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Fill me with You

retreat was the best thing that happened to me this break (except... :B)
or well, almost the ONLY thing that happened to me this break -_-
the weather was ridiculously terrible, it hailed the first night we got there. it hurt :(
but living in the waterlogged mountains with your church family and
bonding with each other and God
is the best experience in the world.

i'm very thankful for the relationships i strengthened and the new ones i formed.

hrmm

DAY ONE:
we moved in and chilled and ate a lot.
we had our first session
we received our "lives" and filled it up with the good things and the bad
i found it hard to concentrate, particularly because we were pretty exhausted.
we stayed up pretty late talking, it started with "let's ask each other questions" but turned into "lets ask the senior girls awkward questions."
underclassmen are very very curious...

DAY TWO:
rain rain rain
we had a few more sessions, ate a lot more
sermon was focused a lot on forgiveness. pretty hard to digest...
group activities and games :)
lots of bonding and eating
LOTS OF FREE TIME=FACEBOOK. i never realized how dependant i was on it T_T sighh
we got back together to share more about forgiveness and the mood ended up kind of solemn :/
hrmm we got kicked out of the lounge when we tried staying up all night playing bang
so we went back to our cabin to play mafia with the young adult and talk about...boys :)

DAY THREE:
MORE RAIN T_T sigh
but slightly better today.
a lot more bonding and eating, more sessions
more praying.
more playingg
we had our campfire. indoors
it was a good time for reflection and reevaluating
ridiculous body worship (better stay off fb....) and gospel choir (HAHA)
we sorted out our "lives" and did a symbolic and physical dump of everything bad into the fire.
it felt really really good, to be able to get rid of something so easily, and be surrounded by people who are in all sorts of different places in life, but know that they're with you in some way.
but it was also really difficult to realize how hard it would be to change.
regrouped with cabins
didn't stay up too late, james came around 1 to borrow the febreeze for various bathroom needs....jen and sally came by around 2, but most of us were asleep....

DAY FOUR:
slept in :) did cabin clusters
prayed.
BRUNCH (river of life left, LESS LINES :D)
last sermon
group photo
packed
..more photos
and home :)

and that is it in a nutshell.

Holy fire burn away,
my desire for anything
that is not of You and is of me.
I want more of You and less of me.

Empty me, empty me
Fill, won't you fill me
with You, with You
The Room.
i wanted to cry, listening to alice read this story outloud
for some reason, none of us felt like discussing it. instead, we shared and prayed about each other
blafjoigkjk!!!
read it!

that is all, i said i would go to bed an hour ago, but i didn't.
good night!

1 comment:

M. said...

i wonder why you didn't go to sleep earlier :]
read the story. it really is something