i had a dream

a couple nights ago and it had to be the weirdest dream i have ever had O_O

anyway, i'm PRETTY sure it began with ana, simi, and i having to jump from this helicopter or something of that nature and we were plunged into the icy depths of a glacial ocean with the sole objective of swimming underwater until we found the shore. for some reason it never occurred to any of us that we should be swimming upward before we ran out of oxygen. but then this brilliant idea happened on ana and we just HAPPENED to swim through one solitary hole in the ice, the only hole for like, miles, or something. anyway, from there, we could see land/a beach (with sand and everything....lawl so tropical!) and we swam there and when we got closer and were randomly clinging onto a mini iceberg, simi whips out her phone and it says it's got "bear reception" on it which means both that there are bears on that piece of land and that she can call. and i took mine out and it says there is "monkey reception" and i got all excited bcus i was certain this was my motherland, australia.
but no, it gets weirder.
when we get close enough, there is this MASSIVE sign that says "WELCOME TO LOS ANGELES" with a smiling sun and we're like wott and we run into the guys (i specifically remember barrett asking where we'd been) and we were all there on some sort of seniortriplagunabeach kind of adventure.
then the scene shifts and i'm with mai and unknownmale? and we're in like chinatown. and we were really desperate for some pure aloe harvested from the aloe plant and we spied some on the top of someone's house and the houses were all very victorian. anyway, we snuck in and climbed all the way to the top and snipped off the leaves and began to come down. i remember waiting in anticipation for that moment we could run away in freedom with our aloe leaves but the owners of the house catch us and all we did was ask very calmly if we could have some aloe and they said yes. then we saw sabrina paseman and her brother sitting at the foot of the stairs. in my dream, i vaguely remembered that she was in hong kong and asked her how hong kong was except the weird thing was that she was like...a younger version and she just looked at me with this confused face (bcus she hadn't, in fact, gone to hong kong). then we finally escaped and we were on the streets and i was telling every street vendor our exciting story bcus mai magically happened to be in the iceberg adventure too.
THE END!

100 truths.

STEFF-O IS BORED. GO LOOKIT MY YAK PHOTOS ON FB.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = green tea
2. last phone call = simran
3. last text message = henry
4. last song you listened to = bodyguard by shinee!!
5. last time you cried = hahhaha a couple nights ago? for random reasons -___-

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = yes
7. been cheated on = ....hopefully not
8. kissed someone & regretted it = at one point
9. lost someone special = mhmm
10. been depressed = naaah just sad.
11. been drunk and threw up = nope!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. pink
13. teal
14. tangerine!

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = uhmm i think so!
16. Fallen out of love = nope
17. Laughed until you cried = lawl no. but i've got abs of steal now!
18. Met someone who changed you = yess!
19. Found out who your true friends were = i've always known
20. Found out someone was talking about you = HAHAAH ALL THE TIME HAHHAHA
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = oh yahh ;)

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = most if not all
24. Do you have any pets = nope.
25. Do you want to change your name = uhmm i'm okay with it :/
26. What did you do for your last birthday = spent two days and a night at the beach with my closest friends :)
27. What time did you wake up today = uhmmm 945 AM
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = talking to mai :P
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = spirit west coast, retreat, when won comes home.
30. Last time you saw your Mother = half an hour ago?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = taking some things more seriously in high school. and being a more confrontational person
32. What are you listening to right now = the chinese dramas downstairs
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = probably...?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = nothing
35. Most visited webpage = gmail/facebook
36. Where do you want to be right now? = on the dance flo, with won, at the beaaach, on the town.
37. Nicknames = steph, steff-o
38. Relationship Status = IN LOVE
39. Zodiac sign = pisces
40. Male or female? = girlieee
42. Middle School = HARKER
44. Hair color = dark brown? black?
45. Long or short = medium ish. long.
46. Height = 5'4
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = i guess you could say that
48. What do you like about yourself? = my nails.
49. Piercings = ears
50. Tattoos = NONE!
51. Righty or lefty= righty
52. First surgery = uhm...none?
53. First piercing = ears
54. First best friend = bryan yu, aimee nguyen, and lauren strom-berg :P
56. First vacation = sydney? out of the country...china?
58. First crush = bryan yu.

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = nothingg
60. Drinking = nothingg
61. I'm about to = brush my teeth and sreep. or read a good book.
62. Listening to = the highway near my house. kinda.
63. Waiting for = tomorroww

OUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = three please
65. Get Married? = def
66. Career? = something out of a cubicle

WHICH IS BETTER
67. Lips or eyes = lips. heh
68. Hugs or kisses = uhmmm BOTH!
69. Shorter or taller= taller please
70. Older or Younger = older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = a bit of both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = mmm arms :P
73. Sensitive or loud = ...both. you can be both.
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant =a fungi

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = nope
77. Drank hard liquor = err
78. Lost glasses/contacts = nope
79. Sex on first date = no
80. Broken someone's heart?= most likely
81. Had your own heart broken = oh yahhh
82. Been arrested = noo
83. Turned someone down = back in the day...
84. Cried when someone died = definitely
85. Fallen for a friend? = haha.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = i am here. and alive.
87. Miracles = definitely
88. Love at first sight = that is lust
89. Heaven = yes.
90. Santa Claus = nope
91. Kiss on the first date = mmm maybe, depends!
92. Angels = of course

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf?= nahh
95. Did you sing today? = in the car
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = nope!
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = i dunno...on a small scale? maybe freshman year. large scale...the ice age :D heh jk
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? uhmm from 2008? good question.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody? = uhmm kind of. nothing to worry about right now though :P
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = yesh.

party every day p-p-p-party every day

FRIDAY:
aakash's bangin party :B haha it was nice to see a lot of harker kids again although i saw some only 4 days earlier O_O this week has been ridiculously long.
hanyway, lots of delicious food and conversation and then we danced the night away with strangers
........
HAHAHHAHA

SATURDAY:
church grad night! was awesome we had this city-wide scavenger hunt (tino and SJ) and we ran allll over the place. i am SO out of shape T_T
anyway the senior girls tied with the senior boys, LAMEEE
the list included
"number of a payphone" "take a picture of you making a pyramid at tap-ex" "take a picture with the merlion statue" "ride the escalators at AMC 16" "take a picture with a stranger" "run through the tartini fountain"
haaahaha it was amazing.
i love 4hoc :)
hopefully i'll find a fellowship just as amazing at usc....

anyway, we were also presented with the kingdom challenge/assignment in the form of one hundred dollars. ask me about it or google it :) i'm excited :D

SUNDAY:
after church my sister had her bday party
it was amazingly...loud.
her cake was a pikachu, i'm quite proud of it.
the children were obnoxious
i got my tan on.
lawl. sort of.

THAT IS ALL, GOOD DAY.

4:38 PM Seoul Time

i've just been freaking lazy since i got home from orientation and maybe i don't even plan on blogging about tibet! sighhh.

1. THIS WEEKEND WAS GREAT. or well, sunday. we spent it at alex he's house screwing around with old friends and indulging in quality girl gossip.
2. monday, we arose after a long night bright and early at noon and went to harker! hooray!
3. HARRY POTTER PREMIER on tuesday was flipping AWESOME bcus, well, we got to see it four hours early, and bcus i got to see seany megan naomi and barrett! well, mostly seany naomi and megan since i saw barrett the past two days. we ate at armadillo willy's sooo gooood :) i love that place.
hanway, it was fun walking out of the theatre a full hour before the suckers in line could even get into theres :) teehee
4. i didn't do anything all day! and then sean texted me about the miraculous tournament going down at saratoga high but to be honest i was way too lazy to drive the whole two miles. but then the guys came later to pick me up after their match and they sent the two guys who don't know where i live. so david got out of his car, convinced it was my house, and serenaded a large white man three houses down. it was excellent.
anyway, we watched napolean dynamite, it was terribly hilarious. terrible. and hilarious.
5. i didn't do anything today.
6. PAAARTAYYY :)
7. gradnight on sat? hopefully...and happy bday lil sis :) teehee

sigh i've been wasting my post-grad summer away eating cheez-its, reading tacky girl books, and talking to the boyfriend whose in koreaaa :(
sigh.
he gets off work in a little less than two hours. :D

kay bye.

HELLO READERS

it's been a while, my bad :(
since coming back from china, i haven't really had time to upload photos/too lazy or write about my trip but i promise that that's coming soon!
orientation wasn't amazingly fun but i met a lot of cool people and i LOVE usc :)
i'm really excited to start school but i'm kinda bummed that i didn't get all the classes i wanted :/
anyway.
i just saw a fleece blanket with a toucan on it. it seemed to be rainforest themed hehe i want it.
i love fleece blankets.
my dorm is amazing.

that is all,
good day to you all. call me up, i'm home, with a car, and usually hungry.

HKIA

at the airporttt
not looking forward to this 11 hour flight
sadface :(
will update with 8? day journey in tibet
tata!
happy fourth of july, americans! it's july 5 hurr already
speaking of which
5 months :)) <3

zai jiaan.

Cup o' Noodle or Summin

I'm watching Rush Hour :) Teehee

Today has been totally uneventful, all I've done is sit at home and talk to Won anddd yah. I wanted to go to Mongkok but it was pouring on and off and I felt kind of yucky :(

Jackie Chan is such a baller.

Yesterday, my dad took me to Festival Walk at Kowloon Tong annd then Sha Tin mall on the way to dinner. Yesterday was very tiring :(

This entry is very incomprehensible bcus I'm watching a movie.


http://www.cyon.co.kr/data_svc/product/feature_img/LG_LH5000_feature.jpg
Pretty, huh :)
The LED lights turn into pretty shapes and I spent like half an hour changing them hehhee.
Kay I'm too distracted to keep talking about it.
Good day.
Time to watch Jackie kick some assss :)

ice cream juseyo

I GOT A NEW PHONE YAY :))
heeheehe I bought it on Mongkok (of course) for really really cheap and it's...beautiful!
Oh I got the Ice Cream LG btw :) The only thing I'm bummed about is that the unlocked version (basically any version outside of Korea) doesn't have an internal camera so I can't camwhore like Kim Tae Hee or anything T_T but she's got the Ice Cream 2 which is fuglier. Anyway, I've also been reading soompi and there have been some pretty negative reviews but I'm crossing my fingers bcus the phones bought in Mongkok are magical. :) /on steroids! Anyway, I'm hoping that since I didn't buy it in the U.S. or Canada or on Ebay, mine will be perfectly fine.

