from last year....

this break has been good, this morning my dad yelled at me to clean my room
"WE'LL JUST SHOW EVERY POTENETIAL BOYFRIEND A PICTURE OF YOUR ROOM. IF THEY'RE FINE WITH IT, THEY CAN DATE YOU D:<"
excellent.
i went to school everyday this week for college counseling and yearbook but it was fun bcus i got to see my friends :) and i got a lot of work done, we're done with D1 except those photos from herffjones! :) and i'm done with UCs WOOOH mr walsh said i could take the rest of break off but i can't fall behind again. pfft i'm starting NOW.

today, i watched koizora (the movie) and it is SO adorable T_T i want a hiro <3 (LOL PUN)
it was sad too :(

even though thanksgiving is one day, we should be thankful everyday :)

Anything you can dream is possible!

is what it says on the inside of my "No Excuses" book signed by the one and only kyle maynard :))
THANKS MR. DAREN.
there, i said it. and i know you're reading this.

on sunday, we went to the monterey bay aquarium and mr. sutton said he saw us there O_O cool. anyways, i love that place, it's like the 11th time i've been there and i want to have my 17th birthday there :) ahahaha

i think that parent teacher conferences went well
I'M DONE WITH MY UC APP :) hopefully sending tonight....
herffjones can go die, we're almost done with D1 though. whywhywhywhyhwywhyyy

i talked to won hee today who told me he saw ______ and ______ said he didn't know me T_T am i that forgettable??? siiigh :((
unless that was the wrong _____ which i hope very much :/

oh well. HE SUCKS ANYWAYS D:<

i wish first semester would just END.

No Excuses

on friday, kyle maynard graced us with his presence and we got to interview him during lunch O_O
it was amazing. HE is amazing.
whatta hero :)
we also gave him pumpkin pie, kyle and ben liked it.

friiiday was a good day although i didn't get to hang out with maimai. HER loss ;) yaddidameaan.

AND NOW,
thanksgiving break!
i want to:
-send my UC app asap
-get a good start on my USC app
-not DIE FROM TEACHER CONFERENCES
-send D1
-shoooop for secret santa :) i'm so mega excited
-do some shopping for yb ;)
-do all duhh homework
-have an awesome thanksgiving
-go to the aquerium and the tech museum
-hang with my friends
-dance
-go dress shopping!! teeheeee
-movies.
-eat a lot of mashed potatoes
-secreeet :)
-WATCH JAY CHOU'S LONG OVERDUE BASKETBALL MOVIE <3 <3 <3
-cut my bangs
-bake some tasty treats.
-clean my room and fix the light in the bathroom.
-get FAT
-have the time of my life, basically.

lalalalalaalalaalaaaaaa
i hate college apps. and deadline 1. those are the only bad things in my life atm.
i need to find a new drama to watch.
TEA TIME.
farewell, friends.

Today, I

spent half an hour with mLo, mr daren, and mr berry wandering around rosenthal field at 6PM with flashlights looking for mr berry's keys.
it was quite excellent. and cold.

i also made my secret santa wishlist and i have to say, i am QUITE excited to start the 2 weeks of S.S :)

broken hearts shouldn't be allowed.

i hope i can go to christmas in the park :)

FAREWELL

"yeah, that was kinda cute...."

these are sort of fun.

A
- Age: sixteen
- Annoyance : racist people
- Available: of course :)

B
- Been in love: definitely :)
- Been on stage: ahaha yes!
- Believe in God: of course
- Believe in magic: hmmm depends.
- Believe in Santa: i did
- Best feeling in the world: being with people you love
- Best Friends: Jesus, SOSr, deniz, mai, won, the guys
- Best weather: slightly overcast and warmish, high of 75, rain
- Birthday: march 19, 1992
- Body part: mine? i suppose my hands...?

