WHAT about my mom?

i'm so torn D:
the whole santa catalina tournament + FSP release is killing me.
i feel like most of responsibility lies here while part of me wants to be there.
and i think that if this wasn't an issue, cecil and i would definitely be on the ladder as 3 doubles :(
I DON'T WANT TO REGRET THIS DECISION.

i'm kinda jealous of the team~

otherwise, this week has been alright. i'm getting used to the lack of sleep pattern i have going on here, and getting to school at an unGodly hour for various reasons...
WAFFLE WEDNESDAY TOMORROW! :)
free food makes getting up early allll better.

on another note, i'm COMPLETELY psyched for the dance on saturday! i'm kinda sad that we're potentially losing 400 dollars just if those many people show up in neon clothes, 400 dollars we could have had!!! bcus honestly, i don't care if you guys dress up or not. 400 dollars! i suppose 200 bcus we split. but whatevs, it's going to be SO FUN.
i'm excited to DANCE THE NIGHT AWAAAY~
it's been too long :)

i'm yaaarninggg to move.
last night mai and i talked about all these dances we would learn/perform/dance production!! and i'm excited to do things. lol

I HOPE THE FSP FINISHES TOMORROW! i'm getting slightly frustrated with yb, i'm not blaming this entirely on ANYONE but i mean, we're all busy...
people just need to learn that these deadlines are VERY important D:<

i think i'm one of those people who need to be honest with themselves and everyone else.