I want to go shopping today. Hm, my second day in Hong Kong....
Well, we first went to Mongkok and bought my phone and wandered around nu ren jie and various other places. Then we had lunch and I got all jetlagged so we just chilled at home -_-
Thenn...we watched a really good movie. AHAHAHA
Afterwards, my dad and I walked to the Harbor and had a really good dinner and wandered around the huge shopping complexes enjoying the frigid air conditioning. The sudden temperature changes from outside to inside CAN'T be good for you..
Anyway, Cheney comes tomorroww
Sigh, must eat with father's boss tonight. Happy day................

I want to do something exciting today.
I'm hungry.
Goodbye!

Hong Kong Day 1

The plane ride sucked :( 13 hours. I wish someone would just invent teleportation -__- that's not even a word in the blogger dictionary! ridiculous.
Anyway, I saw an inordinate number of people I knew on my plane -_-

BUT it's good to be back :D teehehefdk all I've done is eat though since I got here at 6 PM
and now I am awake at 5AM (2PM your time, the hottest time of day LAWL) and I'm hungry :( So I will eat Milo cereal. (WHY DON'T THEY MAKE THAT IN THE US).

Oh I briefly went cell phone shopping at the mall, like in the real stores and was kinda disappointed BUT they had the LG Ice Cream!! fadojf I WANT.
Hopefully I'll get to go to Mongkok before making a decision. And hopefully my mom gets me unlimited texting. And hopefully Won starts talking back on gmail -_-.

Kay good day to you all!

Goodbye California

See you in 18 days!
Helloooo China :)

I ate three gummy vites today O_O

I'm a badasss
Monday:
I hung out with Albert and we went to Korea Tofu House and ate to our stomachs content. We bumped into Mike Lee and Whitney Then we digested and ate at QCup. Then we picked up Dena from the airport and then Anthony came over, but before that! We watched Boys over Flowers :) HEHEH SO EUN <3 KIMBUM
Kay after that we ate at this pho place where we bumped into Glish and Alan and them.... Then we went to Beard Papa's.
200 lb beauty status.

Tuesday: Hung out with Won :))))

LOL AT THIS SURVEY, all the under classmen are doing silly myspace-y things such as these quizzes and posting them and since i've done nothing but stalk people on fb (and not pack) and OD on vitamins, I'll do one more useless thing today.

This is the Layer Cake, covering different parts of your life.
Fill it out and tag TEN people you would like to fill this out!
11 Layers of Me

--Layer One: On the Outside

Name:: (N/A bcus Mr. Daren says creepers might read this. :D)
Birthday:: March 19, 1992
School:: Hmm tough question. I'll say USC bcus...creepers read this.
Major:: Communications
Minor:: N/A
Current Location:: Saratoga :)
Eye Color:: "Dirty water with fishies in it." Sean Mandell
Hair Color:: BLACK
Righty or Lefty:: Righty
Zodiac Sign:: Pisces :)

--Layer Two: On the Inside

Your Heritage:: CHINESEEE :))
Weakness:: Being alone :(
Goals:: Be awesome. And happy.
Regrets:: Not living it up in high school :/
Change one thing about your life:: Hmm...I wish my mac would come earlier. Or that I could stay in China longer. Or that this summer wouldn't end so fast. ORR if I didn't have to clean my room :( or pack....
Relieve Stress:: Cry, talk to people. Lol -_-
Hardest thing ever dealt with:: HAHAAHAHAHAH the first couple college rejections...maybe? Things that upset you:: Racism, close mindedness, cruel people, unfair things, when people treat other people badly
Vent about something:: Life is good.

--Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your thoughts first waking up:: WTF THAT WAS A SCARY DREAM. And my throat hurt. Partly bcus of my dream.
Your bedtime:: Uhmmm sometime along in the morning in the summer :)
Your most missed memory:: Middleschool/Senior year (May, especially :D)

--Layer Four: You're picking

Pepsi or Coke:: Coke, please
McDonald's or Burger King:: MCDONALDS :)
Single or Group dates:: Err...both! :)
Lipton Tea or Nestea?:: Chink green tea plz. Hehh
Chocolate or Vanilla:: Ice cream? Vanilla.
Cappuccino or Coffee:: Either :D

--Layer Five: Do You

Do drugs? Medicinal
Have a crush:: A HUGE ONE O_O
Think you've been in love:: Mhmm!
Want to get married:: Yes
Believe in yourself:: Sometimes
Think you're a health freak:: Sometimes

--Layer Six: In the Past Month

Drank alcohol:: Probably
Gone to the mall:: Too many times since graduation -_-
Eaten Sushi:: Too often
Gone skating:: Nope
Dyed your hair:: Never
Done something exciting:: Every day.

--Layer Seven: Have You Ever

Played a stripping game:: Hahahah no.
Gotten beaten up:: Only by the guys :D
Changed who you were to fit in:: Uh....not that I recall? Mayhaps back in the 11yearold days of 7th grade....
Hid something from someone:: Sigh, probably.

--Layer Eight: Getting Old

Age you're hoping to be married:: 25? Sometime then :)
Age to start having children:: 28? Well, after I get married of course.
Want to travel to:: Greece, Japan, Africa, Spain, Rome, Korea, the motherland :(

--Layer Nine: Perfect Mate
Best Eye Color:: Beautiful
Best Hair Color:: Dark?
Short or Long Hair:: Not short but not long. In the middle :)

--Layer Ten: What were you doing...

1 minute ago:: SOOMPI HEHEHE
1 hour ago:: Eating Kimchi Ramen
1 week ago:: Eating lunch with Henry and Logan
1 year ago:: Hm...IN EUROPE?? :)

--Layer Eleven: Finish the Sentence
I LOVE:: Youu
I FEEL:: Content
I HATE:: My hair. It won't grow :(
I MISS:: Everyone siiigh. The class of '09 :((
I NEED:: To pack...

OH HARROS YOU BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL GROUP OF PEOPLE.
Kay. I'm bored.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ymxE3Ahqeg&feature=related

This week was pretty long/felt busy although in reality, I still didn't really do much :/

Monday
I went out with Simi to buy things that we didn't even end up using this week!! :( Mayhaps this coming week...

Tuesday
I watched Star Trek with Won, he was pleased about that hahaa
and etc.

Wednesday
Had lunch with Logiebear and Henry at Red Robins, which was really really good and took like two hours. Got to see Lynbrooks yearbook too! Really different from ours. But the biggest difference is that the opening and the closing are entirely incomprehensible.
I also went to the library and borrowed some books, I JUST finished Pretties by Scott Westerfield. It's the sequel to Uglies and what I HATE about these books is that they all end in a cliff hanger. So I'll have to go to the library tomorrow to get Specials. It's a sci-fi series, actually, and it's pretty interesting. Eyeopening social criticism on conformity, change, and superficiality. I definitely recommend it :)

Thursday
I hung out with Simi, we ate at the foodcourt and wandered around aimlessly. Kind of. I went to three graduations too, what a ridiculously tiring two hours O_O
My plan was go see Henry by 6:30PM at Prospect (they started at 6:00 PM and he's the tenth person to be called), go by Lynbrook and see at LEAST Logan (they started at 6:30 PM and he's the sixth person), drive super fast to Monta Vista and see Megan (they started at 6:00 PM and she's like, the last row or something!) and MAYBE see Cupertino (they started at 6:30 PM and Alice was in the second to last row). It was an AMAZING PLAN. Except Prospect ran late, so I went straight to MV and spent like half an hour looking for Megan. We almost missed her, but we did run into four different Harker kids/alum -__-. Then Cupertino :) made up to the Lynbrook kids at dinner haahahaha. We ate at Chevy's, the same place I ate at after MY grad :)
It felt kinda weird to be the only graduate who had graduated almost a month ago O_O
But talking about college was fun, the guys gave me a lot of advice on how to survive at USC :P

Friday
Baseball game! A's v. Giants. A's lost though, unfortunately :( It was quite disappointing. But it was still fun to sit in the box with the guys and co. :) (Drew's grandfather is Lew Wolff O_O, DREW AND THE OAKLAND A's ARE ON A FIRST NAME BASIS.) It wasn't even that cold and the ice cream hadn't run out by the seventh inning stretch so we all paid 8 dollars for some Ghiradelli's ice cream sundaes :9 Life is good.
MMM cracker jacks, free nachos, peanuts, garlic fries, chicken tenders homnomnomnom
We stayed in the room for a good twenty minutes to avoid traffic and took a very interesting elevator ride down....
It rained that night!
Hung around Seany's front yard for God knows why and then went downstairs and watched Superbad which was superbad. Well, not really, but it didn't have much of a point besides the whole "coming of age" thing -___-. That and I was the only "girl" in the room haahahaha awkward questions ftw.
Got home late.

Saturday
David's grad party! Was pretty fun, the food was good, the company was great. It was full of random things like the Ninja Game and karaokeing and having strange conversations by the hot tub. A fabulous bash for sure. :D
Then..late into the night...
Party at Doherty's of course. This time, we watched Officespace which was kind of ridiculous and I was apparently the only one who hasn't seen it yet. It wasn't THAT funny, but Milton was great.
Got home late again.

Sunday
Of course, woke up late for church :/ Service was good, but hard to concentrate. Sigh, that is no good. A lot of college kids came back, which was cool, got to talk to Kathy and Johnny.
Hmm...went to lunch at In n Out with Won and hung out all afternoon :)

And that is all.

I BOUGHT A MAC BTW, but before anyone gets excited, it's the oldschool white one. Not the new macbook pro. It came with a free iPod Touch, though. That already came.

LAPTOP COMES ON FRIDAY. CHIPOTLE OPENS ON THURSDAY, FREE BURRITOS.
LEAVING ON THURSDAY FOR HK/TIBET. FML.

Mon Amour

Oh hello readers!

I am still succeeding in doing absolutely nothing this summer :(

Friday (FOUR MONTHS):
I went to the Y with Simi and then we went to Tartini, I spent 6 dollars :( Then I went home and Anthony picked me up. We went to get his tux from Mens Wearhouse and it took like HALF AN HOUR. I honestly don't understand why it takes guys so long to put on tuxes -_- Anyway, then we went to Mai's house to battle her dog, Foxy Grandfather. Afterwards, we ate a bunch of crap and watched fob videos on Youtube for like...2 hours. The end!

Saturday:
I woke up shoooper late -___- and went to the park with the bf :)
Yes, that is all.

Sunday:
I woke up at 10:15 AM for church -___- The sermon was for the graduates, mostly. And then they bid us farewell :( So sad. Sigh, I will be leaving a church I've attended since the second grade :/ that's 10 years!!
Afterwards, some of us went to Chipotle to eat lunch. Many unmentionable things occured there. Then they decided to follow me home where James needed to urinate in my bathroom.
I washed my car yesterday! Yes for something productive!
One of the things 4Hoc gave us was a Starbucks gift card and a note that read "Help for your first all-nighter."
:)

That is all, good day.

Skyway Avenue

TIME FOR....
STEFFOS SUMMER LIST :)
(semi-inspired by Lana)
Okaaaaay....

So I've decided that this is the one summer not to get a job because it should be the most carefree summer possible so definitely holding off on getting a job.

June:
1. Go to the GYM (that is in progress, thank you very much DOUBTERS lawl)
2. Go to at least one game of the A's v. Giants series before leaving for the motherland
3. Finish up those grad parties :D
4. See all the summer movies that are coming out
5. THEN the rest of the month will be spent in HK/Tibet :D

July:
1. Come back just in time for JULY 4th with Wei Wei (hopefully :))
2. Orientation down in L.A. 6-7
3. Attempt to continue to work out in anticipation for FRESHMAN 15 :(
[Create a summer bucket list (SUCKET LIST. Inspired by Alyssa, Sarah, Lauren, and Co.) which will include the following (at least):]
4. Baseball games!
5. Parties at Doherty's ?
6. Beach trips, bonfires, boardwalk (summer goal: watch the sunrise)
7. Stargazing
8. Plays
9. Seeing Juan as much as possible before he leaves for Kolea :(
10. Club Ice lawwll

August:
1. See friends AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE before the dreaded departure.
2. Go to Martin Walsh's wedding.
3. Clean my room
4. Pack my bags
5. Go to school.
:(
6. HOPEFULLY see Warped down in L.A.

Kinda vague at some points, kinda specific at others.
I have a strong craving for Gemelli at Pasta Pomodoro, WHO WANTS TO GO WITH MEHH
Today, I went to the Y with Simi and then went shopping. Again. What a sad life I lead D:

Today I

went to the movies with Juan :)
And then we went to Yogurtland and saw Jeffrey Tan and VALERIE <3
Hmm

Mai got really annoyed at this guy who told her that the only way to have fun in college is to get drunk and so she said:
[21:38] x swirly whirl x: YEAH I KNOW
[21:39] x swirly whirl x: but yeah i'll avoid being shitfaced anyday.
[21:39] x swirly whirl x: you can depend on me to drag you back to the room though
[21:39] x swirly whirl x: if you throw up on me i'll throw you in a bush for temporary punishment
[21:39] x swirly whirl x: AHAHAHA
True friendship. For the record, I don't plan on getting "shitfaced" either....

Anyway, missing high school more but definitely more excited for college.
Seeing the best friend tomorrowww :))

p.s.
Cut off french tips today :( they were pretty T_T
Didn't chip once in three weeks.

DISGUSTING, you are :)

Hm...today, I went by Harker to pick up four years worth of crap from the yb room andd help Mr. Daren clean/mail back PDAs. Which took a long time.
Afterward...
Hung out with Simi :) at the Y, at the mall. We ate sushi at Sarku and shopped around.
Then I came home.
Excellent day.

I've done a fair amount of stalking on FB, scoping out future suitemates and classmates. :) FOUND A BOYFRAND FOR MAI <3 <3 as much as she doesn't want him :)) teehee

tomorrowww :)

Will work for love <3

OH HARROS

Yesterday, Seany picked me up on the way to Elena's and we joined the rest of the partayy in enjoying some pretty good food and meeting Sejal (AHAHAHAAHAHAHA). Afterwards, in attempt to cure my slump in actually having a life without school, we decided to do something "fun." First, we went to Gold's Gym and the three guys joined as step one of their plan to "get big" this summer. Conveniantly, Mr. Glasauer was there so he gave us a tour. The place gives me the creeps but I might as well visit the guys sometimes when they're there. "Steff-o, we can't protect you here." AJDOI BIG MUSCLES D:. Then we were given the mission of delivering 6 cartons of bouqets to Bucknall for the dance show so we did that. THEN we had to go shopping for Mrs. Mandell so we browsed Santana Row and took a promenade to Valley Fair.
Our first stop of eatingthroughthemall was Pizza My Heart where we all had one slice and a free shirt, which we quickly donned. Paul bet Barrett I wouldn't wear it over my dress and is now one dollar poorer. Then, as the Mandells and I browsed Claire's (HAHA) the guys bought copious amounts of Auntie Anne's pretzels. Next, we went to Abercrombie and had a wild dance party in there because that is honestly the only useful thing the store is good for. We left due to lack of oxygen (the place reeks). THEN we hit the food court and Barrett bought 60 mini cookies to share.
The rest of the day/night was spent at Seany's where I looked at childhood pictures of Barrett and Seany as pre-k-ers at St. Andrews and the guys shot hoops. Paul made us some of his "famous" lemonade and we stalked people on facebook and watched "The Waterboy." Then we wasted away in his basement as usual.

Today, I woke up SUPER late for church, but it was good to be back. After service, I headed over to Seany's and then to AT&T park for the Giants v. the Cardinals :B It was a fun game, fun drive, the Giants won!
Okay weather too :)

This weekends been good. I WANT TO GO TO WARPED TOUR PLZ.

"Barrett, WTF are you doing."
"I'm feeling the pecs that will be there in two months."

Now what to do...

As a graduated 17-year-old kid with a license, the only remotely interesting thing I've done since summer has started is go to school.

Seriously, that has to be the lamest thing ever. Not that I haven't been doing other things such as shopping and movies but I have an urge to actually do something super exciting. Yet I'm LAZY sighhh.

As of now, my tentative summer plans include going to HK and possibly Tibet and coming home just in time to get over jetlag and board a plane to LA for orientation. After that, I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with myself for a month but I'm thinking Bikram yoga sounds both good and painful.

UNTIL NEXT TIME :)

SENIOR WEEK :)

SO this week has been ridiculously long, just 7 days ago, we were enjoying our first night in Laguna....
SPEAKING OF WHICH,

SENIOR TRIP:

Sunday: Woke up too early to be legal and boarded a bus to Laguna. Stopped at a rest stop and ate McDonald's for breakfast and spent a total of 7 hours on a bus watching Top Gun and 5 hours worth of How I Met your Mother.
Our bus was the last one and we wandered around the surrounding area waiting for the other buses to clear out whilst listening to Julianne rap to Jizz in my Pants on the loudspeaker. We got there last and decorated our cute sand buckets :)
NEXT, we all went to the beach and had some fun under the clouds. HAHA the guys made competing sand castles and we basically played in the water for a few hours.
We had dinner with our advisor, Mr. Colletti. We went to this Mexican restaurant and he gave us back the goals we wrote to ourselves at the start of senior year.
1. Watch the sunrise on the beach
2. Try to get to know everyone in my grade
3. Beat the juniors
I think I accomplished only one...kind of. Anyway, then he returned the letters we wrote to ourselves in sophomore year and it is RIDICULOUSLY embarrassing...sigh
The surprise, though, was getting letters from our parents, which Mr. Colletti had them write at the start of the year. Of course they all failed at that and wrote it in the last like, week of senior year. Anyway, pretty much for the next twenty minutes, almost the whole table cried. Over what their parents said, over graduation, over everything. Then Kaytee cheered us up by reading the "10 Rules for Dating my Daughter" sent by her father.

We went back to the hotel and PASSED OUT YEARBOOKS, after an epik 5.0 earthquake. We also had an icecream sundae party and hung out in each other's rooms until 11PM when Winny and I fell asleep after watching episodes of Parental Control.

Monday: We wandered in the downtown direction in search of food that was not overrun by Harker kids and found a cafe where we ate bagels. It was still too early in the morning. We wandered down to the beach and joined our class in some good spirited and COLD frolicking in the waters. I waited until it warmed up. Anyway, watching people attempt to skimboard was VERY fun to do. After some sandy play, the guys and the ovaries went to this EXCELLENT pizza place and had some really good food, and then returned to the beach for some serious wave jumping. I proceeded to get a SLIGHT tan, get beaten by the waves, take a long walk with Andy and Rachel to the tide pools, and thrown in the ocean four different times in 5 minutes. AFTER I had some of my clothes on :(
We took our class photo
which is pretty cute, I must say
Well then we went back to clean up and prepare for dinner, I went to Brian and Daniel's room to join an awkward party before heading down to the lobby to find some food. The guys ended up sprinting half the way downtown just to beat another big group to the excellent sushi restaurant.
The best part was that it was ALL YOU CAN EAT, twenty dollars!! I had 8 plates worth of food and Kevin Kim said I ate like a man. Anyway, we ran back, basically, because we were almost late to the bonfire (AKA Mr. Keller standing in the middle with a box of tshirts).
Anyway, the bonfire made me super sad and reluctant about leaving, I cried a couple times just because what people said really made me realize how awful life will temporarily be without this group of people :(

"If the class of '09 was a girl, I wouldn't wait the two day grace period-three day- to call her back. I'd definitely ask her out on a second date, and I'd be completely heartbroken if she ever dumped me or left me-like I am now"
(or something to that effect)-Brian Chao

Good God I love this class from the bottom of my heart :'(

After that, we had some excellent hot chocolate and I called Won and was all sad about leaving. Then we crashed at the guys and wandered down to the beach to join some other children for some night time playing. It was BEAUTIFUL and the water felt much warmer due to the colder night time air. I dunno, there was probably no where else on earth I would have chosen to be at that moment than on the beach at night with my class.
We went back to our rooms and packed, kind of. Watched some T.V. and talked until 1AM when Winny and I decided to call it a night.

Tuesday: Woke up and wandered around to the Koffee Klatch which is a TOTALLY adorable coffee house with awesome deco. We grabbed some food and sat on the beach, pretty much alone, for the last half hour. The rest of the day was really just crappy travel time and 7 hours of How I Met your Mother.

SENIOR PRANK
Began the night we got back from Laguna, the senior prank committee revealed a couple nights ago that our prank was going to be SENIORLAND, an amusement park set up for our amusement primarily, but also hopefully others as well. Classes were not canceled and the kids thought it was a terrible prank but every senior I talked to thought it was amazing so I would say it was a smashing success! :)
We stayed until 11PM setting up for the rollercoaster, drive-in movie, and petting zoo.

