1, 2, 3, 4

WEEKEND GOALS:
[ ] write (2) college essays and send them to mr. walsh
[ ] study for biology
[ ] go to tofuhouse
[ ] finish homework

我好希望你会听见，
因为爱你
我让你走了。

EDIT:
"The new lawn across from the Orchetra building is now open for your enjoyment. Please frolic, amble, mosey, and promenade to your heart's content but leave no trash behind."
-Kevin Williamson

AHAHA. excellent, real grass :)

in the past 5 hours i have done the laundry, cleaned half my room, taken a shower, eaten some kimchi ramen, and written a few paragraphs of my college essays.

U-Go-Girl

yesterday was a crappy day.
i'm pretty happy with my SAT though :)
i lost on senior night. almost undefeated for two years and i lose the most important match? T_T
on my mom drove over the curb which was kinda embarrassing -____-
but a phonecall and a text made me feel better :) a lot better.
my friends are osm.

^ made today soo much better
afterschool, mai and i did our ritual. and dance was fun too :) learned part of ugogirl AHA :D
afterwards...went with bar ger and pao to this..sports bar place
and ate 45 chicken wings between the four of us. MM SO GOOOD :D
then we wandered around santana row and gerry pranced around shirtless and crawled around on the ground at borders.

what an excellent night.

Bittersweet

REAL QUICK:
-SAT SCORES IN ~6 HOURS
-SENIOR NIGHT
-[22:28] twoft3inchestall: if you ever wanna
[22:28] twoft3inchestall: attract the guy who loves classic beauties (jay)
[22:29] twoft3inchestall: dont ronk

EDIT:
-[22:30] poosham boy: dont stop ronking
[22:30] steffothehottie: AHAHAHAHA
[22:30] poosham boy: if a male doesnt like you
[22:30] poosham boy: becuase of your ronking
[22:30] poosham boy: hes not a gut mayne

A Gongzhu Without A Wangzi

FRIDAY RALLY:
i spent the first three periods of the day pissing my pants in anticipation of the rally
i was so scared !
BUT IT WAS AWESOME :) especially since we owned the other classes DESPITE our disadvantage :) i was soo happy.
i heard mr daren talking to mr draper. it's a close one!
either way, the rally was really fun and i loveee our class :)
the sophomores were amazing this time. no offense, juniors, below par compared to last year. you guys were just too good last year :/

we spent two hours folding homecoming programs. i got tired of my own face :(

FRIDAY NIGHT:
ahah we missed the whole game T_T but we got to ride amazingly fun golfcarts.
i feel vain talking about it but when we rolled around to where the seniors were and the place exploded, i never felt so thankful and happy for a class like that.
BTW, we won tug of war :)
there was a tie for queen and i felt happy because i guess we truly represent our class in different ways.
it was also one of the few times i was glad our color's white. we were blinding :)
I CAN'T ASK FOR A BETTER CLASS THAN '09 :)!!!

SATURDAY:
i woke up at like 12 -____- way to go steffo....
i missed my senior portrait appt.
so i showered and ran to harker to do that. then i came home and did NOTHING for like two hours and then i had to go back to harker for dinner :/ NO HOMEWORK DONE WHATSOEVER and next week is a BEAST.

we had dinner at tanglewood which was mega fun, we broke the record with an 800 dollar dinner O_O and thenn we took 934983 photos. i got tired of smiling :(
we helped endorse GUCCI ahahaha and we finally got to do our mannequin poses at H&M after begging them to let us borrow their windows. a huge crowd of people gathered and i had never felt so self-conscious or awkward in my life but it was SO MUCH FUN.

then! back to harkerr
we spent forever in the bathroom and then got too freaked out to walk down the dark hallway by ourselves. we waited for deejay to save us even though it was like 20 ft. colby thoroughly freaked me out and i refused to move.
our entrance was spectacularly fun and i felt like a celebrity.
HC court was never my thing but i am so glad i did it.
the dance was soo fun, a whole lot better than the first mixer (there, i said it) we really do have to stop hiring the same lame dj though...
LETHAL INNOVATION FTW!

basically,
it was an awesome hc week
and the best last hc week i could ask for
but now, it's back to the humdrum of school :/

PHOTOS :)

WHO ROCKS THE HOUSE?

HC RALLY TOMORROW AND I AM SO SO SO NERVOUS :(
the relay is a little more chill this year, esp for the princesses but i got the one hard part :( bcus it's "in my blood." RIDICULOUS, i SAY. just because mulan is my great great aunt -_____-
...just kidding?

the junior dressup was...better than i expected but ridiculously bad compared to ours <3 :)
it was SO WORTH IT, all our hard work. bcus we looked GOOD. even mr. daren said so :))

MR DRAPER IS AN AWESOME CLASS DEAN.

the other day, deniz and i went through the hc court photos and it was RIDICULOUS, they RADIATE BEAUTY. well, except my photos. but WOW. deniz had to close them, it was too intense.
esp those upperclassmen ;)

i know that the juniors really really want to win. and we do too! but even if they do, i'm satisfied with this year, this is the most spirit i've seen with our class and i love us for it. it doesn't matter if we lose, as long we do our best, right?
i'm having so much fun :)

our advisors are srsly the best! they do so much for us :) ms. aguero says it's bcus she loves us and she wants try our hardest, she says that it doesn't matter if we don't get first or second (or third...) for the eagle, we tried our best :P

ahhaha deniz: "O MY GOD. SOME IDIOT FRESHMAN IS MOLESTING OUR PEGASUS O_O"

this week makes me not want to do hw.

SENIORS '09, CAN'T FIGHT THE WHITE :)

ALL ABOUT DENIZ

deniz and i were in the same homeroom in 7th grade except we don't remember each other. much.

for some reason, i have a ton of photos of deniz in seductive poses from freshman year. were we even friends then?
here is a sample.


































sexy, no?

now, we are the gut friends.
we bought butt jeans today and ate greasy foods.

the end!

pee.s.
SENIORS FTW <3

[23:20] x swirly whirl x: you're gongjoo now so it doesnt matter. [23:20] x swirly whirl x: you just revel in your own attractiveness

AHAHAA.

the parking lot looked SO AWESOME today :)
i did see scott underwood driving down the street with seniors painted on the back of his window though. senior accident or junior traitor?

i'm so not motivated to do anything bcus we don't have school tomorrow.
BUT I'M SO EXCITED FOR SPIRIT :) i'm amazed at...this year! haha and i was SO happy when mr draper interrupted our announcement to tell us how amazing we were :) ahosfijhoijdflk!!!
i love us i love us.
and i'm also amazed at how much money we saved O_O esp with the dress up, i wish it were worth more though...shelby and i worked so hard on it!!!
I DON'T KNOW WHY EVERYONE HATES US.
our skit and our eagle promote school and inter-class unity!

i was not extremely impressed with the sophomore dress up today.
but the freshmen were cute!
i'm looking forward to what the juniors will be wearing, if i see anything racist i'm laying the smack down D:<

we're going to look good.

LIZ AND I WON TODAY. the other team scored a total of...7points? in 12 games/two sets. TEEHEE <3

tonight, we ate dinner in honor of masha's birthday and it was super fun, it's been a while since we hung out like that.

COLLEGE ESSAY WRITING TIME.

Act 5, Scene 3, Lines 392-395

"The weight of this sad time we must obey,
Speak what we feel, not what we ought to say.
The oldest hath borne most; we that are young
shall never see so much nor live so long."
-Edgar, King Lear, Shakespeare

EDIT:
today was an amazing day until i signed online tonight.
/EDIT.

"Time Flies When You're Making Togas!"

this week,
1. i flunked my stats test :(
2. i owned psych :)
3. i got my certificate for chinese honor society but totally stood dr. J and mai up. oops?
4. we finished 1/4 of the togas?
5. i got an A on my manning paper!! :)
6. we beat pinewood :)
7. TEAM DINNER/wandering around the mall.
8. senior gongzhu?? how -_-

yaaayayaya good last half the week

on friday,
we rolled an entire roll of fabric out into main hall and made like, 40 togas in half an hour O_O woooo

this weekend
1. buy a dress!
2. go to the picnic -_-
3. do some bio SAT D:
4. finish hw and do duhh studying.
5. sleeeeeeeep

EDIT:

for your viewing pleasure
(it's a series.)

FAREWELL CHILDREN.

oh, and it seems as though the newspaper has published my URL so,
HELLO HARKER :)

HAHAHAH clearly no one else besides the seniors is used to these chain emails.

EDIT:
i feel weird now that my blog may possibly have an audience but all the better for what i'm about to rant about.
1. for like, the first month of school, countless people came up to me to bitch and moan about how they didn't get yearbook forms or a spring supp. this summer. not only did a pitiful number of students come pick them up when we distributed them, a RIDICULOUS number of them were found on the ground. thanks a lot, student body, you guys really know how to make us feel like dirt T_T
YOU DON'T DESERVE OUR SWEAT AND TEARS D:<
2. i never realized that senior quotes were such a big deal.
take it up with student council? get our bathroom sinks fixed first, please.
it's pretty much getting ridiculous, i thought this bashing was reserved for the end of the year when the books came out but i guess it came early this year.

the point is,
people who have no idea what goes on inside that room for countless hours the entire year have no right to criticize.
lastly,
stay out of my business, and deniz's business. bcus it's not yours :)

/EDIT

OH OH AND
"You should see the inter-class shitstorms we superior seniors have."
-daniel hawking
HAAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
btw, this email chain is ridiculously EPIK, harker kids officially have no lives. and yet i sit here and read it. T_T

Closer

WOO i feel so relieved. about everything (HC!!). except the mega huge stats test tomorrow :(( boo

:) thanks.

MR. DRAPER IS THE BEST!! i love our class! so much. :) our dressup day is going to be BOMB. our eagle is beautiful, our skit is cute, our flag is cuuuute :))
what i love best about our class is the involvement, the everybody part, of everything.

RAIN PLEASE :)

i really want the rainy season!! it's finally feeling like fall :D

today was a pretty good day, as good as mondays get anyways, they're so long :(

1. i have massive spider bites on my leg and it's NASTAY.
2. i'm super psyched for hc! even if we lose :) i'ma have some FUN.
3. we had a psych pop quiz and a ridiculous APes test. teachers love to see us suffer.
4. college essays are supposed to reflect us so what does it mean when i can't think of anything...?
5. lol albert chen's new fb picture is a ridiculous photo of me T_T
6. for once in never, mai is being nice and i am not.
7. no one's on my team :((

I feel guilty

that i just got out of bed :( and i didn't go to church!
boooooo

SATs were exhausting :( but the last SATI i have to take EVER. it wasn't a particularly painful experience and i think i did alright, i hope the curve will be good this month T_T bcus it SUCKED in march. anyways, i was pretty tired after and really didn't start homework until 10PM -___- but i did go to johnny rockets with deniz after a long month of ramadan :)) SO GOOD.
but we didn't buy anything after that bcus we felt fat :/

friday was a relatively decent day :) well, it started off CRAP.
and first period did NOT help, mr. gaston tore us apart. second week in a row!! when does this stop T_T bahhh. well, it's supposed to help us, right -__-
classes were okay after that, i ate lunch with danielle and she's right, it was the hardest i've laughed in a while.
the psych test (i think) was pretty easy, my grade depends on it though so i don't wanna jinx it....we got let out like half an hour early so brian and i went to yb/np to hang out and talk about
...SATs :(

AFTERSCHOOL, mai and i went to mitsuwa (reliving old traditions) and spent more than an hour in kinokuniya hahha! they moved our favorite books T_T and mitsuwa got rid of PURIKURA so now i'm super sad :(( but we ate lots of good food.
dance was fun :))

THE END,
this entry was kind of pointless.

homecoming is soon and for some reason, that's even more stress :/ college sucks. school sucks.

i wish i went to krn bbq with the guys friday night :((

EDIT:
so we watched this video in APES about the population crisis and i never realized how bad it was! and i've now decided that the world SUCKS bcus we're fighting over retarded thing when we have many more important things to deal with.
it also makes me so thankful for the things i DO have, but i wish i didn't have them. if the world didn't have such a huge difference in living standards, half our problems would be solved.
DOUBLE STANDARD ALERT.
1. i think that china's one child policy is not getting it's due credit. no matter how you look at it, it's the most effective method of population control yet. america calls this a violation of human rights. PAH, okay, send money and food to every third-world country that needs to keep all of its people warm and fed, after you do this, i'll listen to your definitions of "human rights."
and it's not like the highupthere people don't know this, they just like to manipulate the public in terms of international relations. or i'm giving world leaders too much credit?
2. japan's whole "pure blood" thing is a big ridiculous, 99% of japan is japanese! i understand the whole asian culture thing (even now it's kinda rare to mixblood...?) but not taking immigrants is slightly hitler-esque (as it always has been, we saw this back in the rape of nanjing times...) and NOT helping japan's future economy. HAVE MORE BEBES D:
3. india's booming population problem makes me soo sad :(( especially what the wives go through D:
4. i wonder what would happen if america suddenly had a huge babyboom. and i mean huge. huger than the early '90s (which is why we're screwed for college!! LAMESAUCE!)
5. i lol at people who say "boycott chinese toys!! augh lead paint!" china is too self-sustaining to give a shizz.
6. simi thinks that being here for the end of the world would be pretty sick. HAA! me too. yaddida mean, when Jesus comes and stuff. (HAR HAR MR DAREN :P).
7. the only thing the world really lacks is compassion and understanding. THE WORLD IS INCAPABLE OF PEACE AND LOVE.

I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD, I really do.

[stats class, frame game]
cheekDANCINGcheek
class: "dancing between cheeks!!"
thiele: "aw man that's GROSSS."

gerry's make-me-smile gurantee!:
okay so get a piece of tape, a long-ish one. didja do that? kay, so put one end of it to the tip of your noseee, mk? then put the other end on the top of your head. now, say RONK! RONK RONK! and there is no way you can be sad. essspeshully if you look in the mirror while doing this or if you make your arms into wings and crouch at the same time.

he's got to be the weirdest kid in the world, but the method works....

sean.

and steffo i know you can do it

it's not supposed to be this stressful

but you're a superhero

and can do anything

:]

JIA YOU

everyone should go look at that ridiculous video of me that cecil made.
it makes me laugh so hard. and it would have been more funny, cept it's me :(

JIA YOU, jinyi :((

i wanna sleep away the next two weeks/until december?

只要笑一笑，没什么事是过不了的。过不了的。

A few observations for the day.

1. today's weather was so nice! i mean during tennis practice, overcast and warm :) i liked it. i can't wait for the rainy season!
2. our class is really good looking. it's ridiculous.
3. SENIOR YEAR, it's crunch time :(
4. i hear so much backstabbing and badmouthing people O_O makes me wonder what people say about me behind my back. i know i gossip a lot :X but i'm a nice person! i think...?
5. EVERYONE NEEDS TO RELAX.
6. this thiele homework is RIDIKULOUS.
7. the juniors have fallen into the "oh" trend. "oh ten." cool, guys :)
8. the class of "oh ten" is really getting owned by collegeboard. i almost feel bad for them, but not really. i hate collegeboard!!! and i should have tried the ACT before taking the SAT again T_T STUPIDDD
9. i miss asia.
10. it's going to be a long night.

:D

HAPPY OCTOBER!
THAT much closer.
go go '09, you can do it! :)

Chut Kiseu

i'm so overwhelmed with school these days, what with yearbook, tennis, dance?? (??), SATs this saturday, and college apps??
i cannot wait until december.
and it's not even october :((

at one point, i might have liked the class of 2010 as a whole. i thought they were cute with their annual christmas parties and what not. but then i heard them talk sht about seniors way too many times for unjustified reasons
and i've simply lost respect for them.
i like them individually! but not together -__-
i am no fan of this whole smack talk business because to be fair, they are good competition on wednesday.
but i hope karma bites them in the ass >:D

i have nothing to write atm. but i will later!

EDIT:
I. AM. FRUSTRATED.
1. i suck at art.
2. i suck at math.
3. english was okay
4. yearbook <3
5. mandarin was boring. and i was getting really annoyed at people during lunch -___- grow up please :)
6. i don't like psych.
7. apes was alright :)

Always be my baby.

i don't know if it's just me but this year, fridays never felt so good.
these weeks have been too long and too stressful and tiring....
weekends are well deserved.

or they're just extra time.

we won on friday! there's something about friday night lights that make me so happy.
it's the amazing atmosphere at school football games that make me feel so good.
and i'm so happy we won, bcus our boys deserve it!

we also made 40dollers and steff-o is happy.

BUT. the SATs are on saturday! saaad face :(

i was thinking about graduation the other day. and it made me sad so i stopped.

have you ever loved someone/something so much you felt giddy/nervous/pain/joy/kindagross inside all at the same time? i do, all the time.

secret #8
i'm afraid of being forgotten.

EDIT:
mr. draper sent our last last spirit email like this:

Go Seniors!!!