C
- Cake or pie: PIE, i don't even really like cake....
- Candy: ergg i stopped liking candy too...i dunno, the fruity asian ones or chocolate
- Cheese: yes, please
- Chinese food/ Mexican food: BOTH.
- Chocolate/ Vanilla: depends
- Color: pink, teal, tangerine, purplereddish, green, etc.
- Country to Visit: i have a lot :)

D
- Dance in rain?: I LOVE IT.
- Day or Night: night/late mornings

E
- Eggs: yum :9
- Ever failed a class: ahaha no :)
- Eyes: small. :P

F
- First thoughts waking up: ajdisfjgadsfkjgk
- Food: is life
- Full Name: stephanie jin-yi guo

G
- Get along with parents: mmm now more than before
- Goals: as of now, get through the next couple of months :)
- Good luck charm: God
- Greatest Fear: Satan, spiders, asian fan girls, bad grades, hatred
- Gum: makes your jaw wide O_O

H
- Hair Color: darkdarkdark brown/black?
- Happy: ahaha sure
- Height: 5' 4"
- Holiday: CHRISTMAS
- How you want to die: loved and not alone.

I
- Ice Cream: rocky road, mint chocolate chip, plain old vanilla.
- Instrument: piano, guitar

J
- Jewelry: the ring my sister gave me, other random schnitzle
- Job: something that has flexible work hours and lets me travel everywhere and meet important people anddd...i enjoy doing :P

L
- Laughed so hard you cried: AHAH last time? today in 5th period....
- Letter: J or K
- Longest car ride: driving along the east coast. or to LA?
- Love: is wonderful

M
- McDonald's or Burger King: MCDONALDS!
- Milk Flavor: mmm chocolate or strawberry or banana. all of them :)
- Movies: the sandlot, secret, schindler's list, they all start with "s"

N
- Number: 3
- Number of piercings: one on each ear
- Number of siblings: two little sisters

O
- One Wish: TO DIE HAPPY. GET INTO A COLLEGE I WANT TO GO TO. FIND THE LOVE OF MY LIFE (and he loves me back...?).

P
- Pepsi/Coke: coke
- Perfect Pizza: peperoni, sausage, ham, etc :)

Q
- Quail: ~:)

R
- Radio station: don't listen
- Reality T.V.: the only tv i watch is gossip girl :)
- Reasons to cry: unrequited love, bad grade, seemingly hopeless future, when you see the spinning wheel of death (yb thing.....), and just when you need to.
- Ring size: i dunno
- Roll your tongue: mmmmmhm

S
- Salad Dressing: ITALIAN
- Shower daily: ahahah yeah
- Sing in the shower: def not
- Sing well: -_____-
- Skipped school: never
- Skinny dipped: AHAHAAH no.
- Slept outside: ....not recently?
- Song: too many T_T
- Sushi: UNAGI and sashimi :)
- Swear: ahahaha too much...

T
- Tattoos: i had a dream that i was getting one O_O
- Thunderstorms: love them
- Time for Bed: when i'm done with what i'm doing.

U
- Unpredictable: soooort of.

V
- Vacation spot: asiaa

W
- Wanted to be a model: ...no
- Where do we go when we die: heaven, hopefully.
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: hmmm good question.
- Who makes you laugh the most: MAI NGUYEN AHAHAA
- Worst feeling: that nobody loves you T_T
- Worst weather: when it's sunny but COLD.

X
- X-Rays: yess
- (E)xes: ahahahaahah :)

Y
- Year it is now: 2008

Z
- Zoo animal: panda

Last person who.....
1...slept beside you? errr...back in europe? lots of people. ahahaha deniz, i suppose
2...you went to the mall with? my mother.
3...you went to dinner with? the fball guys
4...you talked to on the phone? simran/my mother
5...made you laugh? YB
6...hugged you? ermmm not sure.
7...said they loved you? DENIZ ahaha
8...held your hand: simi
9...spoke with? my mommyy
10...you cried over? YB T_T

THE END. maybe i'll be back :)

Reality

friday was relatively enjoyable, mai and i went on yet another adventure that involved a lot of food, dance was pretty fun too. then we had dinner, me and a bunch of dudes.
story of my life :/
i need some girl friends.
and i've spent all day today "working" and lazing around, i really have to stop being so lazyyy :(

i was reading this girls blog and she was pretty negative in it and she doesn't seem like that when i'm around her so i was thinking that it's kinda sad that people are so good at hiding away how they feel. i suppose it's a good thing too, sometimes, but i think that wearing you heart on your sleeve is an important part of building human relationships...