The next morning, we came to school bright and early at 7AM to act as a welcoming committee, chasing down children in a mob of white glory, tying balloons to their wrists, stamping their hands, and shoving maps in their faces. It was ridiculous fun.

The rest of the day was excellent, the rollercoaster ran screaming down the hall 9 times throughout the day at strategically timed occasions all ending in the digit of 9 and it had to be my favorite part. Kids came out of class to watch :)
The house of the occult was HILARIOUS, we captured three history classes in seances and put them in the zoo. Feeding time was the best and Joe and Lexi were amazing as tour guides. The drive-in movie was super duper cute and the sign was awesome, if I do say so myself ;) hehe

Anyway, senior prank was excellent and the most fun I had since...well...Monday.
jfoASDIF it was so fun :)

BACCALAUREATE
Not very interesting, went shopping with Deniz and came back kind of late but just in time for the start, the speeches were AWESOME, indicative of our class as Jeff says. I agree. I loved Mr. Silk and DKs speech. Especially DKs because I was mentioned in it personally :) teehee
Afterwards, we all went to Falafel Drive-In only to realize that it was closed!! So we went to Daniel's house instead and had won ton soup and watched basketball games.

AWARDS CEREMONY DAY
We had our alumni luncheon which made me even more nostalgic and sad. The food was great except for the part where lousy sophomores stole it. The music made me kind of sad, especially after spending a good two hours after the end of lunch writing letters to our future selves to put in the time capsule and signing yearbooks. GHHOASJDOSAI By the end of that day, I definitely did not want to graduate.

Seany's grad party was that night, their house/party was AMAZING O_O GEEZ, valet parking?? Wtf. Anyway, we danced the night away, kind of. Left around 11PM so I could go home and write that darned senior essay :)

GRADUATION
I woke up that morning deciding that I DEFINITELY did not want to graduate and my stomach was all butterfly-y up until we began walking out of the door. But when I got to the winery it wasn't so bad bcus everyone was there and it made me feel a bit better :)
It was hot, the speeches were good, and I dunno, I suddenly got excited that we were graduating. After I got my diploma, I was filled with this odd feeling of happiness that carried on for quite a bit and now looking back on photos of us throwing our mortarboards or whatever, I guess high school graduation would be one of those events I would relive anytime. Afterward was definitely chaotic and when we finally got out of it, I ended up eating with Deniz's family for lunch and then hanging out with her and some random underclassmen outside of Tartini (don't ask).
We then watched Angels and Demons and yah. That was that.

BTW, brunch this morning was excellent. Lots of good food and conversation :) I'm going to miss my friends so much :(

I can honestly say that I was looking forward to graduation so much up until this past week, which made me feel bittersweet about leaving.
Thanks for the memories, '09 :) I'll never forget you!

But now that I'm out of school, I have nothing to do. Thank God for grad parties.

grad parties galore

Today, my girlfriend and I went down to the pier. I brought an empty bottle and some paper, and we both constructed a massive letter expressing our passionate love for each other. We stuck it in the bottle, and threw it out to sea, only to see it explode in slow motion on a protruding rock. FML

HAHAAHAHAH

kay brb
BRUNCH :)

Laguna

was amazing! I could have definitely spent more than a couple days there.

However, it is good to be home!


I'll write more about it later, when i'm not exhausted and starving. Just got back from school!

The only thing more beautiful than the seascape at sunset is the class of '09 :)
I will miss you all dearly :(

Finally!

It feels like everything is coming together...
School should be and essentially IS over but NO, I had an in-class essay today and a test tomorrow :( but that is okay!
Today was up and down
I got it today. Which is kinda :| sigh.

Anyway, after school, Simi bailed on the nail appointment so I tagged along with Nay Nay and Deniz. However, Simi messed up on the appointment and only scheduled two full sets so I feel like it was fate that Simi couldn't come on this particular day. Because I wasn't intending on doing my nails. Anyway, the place smelled kinda gross and IMO it was sort of overpriced and I dunno, but I hope they're happy with them though :) they're pretty!
Then we got Chipotle :)
I got my nails done somewhere else, my real nails. And I like them :) It was the first time I got them done and the lady told me a couple times how nice my nails were which made me :) because they're pretty much the only part of my body I like (although Won says they're not REALLY a legit part of my body. -_-)
JADOJOIFJ They're pretty :) Although I kinda messed one up driving home. Sigh, I fail D:

OH ALSO, I went back to the tux place after getting betched out by the crazy russian lady on the phone and I found a whole rack of Harker tuxes (hahahaaaa) and found Won's so I asked the dude if I could switch colors tomorrow if I brought my dress in and he said yes so I'm happy :)

AND Won and I are no longer nomads! I guess he found something to do before prom so we're no longer loners (hahaa...-_- so unwanted!! D:) and I'm actually really happy about how everything turned out. Now to convince his mom to let him hang out a little after :/

I hope we do something fun :) I want to eat.

And now I'm writing this silly post only so my hair can air dry.
Breakfast for first period :)) GOOD NIGHT NOW!

You belong with me :)

GO GREEN! Hehehe officially last week at Harker :(

I'm supposed to be studying for APes right now but I really have no motivation to study :(
SIGH

Current problems
1. ________ hasn't come yet!
2. APes and psych tomorrow!! :(
3. Still haven't ordered from Richard
4. No pre-prom plans HAHA except watching Star Trek. Sigh.
5. His tux doesn't match and it's MY FAULT

Blloooopp

Today I...

1. Got thrown in the pool
2. Ate lots of delicious food
3. Got sunburnt
4. Got a camera! (YB <3 )
5. Ate at blue rock shoot with Deniz
6. Studied at the library

What a series of unfortunate events+eating (besides the camera)

Sigh, I will miss yearbook so much :( I won't ever get to go to another yearbook party unless my sisters go to Harker when they're oldy moldy :/
But by then, I'll be oldier moldier DD:

Yesterday was a good day, I came to Harker around EH and sat in the sun and chatted with fellow seniors about prom/fro-yo/life in general. I went to APSA and Mr. Kameda came late T_T we had this reasonable urge to lock him out and tell him to come back for a later session. The whole thing took about half an hour longer than it should have because he was late. BUT a whole year's worth of work, photographed, uploaded, shipped away!

Then Won and I went to the mall to get his tux. But the more I think about it, the less it matches. Oh well! The lady on the phone was kind of rude to me! And had a strange accent. She was mean to Thomas too -_- must be busy. Anyway, then we watched an epic baseball game where the coach got thrown out of the game for being a JERK haha and we thoroughly thrashed them on our senior night :) half the team is graduating...

Seany, Paul, and I went to dinner and came back for the vball game, which was ALSO epic. The teams were pretty evenly matched but we beat them 3-1 in the end! :)

NOW I am studying for Psych :( only to avoid studying for APes, it's the lesser of two evils. But still very very very evil D: siiigh

Contemplations whilst sipping on jelly drinks with Jay Chou's face on them

Today was a good day, as was yesterday, I suppose. Not the whole day, but most of it...

To be honest, though, these few days at school have been completely useless in terms of learning anything. We went on a speed run to Yumi Yogurt ten minutes before the start of 7th yesterday. Not only did we (nearly) make it back in time for class (I think I was the only one with a "legit" academic commitment...) I also succeeded in calling shotgun TWICE in Seany's trippy newish car, spot a balding middle-aged man who has the same shirt as Barrett, and hurt my tongue from eating frozen yogurt at high speeds :/

We also played jeopardy in APes, which was quite enjoyable.

I got my prom dress today! Which is kinda late, but I ended up getting the one at Group USA which is like, 7 sizes too big. I'm getting it altered, though, so :)

ALSO, BIG NEWS, WHOOOO
THE YEARBOOK IS HERE :)))) AND THEY ARE BEATIFUL. I think so, the rest of yb thinks so. Now, to please? the rest of the school...hehehe
Today was beyond exciting. Hooray for good days! :)

Erm, advisory was fun :) there were only four of us but we all had a good time gossiping with Mr. Colletti about prom, valedictorian, and the JETs competition. HAHA nerd gossip :)
It's been a good four years, and advisory is up there on the list of things I'll miss most about high school/Harker.

Also on that list:
-My friends. I honestly have the best of friends, they make me smile when I'm having a crappy day, and make me want to piss my pants from laughing too hard. I like going out with them late at night for big eating, or just hanging out at Seany's. I like being "one of the guys" and confiding all my secrets in them but being that girl too, the one that they confide in.
And my girlfriends :) There's just too much to say about the amazing people I've met during my time at Harker :B
Oh and those fine underclassmen I will miss so dearly ;)
-Those spring picnics we used to have all the time a couple years back
-Spirit week
-Dances and formals and all the dresses, dates, and drama that come with it!
-YEARBOOK
-Having personal relationships with teachers, learning is just 5X better when you really make a connection
-How it's okay to be a nerd, because everyone else is too!

OH YES, SENIOR NIGHTS TOMORROW. There to see the guys! :)

BEAT STAT?

I hope I did to the best of my ability although I was too lazy to cram for it the night befo :/

I came to school ssssuper early like at 9AM! To meet with Ms. A about my portfolio and then sat around for a couple hours "studying" and talking about prom.

Anyway, the AP was aiitteee

And now I've decided that my teeth are disgusting, primarily because I haven't been wearing my retainer and what if I have to get braces again like Kevin??? Sigh.

That is all.

MMM

Today, I went to the Saratoga Rotary Art Show and decided that if I could find jewelry in the two specific colors my potential prom dress is, it's a sign from God that I should buy it. While i did find pretty earrings in the right shade of purple, no dice :/
BLARGLE, getting so many mixed responses from people -__-
The guys like it, my mom likes it, Deniz likes it. But Deniz has decided that all of those people are super weird, borderline insane, and therefore, their opinions aren't valid when it comes to the rest of the human population. Sigh D:

Besides that, went to get my hair trimmed :/ and yah, I've been doing hw since/studying :(
I hate APs!!
Working on APSA portfolio, BASICALLY DONE!! As much as it sucks to work so much BEFORE the AP, (which is just a bunch of forms) it'll definitely be worth it when I only have to go to school for about half an hour this Friday....

Life will be so good in 8 days :)

Oh yes, commited to USC and officially a Trojan :B for the time being at least, or maybe permanently...who knows :/
Church family has decided that it might be nice to have a Trojan amongst the Bruins. TO BULLY, MAYBE. But Mike is "going" there for grad school meaning he'll complete his education in the bay whilst working :/

Still relatively lonely. NOT! Considering all the Harker children attending this lovely institution, I'll be going to school with a large portion of my favorite class in the world <3

Class of '09 Spirit-David Kastelman!

Hmm, today I thought I'd post a little bit about spirit and spirit competitions at school.
So to tell you the truth, I've never truly loved spirit in high school up until this year. I mean I've enjoyed a lot of it, but the part that really was a bit jarring, was just how much of 'spirit' was focused on making fun of other classes in skits and what not. I mean it can be funny sometimes...

To me spirit is like half-intense-sports-game half class bonding. Spirit has been best when the class is jumping up and down and yelling for no other reason than to be 'spirited.' Spirit is definitely an epitome of one part of high school, the part that emphasizes that we're not quite yet adults, cuz we are far too 'zany' to be adults just yet, which means that we can and should still yell and chest bump and wave our foam fingers in the air with abandon. Spirit is also definitely a part of class bonding. Spirit is more about seeing classmates that have gone to school together for 10 years but have never said more than 10 words to each other prior to 'spirit,' hug each other after a successful dance rehearsal. What better way is there to get to know your classmates than over a chorus of '90s britney spears in the midst of learning a dance routine.

So I guess I don't really care too much whether or not the class of '09 finishes with the most or the least spirit points. Because I don't really consider points to be spirit, and as much as it's blasphemous to say, I don't really consider "class competition," to be synonymous with spirit. Spirit isn't about beating the other classes. Spirit to me is pure and simple about the Class of '09. And I think this year especially, our class has done a great job of engaging in class "competition" only to the extent that it energizes our own class. And I thought today's rally and all year has been a lot fun, and I think the class has really done a great job with the better parts of spirit: yelling wildly and bonding over three-legged races. Congrats Class of '09, the next few weeks will be fun.

Well written Davey.

That said, I don't think any other class in the entire universeeee will EVER know how much winning this rally meant to our class. Sure, winning the year would have been flipping awesome too, but this rally was the perfect way to end our four years at Harker.
Hell, we got Anand to dance to Spice Girls, it definitely doesn't get better than that. And I can honestly say that watching our entire class dance up in the bleachers was amazingly heart lifting.
The view was definitely better from down there ;)
And whoever heard of senior boosts? Every single one of those 11,000 something points we won today was hard earned.
So it's okay that we didn't win, the juniors deserve it too with all the work they put into it ...for just about everything, I suppose. But the important part is that we finally pulled together when we thought it was impossible freshman year, and the next three weeks will hopefully make up for the past four years. The foamfinger rollercoasters, the chants, the airhorns, the screaming, I wouldn't miss it for anything.

So at this point, I've come to terms with coming second, we should get the most improved award! Usually, that's probably pretty embarrassing but in reality, it shows how much effort and heart we put into it.
I say, screw the points! We graduate in three weeks and we have a world to look forward to.
Spirit has taught me to love this class with all my heart regardless of how terrible we are at trivial matters such as three-legged-races and pumpkin pie eating contests.

And it's one thing I will definitely miss in college. Part of what attracted me to USC was the amazing school spirit they had, but nothing will compare with screaming my heart out with these 170 something kids.

I LOVE this class, and I hope that as we scatter all over the States (into the amazing schools we all got into O_O), we make the best of our college experience and I wish only the best for the kickass class of '09 :)

"After being a senior advisor last year and watching you guys from across the field, and then being a senior advisor with you this year, you are a completely different group of people."
-Hufnagl
Here's to the last 22 days of high school!

"Come on seniors! One last time!"

So tomorrow is our last rally and this week has definitely had it's ups and downs....
and I don't expect to be sent out with "Good lucks" and "We'll miss you"s like we did the last class because to be honest, we're not well liked.

But I've decided that the most important thing is that we've really made it this far and I would do so much for this class.
We can be "that class" that loses spirit as seniors, but I guess that doesn't really matter anymore, does it? There is very little chance that we can make up the gap, and I also believe that half our class suffers from a thing called learned helplessness.
This year, we've worked ridiculously hard on getting our class together for that one last hurrah in Laguna and I think we've done a pretty good job at it. But no matter how hard we work and how much time and effort, bolts of cloth, laurels, rehearsals, paint, screams, we put into it, we won't win.

So we simply stop trying. For a couple hours. Then it's back to work!

That said, tomorrow is gonna be that much more fun because we're in it together to have a good last rally and not to win this silly little competition (actually, we plan on winning).

And I suppose I don't REALLY hate the juniors, I'm just fed up with their cockiness and the way they carry themselves because I really have no respect for their class. But I'm not going into detail because I'll just make enemies for myself (apparently I'm quite skilled at doing this without even provoking anyone...) and sound super bitter.
Which I'm not because they can win a regatta with a raftwithrails but at least our class likes each other.
That said, I hear some are skipping out to study for SATs? At least kids in our class study in the bleachers.

9 seniors just liked my status in 5 minutes.
I love this class!

Sooo...
SENIORS ROCK THE HOUSE :)
GO 09!!

The Witching Hour

WON THE POWDERPUFF :)

This is our last spirit rally :(
Our class has come such a loooong way (believe me) and I'm going to be very very sorry to leave this group of people. Siiigh
And I think I will definitely miss high school, although next year sounds good with all the free time, no supervision, parties, LA, etc.
Definitely beats senioritis, APs, and SATs :D

But I dunno, it's weeks like these that'll make me miss high school. And school formals, silly things like the ice skating rink, amazing buffet style food, the teachers, the kids :( Harker really is one of a kind.

Tomorrow, I'll submit my stuff for USC :/
But as of now, still a Harker kid :)

RARAARARAAA

1. SPORTS DAY WOOOOHHHH
2. POWDER PUFF
3. 2 MOCK APS NOOOOO

Tomorrow is gonna be half a blasttt :)
CAN'T WAIT FOR OUR TEAM TO DESTROY THEIRS IN A MATTER OF SECONDS.
I usually don't say these things before the actual event but I'm fairly confident and I have faith in our super baller '09 girls. And '12.
ESPECIALLY SINCE I HEARD ____ TALKING SMACK ABOUT US.
HA HA HA I LAUGH IN YOUR FACE WEWONASFRESHMEN.

That said, if we lose, I will cry tears of sorrow.

Time to attempt APes :(

mm what you say

STUDYING FOR PSYCH woo I feel slightly productive
This week is killer T_T

Yb photos//English FB project
A psych assessment EVERY class D:
Stats test on Wednesday
APes quiz tomorrow, mock AP on Wednesday

SPIRIT ALL WEEK LONG/SENIOR PRACTICE??
T_T DEATH

But it's fun :)
I had something important to say but I kind of forget.

I really don't like ____ and their sarcastic statuses.
It's totally unnecessary and rude and it makes me sad :(
Grow up.
For a while, I thought their class was unified and happy and nice (hahaaa I made a jjoke :D) but I guess not. -_- Not even to each other, sighhh.

For the record, I love emails from our class.
Mr. Draper sends us what may possibly be the cutest pep emails in the world :B
___ told me today that sophomores should be with the seniors v. the juniors because she wanted to lay the smackdown hahaaaa :) ILHER. Good to know not everyone hates on our class.

FAILING
SCHOOL
BADLY.

GETTIN' JIGGY WITH IT

The mixer was aiiite hahaha not many people came but it was a good last dance for high school (minus prom). Afterwards, Deniz and I went to In n' Out and ate deliciously unhealthy food and laughed till we wanted to pee our pants. Literally.
Got home at midnight and slept late :/

Last Sunday with Leon and Virginia :(

Senior practice :D it was super fun, I love our class <3

Time to study :(

BTW, it's okay Noel, some middle schooler asked me if I was in 8th grade on Friday T_T.

I wasted 15 cents today.

我最恨的就是。。。
有时候我觉得他没那么喜欢我。
还有，我们在打电话还是什么，他每次多是说 一样的东西， 很不personal。
我不是要他说"我爱你"还是什么。我只要他跟我讲话想我是他的女朋友。他每次都
很whatever象他真的不关心。
我也不想跟他在网上聊天因为我们讲的都是很无聊的东西，比以前不一样。我们不
讲我也会散心。。。
我也不想跟他讲因为这真的是很无聊但是我一直想就很心疼。

the mixer tonight better be goooood!

Today is not a good day.

I definitely failed two tests today and I didn't get into _____ which was one of the few things that made me feel pretty good about going to USC and I also found out that ____ and ____ had crappy relationships and that made me kinda worry about the future for some reason.
And because they scheduled senior stuff sunday morning. Don't other people go to church too??? I guess it's okay if I skip and then go to lunch with my cousin because he's going back to Australia soon.
So now I'm thinking about getting married
Kinda like how people are so likely to change after they get married and that's one of my worst fears.
I don't want to be in one of those relationships that fail when I'm like OLD or something -_-
Blargleee DO NOT WANT TO DO HW :(

Secret #11
Sometimes, when it's cold and wet and rainy (basically miserable) outside, I feel like just wearing a t-shirt because I want to empathize with the hobos who are possibly enduring a hard night. :(

BLARGLE!

Saturday was super super busy T_T
I woke up at like 9 AM which is super early for a Saturday and took a shower and drove to Harker (I DROVE) to work on the senior mural. Then I drove home, changed, and we went back to Harker to pick up Mai at 1 PM. We then drove to San Mateo for the USC reception which was meh. Most of it, I already knew. But it was cool that there were two reps from Annenberg and two students in Annenberg so I really got to talk to the professors for a long time. Mai got bored though bcus there were 87234839 people in her session. She sat next to Aaron Wessels! Har har I'm a creeper. I also saw Steven An and 928394 Harker kids.

Woo okay then we drove back to SJ and ate dinner at Johnny Rockets (ewww) and walked to the Center of Performing Arts. Won already saved a place in line but we waited for a good HOUR whilst the rest of the Harker children (cheated and) congregated at our place as they got there. It was kind of ridiculous, aside from getting cheated out of of 25 dollars per ticket, two doors opened on opposite sides of the building so it essentially didn't matter when you got there. Then we had to wait in the building for like half an hour packed like sardines and it was gross and hot and aodijf. Then we got our seats which were OKAYY but I'm not complaining hahaha.
ANDY WAS AMAZING, the local crews were pretty impressive. Super Cr3w was def anti-climactic. Whatever, it was fun. And helped educate children in Kenya.

Sunday, we went to church and thaaan went to Pasta Pomodoro for lunch. I ATE SO MUCH. Then we went to look at some Ferraris and stopped by Ben&Jerry's on the way back. I feel 10 pounds heavier T_T. Then I worked on my senior collage because I kind of forgot to work on my Thiele worksheet until now.

And I still have stuff to prepare for and blarjdsf FML! I guess it's my fault but seniors shouldn't have to work this hard T_T.

HELLO SUMMER, PLEASE STAY FOR A WHILE.
Hoping dress code will not be easy to abide to.

Blogger blocked at Harker?

At the moment, Deniz and I are watching prom-asking videos as the season of prom-asking has begun!

Last night, Won and I went to see the musical. It was good but hard to understand because I don't think all of their mics were on O_O. Anyway, today, I went to the baseball game with David and we won 20-0 in like the 5th inning. And Sean stole home! HAHA Then Deniz and I went to Johnny Rockets (EWW) and walked around and bought some bubblegum and bouncy balls.
Then we met with the guys at something Adobe, this mexican restaurant? It was good :B
Rockband latar.

Tomorrow:
Senior mural
USC off-campus reception
Ken-ya Dance?

I really want to go to the Giant's game on Sunday :(

To me, Easter means...

eternal second chances!

:)

In their fright the women bowed down with their faces to the ground, but the men said to them, "Why do you look for the living among the dead?
He is not here; he has risen! Remember how he told you, while he was still with you in Galilee:
'The Son of Man must be delivered into the hands of sinful men, be crucified and on the third day be raised again.'"
Then they remembered his words.

Luke 24:5-8

Happy Easter everyone! :D

Pet Peeve #1

When people don't reply.
Although this is slightly hypocritical.

Feels like Insomnia

Noel is beautiful!

[2]

SPRING BREAK: TO DO
2. Go shopping for GEE AHAHA
6. Catch up in stats DD:
7. Psych movie project
9. Study! MUST. NOT. GET. RESCINDED.
11. Do something with my life
12. Go out for another movie
13. Eat out Saturday night with church friends
15. SF??

That is what I have left! Sigh, I do not want to go back to school. Why is it that Harker.org says we have the key club dance two weeks before prom? That is silly.

Two months feels like nothing, but it also feels like forever. Only one.five months left of school!
Here's to making the best of it!

I wish APs didn't exist.

Spring break is almost over :(

UPDATE :D
SPRING BREAK: TO DO
1. See Midsummer Night's Dream ballet check!
2. Go shopping for GEE AHAHA
3. Go to the beach (again) check!
4. Apply for USC thematic options program check!
5. Prepare concentration for show check!
6. Catch up in stats DD:
7. Psych movie project
8. Lots of psych extra credit check!
9. Study! MUST. NOT. GET. RESCINDED.
10. Eat lots of froyo check!
11. Do something with my life
12. Go out for another movie
13. Eat out Saturday night with church friends
14. Two month :) (that's not a to do...)
15. SF??
16. GET LICENSE? check!
17. Apply for housing check!

EDIT:
Today, I woke up around 9:30 AM which is relatively good for me. I didn't really do anything useful though, I finished reading the AP Psychology modules and creating Vocabulary Lists for extra credit so I guess that's pretty good.
Hmm then I made a trip to Trader Joe's to buy some flowers for Ana and Ida. Yay for spring! I bought them daisies, the flowers there are so cheap! And pretty :) only 6 dollars a bouquet. I think daisies are my favoritest. I wrote about them a year ago! Haha I remember because Heidi gave me a daisy on that particular day, the day I got my permit. Which was a little less than exactly a year ago.
Anyway, then I went downtown SJ and watched Ana and Ida's senior recital (which was amazing) with Simran and thenn left with her and her sister to eat some Penguin Froyo. It's pretty good, they give you a lot but the toppings are kind of pricy :/ So I got half regular half vanilla with chocolate chips. There was a weird couple in there and the guy kept talking to me -_-. Then I went home!
I went running today, it HURT. But only after that first mile, which is pretty good considering I haven't really exercised in a good 7 months.
I started studying for APs! Exciting.
And that is the end of my wonderful day.

I bid you adieu! (Won's phrase)

Body Language

I don't update very often anymore, but I don't think I have very many readers anymore either hahahaa....
This whole blog hype has really gone down, I think. Although I guess it would be cool if everyone had a blog. Kinda like the good ol' xanga days. Technically I've been blogging for a good 6 years O_O

I have a huge cankersore thing in my mouth because I decided to be responsible and wear my retainer for the first time in like, a month. And it hurts to eat T_T What could be worse? Actually, many things. AND I have a dentist appointment on Sunday, BLARGLEBLARGEBLARGLE.

Today, I need to get Rain Man so I can finally get started on this Psych project. AND ALSO, drop by Ms. Aguero's and drop off some schnitzle. I really want to go shopping but I don't think I can T_T.

I want to do something like go with the guys to the Giant's game on Friday. Or go to Klub Ice on Friday.

BOOOOORED AND HUNGRY.

I did it for love.

UPDATE :D
SPRING BREAK: TO DO
1. See Midsummer Night's Dream ballet with Mai and Andy
2. Go shopping for GEE AHAHA
3. Go to the beach (again) check!
4. Apply for USC thematic options program
5. Prepare concentration for show check!
6. Catch up in stats DD:
7. Psych movie project
8. Lots of psych extra credit
9. Study! MUST. NOT. GET. RESCINDED.
10. Eat lots of froyo check!
11. Do something with my life
12. Go out for another movie
13. Eat out Saturday night with church friends
14. Two month :) (that's not a to do...)
15. SF??
16. GET LICENSE? check!
17. Apply for housing check!

So I really want to go the Giant's game on Friday but alas! It's time to start studying for APs :(
We went to the beach, the weather was almost perfect (perfect would be 72.5 :D) and it was goood despite the fact that there was really no grill so we kinda gave up on the hotdogs. We dropped by Armadillo Willy's instead. I'M TIRED, the sun definitely drained all the energy out of me :)
Yet, still no tan :/

Happy

Friday was a good day :) Kind of, I failed that stats quiz pretty badly....But other than that it was pretty chill, WE FINISHED THE YEARBOOK. YES. WE DID. 10:43:20 AM :D
Hm hung out with won heee after school, then he had to get ready for that silly Junior Jamboree. So, I went to dinner (PIZZA MY HEART!) and I LOVE YOU, MAN with Albert and Anthony because Albert went back yesterday D:
Those two talk about girls far too much.
I love you, man was not a good movie :/ but tartini was! afterwards :) although COLD.

Today was a good day so far! Actually yesterday my mom was all nag nag nag about school and college and blablabla and I'm so done with college (rejections!!) haha....
Anyway, praise the Lord for spring break :)

Sam Lin came to church today! That was cool, lots of people back from college. Everyone is all D:< at me for possibly choosing USC seeing as EVERYONE at my church went to UCLA hahaha
Lunch at Le Boulanger. MMM BACON

Tartini soon?

Okay, that is all.

SPRING BREAK: TO DO
1. See Midsummer Night's Dream ballet with Mai and Andy
2. Go shopping for GEE AHAHA
3. Go to the beach (again)
4. Apply for USC thematic options program
5. Prepare concentration for show
6. Catch up in stats DD:
7. Psych movie project
8. Lots of psych extra credit
9. Study! MUST. NOT. GET. RESCINDED.
10. Eat lots of froyo
11. Do something with my life
12. Go out for another movie
13. Eat out Saturday night with church friends
14. Two month :) (that's not a to do...)
15. SF??

Overdramatic

so i haven't written in a while mostly because of this blogproject which has me pretty preoccupied (although it's getting harder and harder to blog everyday T_T)

hmm
my seventeenth birthday definitely beat out my sixteenth birthday
i got seven cakes O_O and a ridiculous amount of balloons, i think i have the best friends in the world!
saturday-sunday we went to seascape
and played on the beach and watched movies and played mafia and stayed up talking about boys and reading cosmopolitan (the girls room anyway)
in the morning we woke the guys up and nick and alex made us bacon hahaha and we ate and ate and ate and then played on the lawn/went to the beach again
cleaned up
went home
quite satisfatory, i'd say.

came home to some silly drama and yaaaarboook and lots of homework :(

i have no motivation to learn anymore, i just sit through every class wishing i were somewhere else (mostly wishing i could just work on yb and be done) but i do not want to be rescinded D: so time to get cracking (mostly on stats and psych T_T)

as for "drama," this is probably the dumbest situation i've ever encountered
so little trust. :( i feel bad ____.

other than that, life is pretty good. i feel like i'll get into one more college out of my remaining 7 colleges. and that is all! i wish everything would just come out now so i can make a decision and buy a sweatshirt T_T

i think my new blog

has more comments than this one has had in the past half year.
that is bcus commenting is mandatory, i suppose.

I HATE STATS, IT CAN BEAT ME FOR ALL I CARE D:<

720hours.blogspot.com, read me! comment me! :))

i'm obsessed with my new blow. i observe it OCD.
maybe i should post ft island photos so i can accomplish two of my obsessions, staring at my blog and staring at ftislandminuswonbinpllusnewdude.

tahahah
good day.
GOOD DAY.

GERRY SAYS...

[14:40] poosham boy: STEFFO
[14:40] poosham boy: STEFFOH
[14:40] steffothehottie: hoii
[14:40] *** Auto-response from poosham boy: ess eye gee aych
[14:40] poosham boy: http://720hours.blogspot.com/
[14:41] steffothehottie: yarr
[14:41] poosham boy: SOMESIN WRON WITH YO BUT
[14:41] steffothehottie: HAHAHAHA STFU
[14:41] poosham boy: I SERIOUS
[14:41] poosham boy: SOMESIN WON
[14:41] poosham boy: I SERIOuS
[14:41] poosham boy: I NO JOKE
[14:41] poosham boy: NO JOKE
[14:41] poosham boy: YOU NEED TO GO TO NUHSE
[14:41] poosham boy: SHE FICKS YO BROKED BUTS
[14:41] steffothehottie: HAHAAHAHAH okay
[14:41] steffothehottie: YES SIR
[14:41] poosham boy: GOO
[14:41] poosham boy: WRI NAO

...sigh

"College acceptances

are like marriage. you only need one!"
-josh kou

I have a strange feeling of dread

RE: the rest of this year

yearbook
BLARGLEBLARGLEBLARGLE
art show
changing my concentration to photography was the biggest mistake. ever.
and i feel bored with it and i don't want to go to class and it sucks and this is the exact opposite of what i hoped to get out of this class.
and i'm not blaming ____ for ...very strongly suggesting changing my medium but it's freaking annoying and it totally threw me off and now i'm definitely not looking forward to the show in march bcus i feel like photography isn't doing my portfolio justice. yah i photograph for yearbook but i wanted to show that i could do other things too. BLAH BLAH BLAH it makes me feel almost ashamed to be in the class...
college
i suppose i'm in one but i'm really anxious about the rest of the letters and this feeling won't go away until the end of march
school
SUCKS, second semester senior year is way overrated and the teachers are giving us loads of homework JUST because they can. sigh.
APs are gonna suck.

hmm i kinda want to skip to spirit week, skip the next two and go straight to prom, senior trip, senior week+baccalaureate, GRADUATION

I MISS _______. come back plzz!!

1AM skype.

i wish i could be like raghav and find the happy mean.
aka
working just hard enough as a second semester senior to earn a B
cruiiiisin.

i'm flunking school.
!!

Fill me with You

retreat was the best thing that happened to me this break (except... :B)
or well, almost the ONLY thing that happened to me this break -_-
the weather was ridiculously terrible, it hailed the first night we got there. it hurt :(
but living in the waterlogged mountains with your church family and
bonding with each other and God
is the best experience in the world.

i'm very thankful for the relationships i strengthened and the new ones i formed.

hrmm

DAY ONE:
we moved in and chilled and ate a lot.
we had our first session
we received our "lives" and filled it up with the good things and the bad
i found it hard to concentrate, particularly because we were pretty exhausted.
we stayed up pretty late talking, it started with "let's ask each other questions" but turned into "lets ask the senior girls awkward questions."
underclassmen are very very curious...

DAY TWO:
rain rain rain
we had a few more sessions, ate a lot more
sermon was focused a lot on forgiveness. pretty hard to digest...
group activities and games :)
lots of bonding and eating
LOTS OF FREE TIME=FACEBOOK. i never realized how dependant i was on it T_T sighh
we got back together to share more about forgiveness and the mood ended up kind of solemn :/
hrmm we got kicked out of the lounge when we tried staying up all night playing bang
so we went back to our cabin to play mafia with the young adult and talk about...boys :)

DAY THREE:
MORE RAIN T_T sigh
but slightly better today.
a lot more bonding and eating, more sessions
more praying.
more playingg
we had our campfire. indoors
it was a good time for reflection and reevaluating
ridiculous body worship (better stay off fb....) and gospel choir (HAHA)
we sorted out our "lives" and did a symbolic and physical dump of everything bad into the fire.
it felt really really good, to be able to get rid of something so easily, and be surrounded by people who are in all sorts of different places in life, but know that they're with you in some way.
but it was also really difficult to realize how hard it would be to change.
regrouped with cabins
didn't stay up too late, james came around 1 to borrow the febreeze for various bathroom needs....jen and sally came by around 2, but most of us were asleep....

DAY FOUR:
slept in :) did cabin clusters
prayed.
BRUNCH (river of life left, LESS LINES :D)
last sermon
group photo
packed
..more photos
and home :)

and that is it in a nutshell.

Holy fire burn away,
my desire for anything
that is not of You and is of me.
I want more of You and less of me.

Empty me, empty me
Fill, won't you fill me
with You, with You

The Room.
i wanted to cry, listening to alice read this story outloud
for some reason, none of us felt like discussing it. instead, we shared and prayed about each other
blafjoigkjk!!!
read it!

that is all, i said i would go to bed an hour ago, but i didn't.
good night!

XX V

since i've been tagged so many times, i'll write one.

1. i have a strange obsession with beautiful people. which is why i spend a lot of time looking at uhljjangs. i think jungroo, angelababy, and park boram are the prettiest :)

2. potatoes are my favorite food bcus they are versatile. mashed potatoes, baked potatoes, french fries, hashbrowns, etc. vanilla ice cream with rainbow sprinkles is deniz's favorite food.

3. i like smart and charming boys who smell good and give good hugs :)

4. junior year was the best year of highschool and second semester senior year has yet to live up to high standards. i'm hoping it'll be underrated by graduation.

5. i'm scared of growing old alone.

6. i hate the expression "follow your heart." it sounds all cute and romantic and sentimental but it's also the most frustrating thing to do.

7. so many people come and confide in me their secrets and problems. yet i feel like i'm terrible at giving advice. i'm always here to listen though!

8. i think boys look HOTTT dressed up :)

9. i'm super duper un confrontational and pretty bad with words. and really awkward.

10. i believ that arron and gui gui belong together forever. and i suppose xiao gui can have a girl too, just not gui gui. and i really need to see episode 15 but i'm going on retreat tomorrow so i can't :(

11. i love blackcurrent frutips

12. my body is super unproportional. and i like my nails best.

13. inbox (1) makes me very happy.

14. i love sunflowers and daisies

15. sometimes, my heart hurts O_O really. when i'm looking at someone i love, like my family. or when i get upset over someone i love :( or i miss them.
it doesn't REALLY hurt, but it's all tickly and it feels weird :/

16. my favorite things to do in the spring are lay on the turf in the sun after school or eat froyo or go to harker baseball games

17. i want to go to chinatown and buy cellphone charms and earrings

18. the doors of the new f21 dressing rooms remind me of alice in wonderland

19. i'm worried that my roommate will hate me in college

20. shiho thinks i'm a pimp. :(

21. i forgot my calculator almost every math final and one time barrett asked all the math teachers if they could lend me one. ahaha :B

22. i don't really like to eat baked goods unless they just came out of the oven

23. the weather yesterday was the best weather

24. i'm a packrat and i can't throw anything away. which is why my room looks the way it does

25. i plan on finishing my paper outline tonight. at least.

TEA PARTY, 11:15.

i feel really unmotivated to post nowadays.

so far, this break has been ehhh but i've been sleeping slightly more. as in, going to bed at unGodly hours and waking up at noon T_T i'm forcing myself to get up at 9 though, at latest.

i went shopping with simi yesterday :)
todayy...i will be having a lunch date with wei wei
and then going to dinner with mai and shiho (she's leaving on thursday! D:)

i will gain 2794893 lbs today.

sigh, i'm very worried due to the fact that hhms is down. if it isn't up by thursday i'm not doing my hw -___- bcus i'm leaving on friday. yah and then the teachers will be D:< so i suppose i'll be staying up very late monday night T_T

hmm i should get started on my paper :(

TO DO FOR THIS BREAK:
sleeeep more
visit megan
have an influential time at retreat (if that makes sense)
write my shakespeare paper T_T
watch the 14th episode of pi li mit HAHA
hmmm
i don't really have many this time :/

THAT IS ALL.

i miss you! :)

Suspiciously happy post

for brian

break is magnificent
i went to yearbook today for 5.5 hours T_T

i'm hanging by a moment here with you.

The best luck I had was you <3

WING IT!
was slightly bittersweet.
although it was a bit of a let down as our senior production, i had a lot of fun.
i'm going to miss dance production....
but i'm kind of glad it's over.

i've been feeling really guilty lately for not trying harder in my classes even though i'm so exhausted -___- and also, i feel like most of my stress comes from classes i take voluntarily, shakespeare's comedies, yearbook, apsa
T_T why do i do this? bcus i LIKE IT? looool
sigh.

but i do like it T_T

i don't want to let down my teachers :/ or myself. i kinda want to do well.
but i'm tired :(

RANDOM THOUGHTS:
the australian men's final was intenseee, the women's was kinda a let down :/
i'm so screwed for stats
I'M GOING TO RETREAT :) eheheh only the seniors at my church are going T_T yahh '09 is gonna have a good time <3
i want my bangs to grow
apsa :(
my hair doesnt grow straight -____- or anything else. it's just gross.

i messed up really badly friday night
and dr j hugged me and said "it's okay to be different!"
haahahah and it made me feel a lot better
:B

baaaaaah

OFFICIALLY THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE

OH WONBIN LEFT FT ISLAND.



that is SO WRONG.

GONG XI FA CAI

hong bao na lai :)










get it??? teehee
AHA so cute :)

winterball was fun :)
this week won't be :(

English Class

[21:06] steffothehottie: this hufnagl study guide is RIDIC
[21:06] steffothehottie: hahaa
[21:06] twoft3inchestall: lols
[21:06] twoft3inchestall: sorrz dood
[21:06] twoft3inchestall: what class is it?
[21:07] twoft3inchestall: sadness?
[21:07] steffothehottie: LOL
[21:07] steffothehottie: HAHAAHAHAHAHA
[21:07] steffothehottie: comedies
[21:08] twoft3inchestall: lol
[21:08] twoft3inchestall: that wouldve been so good
[21:08] twoft3inchestall: sadness in literature
[21:10] twoft3inchestall: write that joke in your blog

EDIT:
i think he can see through everything but my heart

A-HA HONEY HONEY

saturday: sat on my bum. i'm pretty sure i did something vaguely interesting such as leave the house but i'm not positive/i don't remember.
(I REALLY WANT SALAMI AND CHEEEZE)
sunday: went to church! kaytee's, other things....
monday: wasted a lot of time

i'm pretty peeved that i got switched into thiele third bcus wednesday was supposed to be my chillll day but now i have my hardest class. DOUBLE. FIRST THING IN THE MORNING!! :(

today he told us transfers that every morning you MUST say "good morning mr. thiele" bcus it is the "third period culture" and so we all greeted him cordially and then i said
"WANNA HEAR A JOKE? :D"
and he said
"NO."
ouch. shot dowwwn :((

first period, we watched the inaugaration !!
how exciting.

lots of yb work to do do do do

we watched mamma mia on sunday and now i know why deniz loves that song so much (lay your love on me) ahahaha it's CUTE
man what a life
you can't be unhappy in greece O_O
let's go there!

CHINESE HOMEWORK IS VAGUE AND AMBIGUOUS sigh
here is what i have to do
STATS chapter 9 hw (three sections...)
YEARBOOK meeting tomorow with the editors, think about the agenda....
COMEDIES must finish ACT I which is beastlyy :( of taming of the shrew
MANDO study for quiz and confirm answersss with maitai
PSYCH read up on emotions and plan with kevo what we're gonna do
APES study energy and make that dang study guide

WOOOWOWOOWOW second semester rocksss -___-
AHAHA just kidding, it totally does! i feel soooo liberated...................
and lazy.

SHOOT I REALLY WANT SALAMI
i hope megan gets my email about the new guestpass BY TOMOROWW DD:

i am so rambling right now.
GOOD NIGHT!
MUCHLOVE <3 :) ehe

LOVEBUG

friday was such a loong day
and it felt like everyone was on edge and cranky :/
the nichol's memorial was really sad :( i cried.
photographing it was really hard.
hrmm after that, deniz erica and i went to chipotle (i had never been there before O_O)
it was gooood :9
we went late to the jazz concert and sat there for like 20 minutes before we realized that high school didn't even start until after the intermission -_-

ERIN LEE CALLED ME UGLY T_T sigh. BUT i'm def cuter than anthony, :D
she said we should be a couple and she could live with us AHAHA no -_-
DER DER
iloveher though she's soo cuteee

jazz band sounded faaantastic <3 :)
orchestra was long and made me...sleepy
:)
ahaha....

I AM A SECOND SEMESTER SENIOR

i don't really feel that different and everyone is telling me that it's TOTALLY overrated and everything will be just the same
i don't think so, there's def lest pressure to do well
megan promises that we'll have so much fun it'll be underrated :)
i can't wait to seeee herrr next week

i'm supposed to be setting up for winterball right now but i have no ride D:
and i really want yogurtland and cream puffs and i want to go SHOPPING
hafodsfkg!!!

three things i have never told:
1. my school password
2. the yearbook theme
3. my history project ;)
HAHA

shoot, that's some top secret schnitzle.

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
With this love bug again

Symmetrical tumors

me: i sleep with my phone, am i going to die from radiation?
rachel: no. you'll just have three-headed children.

BLAHHHHHH
i have to write my final draft for the senior research paper
start and finish the mando project
study for that massive psych test
watch two episodes of PI LI MIT
yahh too much :(

i am looking forward to watching girl, interrupted in class tomorrow.

hrm, i'm hoping we could just skip thursday bcus it sucks :( double stats?? double apsa?? DOUBLE MANDO (PROJ DUE) DOUBLE PSYCH aerirkdj!! test.
and thenn dance D:

FRIDAY: nichol's memorial
jazz concert thing.
FREEDOM, i will be a second semester senior.

THAIKSFJOIJFODKLCJILDJSLI!!!

kevin tagged me as yaminashi T_T i'm so sad :(
also, my wall is awesome, watch eeet.

EDIT:
mr walsh's tarot cards told me i was going to encounter a lot of heartbreak. nate did it for me three times!! and each time, that's one of my biggest fears, dying alone/being alone for extended periods of time O_O

[00:56] steffothehottie: man i feel a massive zit coming
[00:56] denizangel: ok
[00:56] denizangel: hahahahaha
[00:56] denizangel: well
[00:56] denizangel: if you look at it that way,
[00:57] denizangel: you will attract all the negative energy in the universe
[00:57] denizangel: and it will happen

What a looong night ...

i had so much fun though :)

6:30 we decided we wanted FROYO but we were gonna be late so we were like :( sadface
7:00 looking for parking
7:10 finally get in and yahhh
9:15 finished dinner bahaha i miss hanging out with all of them :( i never do anymore.
i feel kinda awkward a lot bcus when they invite me places it's always the "guys" and their girlfriends. so what am i? a guy? i'm just the random girl hahahaha -____-
9:30 left SR
9:45 got to henna's
erm yah. kay hahaha
there were like 6 seniors....total? from harker lol
it was fun, really awkward
10:30 decided to leave for tartini
missed it by one minute (they close at 11 T_T)
11:11 drove to in n out
12:05 left in n out
12:30 got to deniz's house to drop off her BURGER hahahaha
12:40 got to seany's house
1:15 left seany's house

sigh sigh slept at 2
very content.

my mom just gave me this strange tea with lemons in it. bcus everyone's getting sick :/
BUT THE WEATHER IS NICE AGAIN :D i kinda want the weather to be nice. so we can go out a lot during second semester, which is in 5 school days :D

DENIZ+GLITTER+PAPER+STRING
:)

ALMOST as cute as mine ;) ehehehe

blahblahblah why isn't first semester over yet??

TODO:
[ ] pray
[ ] 2 math assignments and study for the popquiz we're probably going to have bcus he cancelled on friday
[ ] email some peepo
[ ] 2 ap psych essays
[ ] grade a few ap psych essays
[ ] study for apes and mando

GEE GEE GEE GEE GEE

this week was a terrible week.
i hope next week is better.

SHOOT, 2009 isn't looking so good anymore, but i think it'll get better after the next two weeks are over :/

yesterday, mr thiele sang "hate that i love you" for us.
ahahahaa.

i hope tonight is fun.

Here we go again

siiigh i wish ________ never happened :(

IT WOULD HAVE MADE MY LIFE EASIER

shoot i have three quizzes/tests tomorrow and i'm too distracted to study for them.
!!!

i'm so whiny

it is true.

bcus it is 10:18 and i have finished my homework for tomorow, i will write my new year's resolutions
1. be happy!
2. go to youthgroup and church hop (ahah) once second semester starts (two weeks!!)
3. get my license (haha....)
4. maintain my first semester grades (these all seem too short term)
5. stop being annoying and whiny
6. care more about what i look like and stop dressing like a bum. haha.
7. be more organized D:
8. stop going on fb so much T_T
9. STOP OVERANALYZING
10. prioritize. correctly.
11. get back in some semblance of shape T_T
12. stop daydreaming during class (....)
13. keep friendships
14. KEEP PROMISES
15. stop missing 11:11PM
16. read more!
17. PRAY MORE T_T
18. travel the world.
19. stop cussing
20. no more procrastination
21. take chances
22. bake tasty treats
23. being more grateful
24. EATING HEALTHIER
25. fall in love. ahaha :) with anything/anyone worthwhile

THAT IS IT FOR NOW :D

i was reading girl, interrupted and it scared me so bad bcus kaysen writes so realistically and it makes me believe that i could be insane myself and not even realize it until one day, i totally lose it O_O she makes the line between insane and sane seem so....thin and slipping into this parallel universe seems so easy
second creepiest book i've read so far (only bcus of it's realistic qualities), SECOND TO YELLOW WALLPAPER (definitely hard to beat)
this class was so worth taking.

although i really dreaded today, it wasn't too bad.
lol mr walsh got a new blazer or something
....

sigh harry heehoon kim is being nice to me
something is very very wrong.

why are the freshmen only a year younger than me. why are the sophomores the same age as me. blaaarg!
i'm hardly more mature T_T hahaha!

i will now tell you of my nailpolish predicament
i went to target with deniz today and painted my nail pink, just my thumb nail
and now i really like the color and i only have my thumb done -___- how LAME sigh

MAYDONI IS SO PRETTY
right now, my computer is broked and i really need sound to listen to:
snsd's HOW GEEE mai told me it was cute and catchy D: i waaaant
pi li mit ep 9!!
GOSSIP GIRL OMGAHH SO MANY SUGGESTIVE FB STATUSES T_T

okay the end, good day to you all!

se7en's love

listen to it, good song.

I AM CONFUSED/CONFLICTED
sigh

EDIT:
HOMFG, STATS QUIZ, APES LAB, MADNESS IN LIT RESEARCH PAPER, PSYCH EC, MANDO TEST??
dearest underclassmen, having no finals is NOT ALL THAT
sigh, we got so much hw bcus they feel like we have soo much time bcus we have no finals. WRONG. the whole point was to have more time for apps, was it not? sigh :(
1. i feel like i will die before second semester, thus never reaching the promised land
2. ________ (secret)

EDIT2:
jay is a baller. wo bu pei is an awesome song. that girl is so pretty.

the more i think about my work, the more i want to sleep. senioritis at its finest.

i think. i'm. going. to. ....
AUGHHHH!!!! SO FRUSTRATED
i think i broke my brain.

BLARGLEFISH

sigh my computer is dead T_T it got infected with this SUPER VIRUS and yeah. it sucks. so now i have to wait till tomorrow for my cousin to come fix it.
BUT BESIDES THAT
day 3 of 2009, SO FAR SO GOOD.

hohumm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WON HEE LEE :)
movies yesterday, the first time i've gone since....the mummy 3 (august)-___- which i saw in HK. and the third day in a row for him (LOSER)
benjamin button was really good, kinda sad, and really deep
too deep for me to understand, i suppose

besides yesterday, i haven't gone out AT ALL.
oh i bought fugly shoes the other day on purpose
beard papa's was closed yesterday :(

right now i'm being sad bcus i can't watch PI LI MIT bcus the computer i'm using right now has NO SOUND like wtfxors T_T sigh
so i'm listening to old jay cds that danyo burned me hahahaha on my retro cd player
the cd says "i saved the best for last" and the last song is houki boshi by younha -_____- ahaha!
i'm also trying to write a research paper on the increase in diagnoses of mental illnesses in women and it SUCKS
i also want to eat a BLT
and wondering if my cousin is going to come soon.
this computer sucks, it stopped loading photos momentarily so i couldn't see FAHRENHEIT and DBSK TOGETHER so epik. but now i can and it's sort of awkward.

I LOVE ARRON now hahaha after pi li mit, almost as much as jiro. but jiro's just dumb, that's why he's so loveable. i hope he gets with guigui soonnn teehee :P

[13:13] x swirly whirl x: lul i hope something awesome happens in pi li mit
[13:13] steffothehottie: LOL STFU I HATE YOUUUU
[13:13] x swirly whirl x: so i can be like EHEHEHEHEHE :B
[13:13] x swirly whirl x: AND YOU'LL HAVE NO IDEAAAA

she is so cruel.

Hello 2009

FINALLY,
2008 is over (and good riddance. kind of.)
it was arguably the best year of highschool for some odd reason although we all battled through the second half of the crappiest year (junior year) and the first half of supposedly the best (definitely worse than junior year)
but! we got through it
i'm not gonna lie, it was pretty painful. but it also had its ups and i'd say...it was the biggest year for growth.
in 2008...i am thankful for:
second semester junior year, excel, baseball games+afterschool, yearbook, dance production, yogurtland runs, the class of 08, spirit week, junior prom, europe, hongkong china, homecoming, the class of 09, senior year :)

mmmm so much 09 pride :) makes me heipii
i couldn't ask for a better class, it's our year!

new years eve was good, with the friends i've had since forever. yogurtland, tropic thunder hahaha
brian says that the way we spend new years is the way we spend the rest of the year so i'm pretty sure i'm set :P surrounded by friends family and completely happy.

are we ready, 2009? most definitely!