Jeff Draper
Proud Dean of the Senior Class

aw :)

at least four of my photos have been pfed on fb. i'm proud.
shelby, anteneh, connie, sean morgan, check itt

Inspire me.

today was a terrible day but it ended up really well. or maybe i'm just so apathetic towards everything that i'm just always...happy?

first period....ms. aguero totally ripped us apart T_T i'll admit that this project really sucked for me and i didn't really put much heart into it....
and she said she was disappointed in us :( i hate when adults say that. and then she singled out shelby and it pretty much sucked from there on. and she totally got on lauren about coming late and told her she wasn't committed -___- poor lauren.
i don't think we'd still be here after a semester of pre req if we weren't committed. anyways. that wasn't fun to hear first thing in the morning.
advisory was fun though :)
second period was lame since we discussed our tests and i ended up with a B T_T BAH and i felt like i did so well on it!
psych was SUCK. omfg i think i'm getting an interim. and i have like a borderline B?? schatz is the only senior teacher i know who cares about the whole 85 and below business. and now i have two weeks to bring it up. soo sophomore year repeat. that was the last time any teacher really got on me for that -____-
LAME. the class isn't fun at all :(
APES was fun, though :) haah our class is so chill.
TENNIS MATCH! we wonn :) against castilleja :D i think that moni and i played pretty okay today :) so that makes it so much better. WE'RE UNDEFEATED. perhaps that's why i'm in a good mood. and i'm done with hw and it's only 1040! well. "done"
i still have to do some sketches for apsa and catch up on math hw.

this is a really lame and wordy post but i felt like recapping my bad/okay day.

geez i read so many emo and depressed posts/hear about these things from people. LIFE WILL GET BETTER, DON'T WORRY.
STEFF-O SAYS RELAX! or maybe i should stop this business and get on things that need urgent seeing-to such as my college applications....
not that i'm behind but....
SATs IN 9 DAYS?? D:

to all the juniors....
senior year is harder so suck it up! there's a long way to go :(
i'm so ready for school to be over. it's not even october. HAHAH last whine of the day, i promise. junior year, i thought, taught me to get over myself. sort of.
NO MORE COMPLAINING, STEFF-O.

but the year seems like it's going by so slowly. every friday feels good and well-deserved, though. which is good. and every weekend feels so short. which is very bad.
i'm looking forward to tomorrow though,
we're going to present at the assembly on our trip to europe :) bah my fug face is going to be on display for the whole high school T_T
and tomorrow is the football game! :)
super exciting.

I WISH SEAN WOULD NOT MOVE T_T

i had a dream about homecoming last night -___-

NEXT LONG TERM DESIRE: PSAT DAY/APP DAY/SENIORS DON'T GO TO SCHOOL DAY/HC SHOPPING DAY :))
OCTOBER 15.

halfquoting mr. thiele....
BEAT SENIOR YEAR.

回家吧 回到最初的美好

GOOD NEWS:
JAY CHOU'S ANNUAL ALBUM IS COMING OUT ON THE 9TH? i think.
he promised an album every year and he's delivering :) what a beast.
i'm so happy hahaha :D
the new concept is SO much better than last years hahaa
cowboys. what was he thinking T_T

hmm
DODGEBALL was intense :) i'm excited to see seniors play the juniors next wednesday! ultimate epik match.

I'M SO EXCITED FOR HOMECOMING. and i have nothing real to say right now except that i do not want to paint and i do not
want to think about college
and i do not want to write essays and i do not
want to go to statistics bcus thiele's class is absolutely BEASTLY
and i do NOT want to go to psych.

i LOVED my classes but not anymore T_T

i DO want to sleep
to go frolic in the fields
to eat johnny rockets
ramadan to be over
friday to come so i can go to the fball game!
HOMECOMINGGG <3 teehee :)

this is a boring post. i bid you good night !

EDIT:
i lied, i'm back. to whine.

AUGHASJDSOFJOAIA!!!!
psych is killing me T_T i totally slaved over a stupid book that isn't even worth much and due on the same day as a massive test that i didn't even do as well i as should have i guess and THEN the next day we had a pop quiz on which i probably scored 30%. max. AND we probably have another one tomorrow on WHAT? I DON'T KNOW. GAAAHAIDLF

brian was bothering me about why i was so happy
and i said "WHY, AM I NOT ALLOWED TO BE HAPPY FOR NO REASON?"
and dr. schatz said "not in my class."
that REALLY freaked me out T_T

the end. of meeee :(

EDIT2:
I HATE. WHEN I HATE. MY WORK.
and i hate THIS PIECE OF CRAP that must bring in to be critiqued, it just should just burn. along with my other piece that's sitting my cabinet. I HATE THIS FEELING
rararara

:)

HULLO ANGELI :D