[16:35] steffo: you know deniz, it's a good thing w're not depressed.
[16:36] deniz: yeah
[16:36] deniz: either that or theres something wrong with us
[16:36] steffo: AHAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHA
[16:36] deniz: because were seniors and we should be depressed
[16:36] deniz: haha

siiigh

things to do:
[ ] 2 apsa pieces (at least)
[x] 6.1-6.2 homework for stats
[x] 5 sources for a research paper in english
[ ] work in app/write two essays
[ ] math test corrections

i wan't wait for second semester....

Silence

it was pretty hard today, not talking. i broke it a couple times, once at dinner and once during first period when i sneezed.
"bless you"
"thank you!"
....

but alas, i cannot actually blog bcus i have to write 2 UC essays and study for a massive APes test
and my head hurts :(
siiigh if i don't write my essays martin says i will suffer the wrath of tarik T_T
____'s 38 year old turkish boyfriend who is bald.
which means my hair will fall out!!

mr. walsh sure is a weird one.

D:<

"petition to reinstate the right of senior quotes...."
...right?

[20:40] k: I DONT CARE
[20:40] k: at all
[20:41] S: THEN WHY'D YOU SIGN THE PETITION
i wonder how much of the petition means anything...?

the only thing it accomplishes/will accomplish is to make us, the yearbook editors, look bad.
i say this not only to inform you that nothing is going to change, but also to demonstrate how stupid this whole thing is.
and why the whole school?

siigh.
well, as everyone is entitled to their own opinion, i suppose i should let them have their fun.
although this is rather bothersome.

btw:
"Furthermore, the fact that the design aspect of the yearbook is placed above the students' creative minds is somewhat troublesome."

contradiction :)

it was well written though, quite humorous. we read it aloud in class.

on a different note, i'm pretty bummed that our draw for CCS was so bad, i mean, if we had met up with mitty, say, in the finals, i bet we'd have gotten a CCS shirt. if we have to lose to them eventually, might as well get a free shirt out of it.
cap and gown was boring today

I WILL BE SILENT TOMORROW.
good thing too bcus i don't want to deal with the bitching and moaning about senior quotes.
ENOUGH, I SAY.

11

happy 11/11 :)
(happy birthday choi minhwan! :])

1. i wish there were more hours in a day
2. i hope that one of the following teachers would kiss a pig: dr. schatz, dr. harley, mr. williamson, and mr. triefenbach. even if i were a junior, i'd love to see dr. schatz kiss a pig :) mmm delicious :9
3. it's pepero day and no one gave me any :( i must be super unloved!
4. here is what mr. sutton wrote to me in an email:
Well, we are busy taking the test now and miss your presence very much. We know that you are fighting (and we hope, winning) the good battle on the court! May your racket swing true, your serve be unstoppable and may you return to us soon ready to take the test.
this makes me want to study super hard :)
5. mr walsh told me that he doesn't get along with australians.
-_______-
6. i really despise those library sessions that teachers insist on giving us every year. for the past 6 years. i had one today :/
7. this cold weather makes me believe that i'd never survive on the east coast.
8. i'm frightened by the fact that we're playing mitty tomorow. we got such an unlucky CCS draw...
9. i love how our school loves to save the world.
10. miss this summer.
11. the light in my bathroom keeps flickering and i'm scared it'll go out whilst i am in the shower.

Banjjak, Banjjak

conversation with my college counselor, emails.
M-"WHERE ARE YOU?"
S-"...i have first lunch. YOU stood me up :("
M-What?? i went, got lunch and came back. i have your essay. i had you coming here at 12???? i am mad at you."
S-"i have first lunch and that ends at 12!!"
M-"argggg"
S-"ARRGHHHH!!!!!"
M-"HUMPH'
S-"(HUMPH)^2"
yes M is for martin.

SPONSOR ME PLEASE :)
in the vow of silence.

AUGUST 18
"beside, i did also notice that this was not brought up much in the news, or at all at school when we always discuss "current events," nor do we donate money to the poor parts of china, or anywhere in that general region for that matter"

dang, i'm practically prophetic :)

Sunset Glow

BIG BANG'S NEW CD IS SO GOOD :)

blergg senior year SUCKS.
SUNDAY NIGHT GOALS
[ ] set up appt with the photographer
[ ] UC essay
[ ] psych paper
[ ] english research paper paragraph
[ ] work on APSA piece
T_T too much too much :(

SENIOR NIGHT was a lot of fun. it's hard to believe that it's OUR senior night....

I HATE BEING VISIBLE i sign on for like 30 seconds to receive a file from simi and suddenly i'm talking to three people i don't want to talk to -___-
...that was kind of mean :/

EDIT:
UC ESSAY-
Describe the world you come from-for example, your family, community or school - and tell us how your world has shaped you dreams and aspirations.
...
WHUT?

"mom, what's interesting about our family?"
...
"we're workaholics."

faaantastic.

[00:21] steffothehottie: wow my essay is suck
[00:21] x swirly whirl x: PERFECT!
[00:21] steffothehottie: ahaahaha
[00:21] steffothehottie: :B
[00:23] x swirly whirl x: you have suceeded in writing the parfekt UC app essay.
[00:23] x swirly whirl x: by writing duh utter crap.

here's to a looong night....

5 Things

1. i HATE when people leave boxes of food open. the food gets gross and stuff :/
2. sometimes i wonder what would have happened if i was one grade behind. would my grades be better? would i have a better shot at college?
but i'm VERY thankful i'm not in the class of 2010
3. i think some people on eaglepostsecret are over-dramatic and silly
4. highschool itself seemed better whilst we were freshmen
5. i'm hungry for some ramen, i always get hungry for ramen at this time at night.
mayhaps i should eat some. every night. lateee at night.
and then i will become fat.

不能说的秘密

hello, brand new four years.

i had mixed feelings towards this election and if i were old enough to vote, i'm (completely uninformed and) not even sure how i would have voted. let's just see how america goes now :)

after taking APes, i've decided that the world is a cruel, cruel place.
and that everyone has their priorities mixed up.
perhaps we should focus on environmental and population crises instead of threatening to nuke each other :/ and making enemies of each other. SAVE THE EARTH ! ahaha :B
but that's just me and i'm pretty naive.

today, liz and i beat ND, the same team that beat cecil+me on senior night. AHA avenged myself :)
it felt good. and cold. so i hope i don't get sick
11 weeks until january 15, the promise land awaits....
but i plan on finishing in 6-7 weeks.
JIA YOU :)

secret #9
this is going to come off really weird
but sometimes, i think about the apocalypse and i wish that Jesus would just come back now. i had that thought whilst i was in mandarin last week because i was not looking forward to the SATs on saturday.

To the ends of the earth.

it's going to be a loong night :(
this is not going to be a good week, i can feel it in my heart
ahahaha

RE: college apps
[18:29] steffothehottie: i mean i look pretty okay on paper
[18:29] simbutt: lol
[18:29] simbutt: you look pretty in person too
[18:29] simbutt: haha

RE: curling hair
megan: LOL dont be ridic. youre still a hottie if your hair looks like curled potatoes.

i have the best friends in the world ! :)

at the moment, i REALLY dislike college counseling and statistics.

ALSO, today i FINALLY go to go to tofuhouse and i've never finished those hotpot things but i did TODAY AND i felt SOO FAT but it felt SOOO GOOD. i even took a photo of this momentous occasion and it's now my phone background. ask to see it :)

WATCH ME
my hero for sure.

Arirang

sg wannabe :)
won showed me their live perf and i lovee that song. their voices are pretty and it makes me sleepy :)

RAMBLE.

Rain

100%

God heard me :)

this morning, i got up super early to get to my SAT almost late. it went way better than last time....i hope colleges don't pay particular attention to my GPA and my SAT IIs ahahaha.

i'm looking forward to giving away all my SAT books. i bet my room will be 2749839% cleaner after i get rid of them :)

two months to go, seniors! we're almost there...JANUARY, the PROMISED LAND.

THIS WEEKEND, I HAVE TO:
start-work on-finish my concentration piece #1.
catch up on stats hw, test on thursday :((
begin my "notes from a _______," connie's doing such an amazing one and i'm jealous :/
study for a mando char quiz
reread mods for psych and begin to study for an APES test
GET TEACHER RECS READY

and buy some cute winterclothes/GALOSHES <3

i feel so much more relieved now that SATs are over. a little more room to breathe....

this weather is amazing.

october 31: