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2010-06-03T07:33:00.000-07:00

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你好 from Hong Kong :)

2010-05-26T07:57:00.000-07:00

So I've been here for about 3 days now and I've really done nothing but eat and shop. /Go 'splorin' :D It's funny how much you seem to miss a place when you know you won't be coming back for a while...

That said, I'm really going to miss living at Sorrento and I'm going to miss Elements and the Kowloon MTR station T_T Sigh.
After visiting several friends in their apartments and experiencing the middle-class lifestyle as well as the disgustingly rich lifestyle, I've decided that apartments are in their own right, very endearing. So I will miss living in this apartment.
Anyway, I really want to go to Repulse Bay (lul) and tan on the beach, the sun is so fierce here. Kinda rivals California's. AND the water is semi-warm?! Definitely hitting up the beach a couple times when I get back to HK.

Tomorrow, we leave for Shanghai! :D It's been a while since I've been back but I'm definitely excited to see the World Expo 2010 and explore the city/SHOP :D
I also need to get a haircut. Any suggestions? I want to try something new but I'll probably end up with same old same old :P

Sigh I really need to work on my Chinese, it is quite dreadful for a Chinese person :(
Anyway, must pack for Shanghai :D
Goodbye!

I'M IN THE BAY TRICK

2010-05-12T23:46:00.001-07:00

AND IT FEELS SO GOOOOD :)

Sigh, I really miss NorCal sometimes :( But I know I will also miss the city of angels :(( So bleh. But nothing beats being at home so yay!

UPCOMING EVENTS include prom (I look uber fat in my dress :(() SUMMCON! :D Harker grad, and CHINAAA :D

Sigh, so excited for this summer. Also time to lose fat :D Not necessarily weight but FAT :)

I'm excited to see the boyfriend tomorrow and the best friend on Friday :D

And I'm also very very thankful that finals went semi-well, I crammed in loads of stayinguplateeatingthaifoodat4AMandicecreamundermybed time with mah frands back at school, and that packing, moving, and traveling are over for the time being.
God is so great!! :)

VISITING HARKER TOMORROW :D

Graduation

2010-05-03T23:19:00.000-07:00

Helena and I are currently listening to that song by Vitamin C and it's making me super nostalgic for high school :( I really miss Harker and our class and all the times we had together in the last month, we changed so much as a class and I really miss it :/

But it also makes me angry bcus haha I'm thinking about how prom sucked and they didn't even really play this song and we didn't get to have our senior song and I know that when they play it at this years' prom it's just going to make me bitter :/

SIGH, APRIL/MAY 2009 come back to meeee

Psalm 50:15

2010-04-26T14:09:00.000-07:00

I AM TIRED.
NO MORE WORK PLEASE.
MY ROOM IS DISGUSTING.
HOW WILL I GET MY STUFF HOME?

good day to you all.

Juicebox

2010-04-21T17:32:00.000-07:00

When We Say

A few things I wish I didn't have to do in college: eat, shower, and sleep.
Of course those are all things I enjoy and would do if I wanted to but they should be optional.

I'm so conscious about waking up my suitemate

2010-04-13T00:54:00.001-07:00

who is a crazy light sleeper that I get nervous when I turn on the faucet in the mornings.

Feeling Strange

2010-04-09T00:26:00.000-07:00

Today, I did several things. I attended a large number of classes and spent many hours being bored out of my brains and having to pee. I always have to pee during SOC142. Sign?
I caught up on Gossip Girl. O_O I can't for Monday! Aha although I'll probably watch it in a month...? I'm bad at this....
I baked some red velvet cupcakes with Alice (which are pretty good!) and brought them to Overflow an hour.five late! But that's okay because we had a good time doing it. I think everyone liked them too. I have much more respect now for those who bake like, every week, to serve us :) I should do it more often! Maybe not in Brian's kitchen though...
We did our best though to bless the apartment :) Teehee
We also cuddled on the futon exchanging secrets when his apartment-mate came in. AWK.
I also praised God with a representative portion of the USC Christian population at Tommy Trojan for a couple of hours. It was beautiful :)
But now I'm sleepy and feeling weird. And stuff. Too lazy to write anything interesting or insightful so there is a recap of my day.
KAY BYE

男女平等

2010-04-07T01:17:00.001-07:00

That is the name of the section we're studying right now in which we're learning words and expressions for "discrimination" and "loaded carrying pole" and "to arrange a marriage (for the sake of the unborn child)" all in the same lesson! Ug it sucks.
I've been getting less than satisfactory on my Chinese quizzes just because I don't feel like studying. 4 weeks left! I have like, no motivation left.
BUT! I am very much looking forward to prom, summercon! and graduation :) and finally home! After all the crazy traveling that will ensue because of the above 3 events, which fall within ten days of each other and require flying back and forth 3 times. :(

Other than school stuff, one exciting piece of news is that Jon, Regina, Krista, and I took the bus to church on Easter taking Jon's public transport virginity and getting to Easter service before any of the cars and solving our transportation problems simultaneously. What a great day :)

God has really been coming through lately and I feel as though I'm in a passive and content state lately which is not so great because I'm just plain lazy. BUT! My relationship with God isn't passive so this is good!

Some events have occurred in the past week which have put my troubles at ease. I ate dinner with Richard yesterday and it helped put my mind to rest about a number of things. Life is good! AND tomorrow is going to be 78 degrees :)

Okay time to sleep on the sheets I just washed :) Yay for laundry-smelling things :)

You're the one who makes me sing!

2010-03-28T15:15:00.000-07:00

Hello world!
Today is so beautiful :) But there are few places on campus near Parkside where I would like to sit outside and do homework so alas, I am inside my room slaving away (sort of...).
Anyway, today was quite a long day. Jon did not wake up for church and we ended up coming up with sorts of scenarios which all involved him being physically incapable of reaching his cellular device (for example, lying dead in the non-existent ditches that surround our school) but he was sleeping -_____- I have yet to meet someone more incoherent than Jon Wong when he wakes up--except maybe Katelyn.
Anyway, service was good so I'm really glad we got to catch the last 40 minutes. My friend from UCSD came so it was fun taking her to church :) My friend who is still a junior in high school also came so this weekend has just been filled with old friends!

Anyway, I'm feeling pretty good about life right now, somewhat. Of course, summer is a mere 5 weeks away (not counting finals) and I am so close to relaxing under the stars with my friends at Catalina...but I need to get my grades up!
And just finish a bunch of things I don't really want to do. Also, moving at the end of the year feels me up with some sort of apprehension and I do not like it :( I also have no idea what my plans are for the summer and I'm feeling a bit iffy on some decision I've made in the past couple of weeks but pray pray pray and everything will be okay! :)

Aside from that, I'm really excited for the end of this year and for Encounter and for the next few years at SC so yes :) Life all of a sudden feels so short...not necessarily a bad thing!

GOODBYE CHILDREN.

My favorite way for God to remind me He's always there...

2010-03-23T07:29:00.001-07:00

Is when He wakes me up in the morning without an alarm because believe me, that is a miracle.

Here's to an awfully long day of school :((

Relient K is sooo wise...

2010-03-22T16:26:00.001-07:00

WE ARE BACK AT SCHOOL AND IT SUCKSSS :( Although today wasn't TOO bad, classes went by pretty quickly (one was even cut in half :D) and my Chinese test wasn't too bad :D

Anyway, I was on the plane yesterday listening to Relient Ks song "Be My Escape," the one that eventually led to their exploding success and I actually listened to the words (not that I didn't before but you know what I mean...)

And this life sentence that I'm serving
I admit that I'm every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Woaaaah
Pretty deep right?
Every wrong thing that happens in our lives, we deserve it! And we don't deserve all the things that go right...a pretty hard concept to wrap our minds around, but not really because all of a sudden, understanding God's mercy has never been so clear.
Yah I guess that kinda encapsulates everything we've been talking about at Reality LA (or like, a couple weeks ago) so yes. That is what I thought about on the plane. And then I shared it with Helena.
BTW THE JONAS BROTHERS GO TO REALITY LA.

Last night, I ate quail eggs with Mai and Cauchy and some delicious chocolate raspberry sticks. They're SUPER DUPER good so if you want some, COME TO MY ROOM AND I WILL SHARE WITH YOUU :))

OKAY G2G BYE GUYZ

I am 18.

2010-03-21T00:20:00.001-07:00

Guys save so much money!
1. Their haircuts are like, 20 dollars cheaper AT LEAST.
2. They use significantly less toilet paper than girls do.
3. They also use significantly less shampoo and conditioner.

Sighh

15 Days of Love :)

2010-03-09T18:43:00.001-08:00

Hey guys!
So the TCF girls in the Crazy Love book study are doing a little application called "15 Days of Love" during which each day is dedicated to a part of what love is defined as in 1 Corinthians (love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, etc...)
What really struck me about the chapter we had read for Crazy Love was what Frances asked us to do. He told us that if we had substituted our name in that verse, when would we start lying?
Steff-o is patient...
I can't even get past the first three words! Though slightly discouraging, it means that there is plenty of ground for improvement :) Today, we are on day three (love does not envy) and so far so good :) If anything, it's making me more conscious of the ways love is expressed.
Maybe one day I'll write about love languages :)

Anyway, this week has been fairly decent although lacking in sleep.
Thursday, omgosh we finally set off the alarm at SGM O_O IT WAS SO SCARY. WE RAN SO FAST. MY HEART WAS BEATING SO FAST. Hehe needless to say I guess we're not going on any rooftops anytime soon. Also because today was super cold!! Friday, Mai and I ventured to Ktown to buy ingredients we needed (wrong ones...) with which we would later use to bake green tea cookies at Rowlands! It was really fun and tasty even though we took extreme liberties with the recipe...

That night, we went to BCD OMGOSH I've been craving for MONTHS and we FINALLY FOUND IT after walking like 9283493 blocks, it was sooo worth ittt. Then we went to a concert called "The Three Romanticists." Well, they changed it to "The Romanticist" after one of the singers dropped out. Even though Rowland and I couldn't understand anything, we really enjoyed it :) K. Will especially ;) so adorable!

Saturday, we had Crazy Love and then we took the bus to the Teen Center where we fellowshipped with others from around the area who were interested in volunteering at there as well :) It was really fun! We also had Katelyn's goodbye party that day and it was very bittersweet. She, along with a couple girls shed some tears because she won't be with us for a few months but I know God has great plans for her in Japan :) The blessing bunnies turned out great and the Ramen bar was DELICIOUS.
TCF kids really know how to cook ;) Sigh, with everyone leaving, Jon says we better get on learning T_T

Sunday, we went to church and then had brunch and I did a lot of homework :) I originally wasn't going to reassign and thus stayed up rather late passing out baked goods to the kids who were sleeping at the CSCs downstairs. Then I realized I was also reassigning and went to bed rather late only to get up at 7 T_T BUTTCRACK OF DAWN!
Also, we had Stalcup's goodbye party Sunday night :( He's leaving us!! But I guess he's still close so it's not too bad. And he's leading Mark Study tonight! :)

Yesterday, I hosted a student for ExploreUSC and got a free shirt :) NOT ONLY THAT, I made a new friend and she said she really enjoyed her time here :)
Stephanie Guo: MY BUDDY SAID SHE WANTED TO GO TO USC BEACUSE OF ME IN AN EMAIL
Stephanie Guo: HAHA.
xkkx7: LOOOOL
xkkx7: ITS CUZ U WATCHED GG WITH HER
Yee it was really fun! :)

Anyway, I'm happy :) though a little bit stressed for my WRIT140 paper although for the first time, I have a complete rough draft more than 24 hours before it's due and it's at its maximum page capacity!! :)) Now just to incorporate more evidence and send away to Cauchy :)) Keke

Sidenote:
You know you go to church in Hollywood when your pastor preaches in skinnies, plaid, and has hella tats on his arms.
Siick :)
PASTOR TIM is incredibly intelligent, I'm so glad I go to Reality LA :)

OKAY BYE. SPRING BREAK IS SO CLOSE. HOIDSJLFKJGOAISDAS!!K:FSDK

YAY AREA

2010-03-05T14:08:00.000-08:00

HOW I MISS THOU!

Here are some things I must accomplish over SPRING BREAK:
(Helena is coming home with me so I have a guest! :)) next year, Hawaii...)
1. SAN FRANCISCO, I gotta show her the little culture we have. and SHOPPING :) get some clam chowder in a bread bowl, bark at sea lions, etc.
2. Get a dress!!
3. Hit up Valley Fair and Great Mall
4. See all the guys <3 and the BFFs.
5. TURN 18!!!!!! And have a bangin' birthday :D
6. Visit Stanford and Berk kids :)) PARTIES? :D
7. THE BEACH. Even though it's cold :(
8. Visit the ol' Alma Mater, visit some teachers, hang out with small children, etc.
9. Harker Baseball <3 :)
10. SLEEPOVERS.
11. EAT.

THE END! I will come back to write soon :)

THANK YOU

2010-03-02T16:40:00.001-08:00

CRAPLOADS HAVE HAPPENED SINCE I LAST POSTED
But here is a list of what I am thankful for :)

1. God, thank you for everything I am about to write about...HAHA
2. God, thank you for TCF and Alice and all the freshmen who have really shown me your love through their actions...I can't seem to thank them enough because of what they do. I wanted to cry tears of joy when I saw them sitting in the baggage claim doing their homework T_T I don't know what I'd do if I had never met them!
3. God, thank you for my family and helping me feel at peace about everything that's happened in the last month or so. Thank you for helping me realize that everything, though inconvenient and annoying for ME, and no matter how much I whine about the injustices you have put upon me, I know that you are a loving and merciful God...and everything is in your hands. Thanks for helping me see that it's all worked out according to your plan :)
4. God, thank you for that anonymous missionary in China who touched my great-grandfather. I just learned that he was a Christian pastor! I've actually been to the church he used to pastor at...and it's right across the street from a communist police department. I now have hope that they can coexist peacefully and China can be transformed :)
5. I thank you for giving my aunt 9 years when they expected only a few weeks. And in those 9 years, she found you and for that, I am eternally grateful. She was also baptized by my other cousin's (opposite side of the family...) girlfriend's father. Funny how things work out, huh?
6. I'm happy that I was able to spend a bit of time this weekend with my extended family. Now that it's over, I think everyone is a bit more at ease, and I look forward to getting to know them even more. Winterbreak in Queensland? I think so :)
7. THANKS FOR MY WRIT140 GRADE :)

The Friday after I last posted...PRB went to Ktown for some delicious 3 dollars Korean BBQ! On Saturday, Mai and I watched a really scary Japanese movie called AIR DOLL, it was really thought-provoking and called to question what it really means to be human...but the climax really turned me off and now I'm deathly afraid of it :(
Sunday, church was sooo goood! Sigh pastor Tim is so smart and articulate and the message was very very interesting. Worship was great, of course :) So I woke up on Sunday and then went to sleep again and had a short dream about singing "Consuming Fire" and then at church, WE DID! Crazy huh? And also, Kathy was there O_O Which was really cool to to run into a very familiar face from home :D (I dreamt about her before I met her as well...) AND she came with a girl who I actually sat with on the plane to Urbana. O_O Crazy how things work out that way, right?
We had brunch at EVK which was ACTUALLY quite good :)
Mmm last week was just a lot of catch-up work, my SOCI142 midterm actually went pretty well, I think :) and the first half of my Chinese midterm tooo..we'll see how the second half goes tomorrow :D (I just finished COMM206 today too and I think it was quite okay..we'll see!) but yar, then packed up and went home :P

I also found a really nice notebook with Won at Borders the other day for less than 8 dollars and I am very happy about that :) I'm trying to update more, I promise!!
Next up, hopefully new year's resolutions :D

BYEBYE everybodyyy

Found Love Beyond All Reason

2010-02-15T10:42:00.001-08:00

HELLO!
This weekend was one of the best weekends at SC :) I was really feelin' the love this Vday :D
On Friday, I spent the night talking to Won and hanging out with Helena. We did pilates! yayy :D I also cleaned my room for good luck on Chinese New Year (impressive right?? I even vacuumed :D)

Saturday morning, Regina, Solanda, Richard, Jon, Valerie, and I went to Love Life, a conference on love, sex, and marriage in a Christian context. They boys got us breakfast! SO adorable :) Thoughtfulness=A+. Also, we managed to leave SC 20 minutes before a fire alarm went off at 9AM. Sucks for everyone at Pside :) Haha thanks God!
Anyway, Love Life was a HUGE blessing, it answered a lot of questions yet led me to some too that I have yet to answer. But in general, a lot to digest. And I never really read the Songs of Solomon too carefully but did you know that the Bible addresses the merits of oral sex directly?!?! I didn't.
Is sex god or gross? Neither! It's a gift :) FOR WHEN YOU'RE MARRIED.
Aite also, we ate at this cute Korean shack thing for lunch which was interesting. Anyway, when we got back, I ate my leftovers and then we had Crazy Love with the TCF girls :) It was really fun to just be with my sisters and bond :D
After that, we went back to Lorena's and made the guys their Vday goodie bags :)) yom for baking!! We also watched Mulan and ordered Thai food :D
Happy Chinese New Year everyone!! :D

Sunday, the weather was starting to get REALLY HOT, like 80 degrees! Just how I like i! Reality's sermon was really good this week, but left us with a lot of cliffhangers. Brunch was enjoyable as always, and afterward, I got some work done before Helena, Rachael, and I walked to Ground Zero to buy some of their famous milkshakes :) GOOD IDEA STEFF-O!
Then we got ready for TCF Girls' Appreciation Night.

TCF Girl's Appreciation Night definitely succeeded in making me feel OVERWHELMED by love and service from the guys. I cried. Really, I did, and I felt my like my heart was getting so heavy with love it'd just drop right out of my chest. There's also something about cute boys in suits making food and dancing for you :D Keke. Anyway, the whole night, they served us on hand and foot with a delicious homemade 4-course meal, song and dance, a Biblical play on love, and a fun game. My favorite, though, was the movie. (Insert tears). They made this interview style movie for us with fun questions like "How would you describe TCF girls in one word?" "What do you love best about TCF?" Some guys were really fun and open about it, while others really opened their hearts and were very transparent. I have never been so touched or blessed in my life, I was not the only one tearing up either.
Check out the last bit of the video, it's pretty amazing :)
I'm going to watch this movie whenever I am sad.

After that, we went back to my room and we played Pass the Bomb and read magazines and just talked until 1AM before everyone went to sleep.

Monday was also VERY NICE weathered, Ben had Richard and I wake up SUPER EARLY like 11AM! For discipleship. But that was because he had found a car! And he drove us all the way to Arcadia (only Chinese places open on holidays) to have delicious Chinese food and PMT. :) A really good start to my day.

The rest of Monday and Tuesday were spent suffering from WRIT140 and COMM206 because I had hung out all weekend but I don't regret it at all :D
Oh yes, and Tuesday I had accountability with Alice at SGM and we sang all the praise songs we knew (limited...) and we could actually see stars! It was fun :D

MORE TO COME! Stay tuned because I know my life is SO fascinating :DD

I know you're an independent person but I thought you could depend on me. That's what a relationship is for :) Wo ai ni

Catching Up

2010-02-12T11:41:00.000-08:00

Hey guys,
So I'm about 1.5 months behind or something so I will do a general recap :) no details!
And I'm going to break it down right here:
1. Rest of Winter Break
2. First Month of School
3. TCF Happenings (JJ+Marks, Accountability, EPIK, Reality LA)
4. MISC. (Leggings, Banana Pancakes, Housing, USC Culinary Sekrits [not really])

Rest of Winter Break:
Spent it primarily with family, Deniz, and Won.
For Won's birthday, we went to this place on El Camino called Cherry Sushi and it was really good :) Then the really cute manager took a picture for us keke. We went to see Up in the Air after that because Won has this strange man crush on George Clooney and yes, that is what I did.
The next day I saw Naynay, Winny, and Albert and we had PMT for a few hours :P haha
When Harker started again I basically went everyday to see old '09 friends, Won, and old teachers. It was good to reconnect :) I miss high school :(
Deniz and I probably gained 60 pounds over break.
Ooh, David and I had dinner at Elephant Bar and then Barrett joined us for desert, which was dericious. Afterward, we met up with Seany and Deniz and we went to Stanford to visit the Mandells on the first night of their second semester, which was fun. It's interesting to see how different their dorm life is and etc. but in general, pretty quiet granted we were there at like 11PM on a Monday. And we forgot to go to the Palo Alto Creamery!! Shame.
Hmm one highlight of my Winter Break was probably traipsing through SF with the guys and Masha and finally seeing Avatar in IMAX-3D. We left South Bay and drove to SF and had a really nice Indian dinner after wandering around and chilling in hotel lobbies. Afterward, we went to the Metreon and in search of snack food. We ended up wandering around some famous sculptures and waterfall installments and this AWESOME PARK but the police man said it was closed and we couldn't go :( oh well. For another day.
That's all I can remember.
ON TO USC! :D

First month of school:
I started the first two weeks feeling pretty behind :(
Chinese has been going well although we have quizzes every day so it's pretty overwhelming and time consuming to be studying for these quizzes/oral presentations/doinghomework/tests every night :(
Writing 140 is unsufferable. It's 8AM and terribly boring and I failed my first paper BLEH! Kind of.
Soci is boring and the room is really cold and the teacher is meeehhh and yah no good. I hope the class is easy though...
Comm206 is alright. I hear it's graded rather harshly so that's no good.
I JUST WANT A GOOD GPA :(

TCF Happenings
I also had to deal with making some pretty hard decisions when it came down to SEVERAL EARTH SHATTERING EVENTS IN MY LIFE. Actually, just one. But before that, I really struggled with deciding whether or not to go to January Jumpstart or Harker's Winterball and I was really feeling the pressure but in the end, I went to Winterball and I haven't regretted it.
On the same note, Mark Study has been an incredible blessing and enlightening process to which I look forward to every week. Also new in my TCF life, I have an accountability partner!

Alice and I have met three times already and it's been amazing :) The first night, we had dinner at EVK for their Asian theme night which was meh, but good conversation :) The last two times, Alice came up with the brilliant idea of going to the roof of SGM and having a picnic there.
Last night, the door was not propped open and a little light was blinking. We were very ready to run if the alarm rang, but God was on our side and we were able to sit and eat and talk for a couple hours.
LA IS BEAUTIFUL. Aside for the recent bad weather and smog etc., it's been really nice to be able to put everything in perspective. It sounds silly but I feel closer to God, because I physically am. I can see my whole campus (which is gorgeous and not that big at all), all of South Central, I can probably see Skid Row if I really looked. I could probably see the Hollywood sign and the financial district. Maybe tiny fashion district and little Tokyo. And I can definitely see downtown. LA is really a great place to be and is full of opportunities. But it's also a place of hurting and heartbreak; a pretty comprehensive look at the rest of America, and the world too.
It's been good to sit on the rooftop and talk about the burdens of my heart and have someone to share them with. It's also comforting to know that there is a God who created everything I can see from the top of SGM, and more. It's also saddening to realize that so many people have less than me. But it is encouraging to know that I have not yet accomplished God has put me here to do.
I haven't been to the tops of anywhere else but Alice says SGM is pretty baller in comparison so check it out :P If you end up getting chased by the DPS, don't blame me.

At the beginning of the semester, the TCF freshmen went to check out Epik and meet some of our brothers and sisters there. They had a testimony night and it was very comforting and inspiring to see their openness and transparency with each other. In the same vein, I can't express how grateful I have been for TCF. Last Saturday night, following Love & Influence, our car had gone to Ralph's to buy a little cake for Helena's 19th birthday. We then called two other cars worth of people and Alice from Southside to bring some candles. When we got to Parkside, the guys had brought a few upperclassmen and Alice had brought a whole army from Southside and it really made me want to cry because although Helena acted very embarrassed by the whole process of having been called into the hallway by two RAs and then being sung at in front of many many people, I think we really touched her heart. I think both her and I have really come to appreciate TCF and their loving on us. :)

A lot of stuff has been happening...

Last Friday-Saturday, TCF went to Love & Influence, yet another InterVarsity conference in Burbank. To be honest, it wasn't exactly life changing, although I found the application part very fun and the testimonies quite moving. Altogether, it was a good weekend to reflect on the practical ways to love on others with the love of God. It's good to feel God tangibly :)
I didn't sleep well at all, we had to sleep in a toy room in the Sunday School section and there were creepy dolls everywhere. We had stayed up till 1AM telling sekrits :) and I had tossed and turned for 4 hours, finally MAYBE sleeping at like 6, only to get up at 8. I had a dream about Parkside serving us Asian pancakes (the ones from Hong Kong? They're the best :))

Our mission that afternoon was to go out to the mall in Burbank and find a way to further God's kingdom with 5 dollars. Sound familiar? I was sent out with the same mission when I graduated high school and began school at USC with 100 dollars in hand. It was really difficult, we were in a group of 4, two of us from SC and one from UCR and another from a local school in LA. We ended up buying three cups of hot tea and talking to those Chinese masseuse people in the mall people tend to avoid. We had to speak in Chinese and learned that they had just immigrated and it's been hard getting by but they try to ever so often go to the local church and pray. It was immensely encouraging just seeing the hope and determination they had in coming to this country.
It was also very comforting to know that we had more skills than we had that could break things down (like language barriers). Nothing amazing, but we were able to share the burdens of these people and pray for their lives. Three people touched :)
Then we went to this church of Scientology shady store thing and it was hella freaky, no lie. They like tried to brainwash us or something but they left us alone after they saw that we were Christian (forgot about the Bibles we were holding...)
WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD jOIDFJ SO STRANGE. But for the first time, I was really aware of how it felt to be on the OTHER SIDE of a religion and learning more about a way of life I didn't quite want to be a part of.

Learning about what others did with their 5 dollars was immensely encouraging as well.

I also got to eat In n' Out, very satisfying :)

Two weeks ago, I began to go to Reality LA church instead of Evergreen and I've been LOVING IT. It's not far at all and it starts at 9AM instead of 1130AM. The worship is incredible, the messages are relevant and thought-provoking, prayer is important, and I can really feel God there with us. On a more shallow level, there are other college kids there! I don't care if they're from UCLA! It feels good to be with others in my age group and know that the messages are tailored to people of our generation and the things we are going through.
Last Sunday, we got into conversation with this HUGE MAN sitting behind me and we were casually chatting with him and his wife just about where we were from, what school we went to, and our SAT scores (??) haha yeah, turns out he went to SC too! He fist bumped us and we noticed a ring on his finger. That was not his class ring, it was his National Championship ring! He had played for the Trojans on our O-Line back in the 70's!! Super cool :) AND he's from the BAY! He went to Saratoga High. Funny how things work out like that :D

MISC.:
Just a few more important things that have occured in the past month:
I have now understood the appeal of wearing leggings as pants. I feel ashamed to do so, but do it often. It's just too comfortable. This feels like a sin.
A couple weeks ago, Sambo visited and we had a lot of adventures on the row, outside Trogro (TCF AND HARKER FUN :)), and in our room. It was pouring that weekend and for the first time in my life! I had some really delicious banana pancakes courtesy of Parkside :) And we listened to Jack Johnson's banana pancake soon "Can't you see that it's just raining..."
We had an excellent adventure hoisting her stuff over the fence because it was locked and the taxi was on the other side...5 minutes later, soaked to the bone :]

Also, I have discovered two important culinary experiences that have changed my life. 1. Chicken nugget Tuesdays @ EVK. I LOVE CHICKEN NUGGEST. I LOVE TUESDAYS (NOW). AUGHH!!
Also, LiteraTea! ADORABLE! I love tea stores and this store has the CUTEST deserts like mini-macaroons and they have bottles of Mexican Coke, Aloe, and delicious tea. I LOVE LITERATEA. AND THEY TAKE DINING DOLLARS YES. Been there twice in the past three days.

LASTLY, Housing has finally been settled, I'm rooming with SOLANDA on the second floor BOO and suiting with Mai, Dana, Ivy, and two three unnamed persons at the moment :)
God has been good. In terms of special interest housing (basically Parkside), all of the TCF-ers have gotten what they wanted. Looks like dorm ministry is a go! :)

That is all. Coming up this weekend...
1. Birthday celebrations?
2. LOVE LIFE (ANOTHER CONFERENCE TOMORROW) I think it's going to be good for me. Really good.
3. TCF woman's appreciation night <3 :) ruv TCF boys.
4. Sleepovers! (all of us are lonely due to Chinese new year and also the fact that all of our roommates have gone home for it.)
5. TWO PAPERS, ONE TEST (week 5) TWO MIDTERMS (week 6) AUGHHH

Good day! If you read all of that, you're amazing.

Urbana pt. 2

2010-01-30T10:45:00.000-08:00

Finally! Haha so I'm finally getting around to posting about Day 3-5? Yes.
So here we go:

Day three:
Today was the day things started to change! :) We woke up (hardly) and barely missed breakfast! We took it to our Bible study room, however, we were late so we had to split up :( I think today was the day I happened to sit next to this really nice married couple (AWK.WARD.) and they happened to be from San Jose! They were very spiritually mature (being, like, 8 years older than me or something) and made me feel kind of meh (unintentionally of course!) but in general, it was a very growing experience :) Afterward, we went to the convention center and continued our study of John 1-4. The session really made me think about stewarding what we have, for God. It didn't matter how much we have-or how little we have-we should live by stewardship and not ownership. I really got a glimpse of what it was like to "hold [possessions] with an open hand." A valuable lesson indeed :)
After the morning session, TCF SPRINTED TO OUR DESIGNATED EATING LOCATION and went to the St. Louis Bread Company! Which is actually Panera Bread in disguise but it was good stuff :) (I have never been to Panera either!) Anyway, I had a really hard time choosing (my very first!) seminar and after spending the very long wait for our soup and bread bowls pouring over my tracks and seminars booklet, and I finally decided on "Decision Making and the Will of God"
...
So Solanda and I walked the many many blocks to Millenium center and and sat very close to the front with some other TCF-ers and listened to James Choung speak. Not only is he an amazing speaker, what he had to say was very intriguing and honest. He also authored a great book, "True Life," so check it out :) He sometimes visits Steve too so we're hoping to catch him around South Central :D It was very interesting just to consider how God might play into our everyday decisions and life decisions. Ultimately, though, just because He calls us to do something, it doesn't mean that it's going to be easy. What a simple, but hard, lesson to learn.
After that, Solanda and I hurried back to the America's Center (and got a picture with the Arch on the way :D) to attend "Ethical Dilemmas in the world of Christian Development." It was interesting-though not what we expected. To be honest, I had a hard time understanding what he was saying, partially because we were SUPER TIRED at this point, and also because it was just really heady stuff. But he did speak about what Evangelism meant, the core reason we were at Urbana, and also what poverty really meant. Poverty does not mean financial status. It means broken relationships. Furthermore, you can't help someone until you understand them.

They don't care what you know until they know that you care.

After those sessions, I was feeling pretty good about feeling spiritually more intelligent :P or some sort of feeling similar to that. We had dinner and really got to explore Global Connexions a bit.
The evening session, Shane Claireborne, who is a great speaker with great experience, spoke about really loving our neighbors. The evening session concluded with many other speakers and we finally went home.
Our family time was really a blessing to me, I really grew closer to my sisters and learned a lot about God and Godly relationships. We ended up talking until 4 or 5 AM and DUN DUN DUN

Day four:
We overslept!! It was a total disaster, although, in retrospect, totally worth it! Wednesday was a special day because they pushed back Bible study half an hour and then the whole day was a bit different because instead of seminars, we would just be having some quiet time, or time with our fellowships, or whatever we wanted.
So anyway, the session started at 11:00AM and someone called us at 10:45AM. Somehow, we managed to sleep over all 5 of our alarms and miss Bible study! Not only that, when we got to the center, we had no seats saved for us and Ben was very angry at us :( I do not like when people are angry at us. Despite being late, we walked joyfully to the Center because it was SNOWING! Being a typical Californian, falling snow was very exciting for me. The flake were so fat !! :) Anyway, our whole situation put me in a not so good mood for the rest of the day. I was somewhat disappointed in myself just because Tuesday was really a very growing day for me and it seemed as though Urbana was going in a positive direction. Sleeping in on Wednesday morning just didn't feel good at all (although a bit rested. I slept more during midterm season that Urbana!!)
One really cool thing that happened when we were sitting up in the nosebleeds was that that morning, they called for those who would commit their lives to Jesus, and the would get glow sticks. From our seats, we could really see the impact that Urbana had on the lives of these people. It was one of the most joyous feelings in the world, just to see who had just entered the Kingdom, how many more sisters and brothers I now had. :)
Anyway, we didn't eat lunch with TCF that day, we went off to some really good steak place and enjoyed ourselves. However, service was super slow and yet again, we were late to our meeting with TCF. BEN FACE -_______-. Anyway, even then, I think our family group made really significant contributions to the conversation about how to spark revival at USC. In general, I felt pretty good after that.
The day really turned out to be a blessing in disguise. After the meeting, us girls really got to explore Global Connexions and learn about the opportunities we had all over the world. We also went to the bookstore and bought lots of things :)) Tehehe A lot of good books to read. I have yet to read all of them but when I do, I will most definitely post a review! :D
I purchased:
"Becoming the Answer to our Prayers"-Shane Claiborne
"How to Inherit the Earth"-Bessenecker
The books were MAD cheap, less than 5 dollars, some of them. But we split them up and decided to swap throughout this semester.
That night, we had what is called a solidarity meal. It gave us the chance to experience what it was like to not have enough to eat. We always took for granted that we always have enough to have the choice of whether or not we wanted more. This was really a humbling experience. Plus, I met some cool people from Canada! :D
The evening session was especially important for me because Sunder Krishnan spoke that night. His sermon was a powerful take on how prayer should be executed. Pray big and pray bold. The one phrase that really stuck from that night. He spoke about how the way we pray guarantees results, but real prayer is not fundamentally about getting answers. Intercession is God's gift to us, history belongs to the intercessors. Prayer has always been a really big growing point in my own spiritual life just because I grew up in the church not really valuing it. Prayer was also a big reason I joined TCF, because TCF really seemed to emphasize the connection and speaking to God.
Family time was once again, a large blessing :) But we remembered to sleep earlier (but not my much) that night :)

Day Five:
We made it to our last Bible study! Finally, we had finished our inductive study of John 1-4, and it felt good! The morning session was about how we are called to obedience-and not necessarily to success. A really scary thing if you think about it. The problem with us today is that we see problems, but not opportunities. We need to continue to be on fire and learn how to let go and change our ways if they impede the way to the Kingdom. So many important lessons to be learned! Definitely easier said than done.
Afterward, we went to this quaint little cheap restaurant that was surprisingly empty when we got there. We really beat the rush!
My first session on Thursday that I chose to go to was originally called "Birthing Faith Communities in Missions." I got there early and they had asked me to fill out a survey at the end of the session. When the seminar started, it had actually been changed to "Birthing Mission through Kingdom communities." Something quite different, right? But I had to stay because I had that survey to fill out -___-
To be honest, I was incredibly bored. But I did still learn something (praise God) and that was that in order to really reach out and bless people, I had to live among them as Jesus did for us (the general lesson of Urbana '09, but we had some real life examples). Mission doesn't passively occur (he had the strangest analogy, likening it to childbirth...) and we weren't made to do it alone. Anyway, this really solidified my conviction to serve in the freshman dorms next year.
After that seminar, I went to one that was led by an organization that really sparked my interest. OMF international is an organization that works primarily in East Asia. The people I talked to were very kind and the mission of OMF really interested me. Also, one of their leaders is actually part of my home church in the Bay so yes :) perhaps a part of my future plans :D
Anyway, it was called "Six Ways to Reach God's World." The seminar carefully outlined what exactly, what these six ways were. They then asked us to work with others in carefully crafting how we would go about this. I was the only one from TCF :( So I was feeling lonely. But one of the two leaders actually came over and talked to me and it turns out that she's also from the Bay Area so that was really exciting :)
Anyway, I left feeling pretty good about that last seminar.

The evening session was just really, indescribable. The music was great-as it had been all week. The sermons were great. What was really amazing, though, was the partaking of Communion among 16,000 of your brothers and sisters. I really have no other way to describe it, it was one of the most powerful images/events I have ever taken part in. The things I had learned had really hit home at that moment and my heart started to break for those who were hurting around the world. I couldn't stop crying, and neither could those around me. Afterward, worship was tangibly more joyful (if that was even possible) and the love around me, between strangers, was positively electric. We prayed aloud for revival on our campuses and around the world. I felt as though all barriers were lifted. We truly worshiped in the new year, I could feel that 2010 is going to be good :)

On the way home, we sang and praised God. The lobby of our hotel was full of drunk people and this drunk Asian guy was hitting on me. Haha. Anyway, we had good family time, again, and packed up for home.

Day Six:
HOMEBOUND! When I woke up, the majority of our family had already left. I got all my stuff and made my way to the guys' hotel and had breakfast with some of the guys. Then Cauchy and I got on the subway and went to the airport! It was cool to see all of the people who went to Urbana AND were from the Bay Area! Lot of CCIC kids :P Anyway, I started talking to this cool guy about our experiences at Urbana and it felt good to have this close communion with a complete stranger. The flight home, with one stop in Las Vegas, was very sleepy.
The flight attendant gave a shout-out to those who went to Urbana! Very cool.
Anyway, I went home and showered and slept.
A good end to an amazing journey!

Trojans in St. Louis! :)

I hope you all enjoyed reading this :D The details may be slightly inaccurate just because I waited almost a month to post the last half of our trip.
Anyway, I encourage you to all go to Urbana '12 :D
And I'm so excited for what God has in store for this year :) and for TCF!

Coming up:
Second semester, New Year's resolutions, just general happenings in the life of Steff-o.

Today, we're going to the opening of a Teen Center in South Central. We helped out at this particular organization during Frosh Con, and we really hope to become affiliated with their work. Hopefully we'll get to mentor high school students :) I'm so excited!!
It's a big risk, to open such a luxurious, safe space, in such an area, but I have faith that God will do amazing things with this vision.
Haha I remember running into World Impact (the organization ^) at Urbana and the lady was SUPER excited that we were from USC and really had no words, she just hugged us :)

Anyway, time for hw :(

Hakuna Mungu Kama Wewe

2010-01-03T19:45:00.000-08:00

URBANA '09! was a life changing experience and I recommend all christian college students who are currently freshmen...or in high school I guess, to go to Urbana '12.
To avoid too much summary, read this article! :
Urbana '09: The Tradition Continues

As for my personal experience, I'll try to explain the best I can what I got out of the past 5 days in St. Louis, Missouri :)

Day one:
Was a traveling day! It did not start out well, I ran to barely catch my flight (thankfully, Cauchy saved me a seat) and I was painfully reminded that I am very, very out of shape. Then, thinking we barely had time to make our transfer flight out of Chicago, Cauchy and I ran from one terminal to another only to be informed that our flight was delayed an hour. Upon arriving an hour later than scheduled, registration took an additional hour for me because I'm not old enough to sign my own waiver -____- Also saw some fellow 4hoc-ers :) Nice to see familiar faces from home! When we finally made it to the welcome session, we had already missed half of it. Afterward, TCF ate in family groups at this really good Italian restaurant. Despite the troubles some of us faced, TCF had arrived in St. Louis safe and cold :)

Day two:
The day began too early as we made a long trek downstairs (with 17,000 kids living in few hotels and living on the 26th floor, it takes a while.) and ate our breakfast sitting on the floor of the lobby. Then we made our way to morning bible study at 830 AM! And began our inductive study of John 1-4, the theme verses of this years Urbana. After an hour and a half of concentration, we made the cold and seemingly long trek to morning session where we continued to study the Word, worship, and watch performances etc. We concluded at 12 and followed Ben's brilliant idea of going to the furthest possible restaurant to avoid long lines. After deciding upon arrival that his restaurant was unsatisfactory, we trekked 6 more blocks to Union Station (which wasn't even on direct map of our Urbana handbook...) and by the time lines were done and the food was on the table, seminar #1 @ 2PM had already started :( However, us freshmen enjoyed the food and the time together and the walk back in the nippy air as we journeyed back to nap for an hour. Upon waking, we found that in order to actually get a seat at a seminar, we had to arrive EARLY. We spent a somewhat disappointing, yet fulfilling in a different way, hour and a half in quiet time together on the couches instead.
We explored Global Connexions and waited an hour to get dinner (quite difficult with so many people) and finally settled for evening session.
Sidenote: I walked out of my hotel room to get some ice and stuff and lo and behold! Janise Chan sitting on the floor. Which was both awkward and pleasantly surprising :). She had forgotten her key and out of all the hotels, and all the floors, and all the rooms, she as staying at the one across the hall from me!
At the end of the day, we had family time, yet I felt a bit dissatisfied. Maybe I came in expecting too much, like maybe God was just going to turn my life around the second I stepped foot in Lambert Airport.
I was feeling disappointed in myself for nodding off in Bible study and missing two sessions (easily the most influential aspects of Urbana) and not getting the most out of the conference. I was beginning to question why God had urged me to come, why I had spent so much money and effort and time to travel to the middle of America, to gain nothing (yet). In general, the only life changing decision I had made so far was to never, ever, move out of sunny California.
But a text from Won encouraged me to be patient:
"It's okay! I'm sure God knows what He's doing."
yet I fell asleep with a heavy heart.

Day three:
Will be continued! Tired of writing now...

Update :)

2010-01-01T21:18:00.001-08:00

Home from Urbana 09 :D But I will write about that later :D

CHECKPOINT:
TO DO List over Winter Break:
1. Finalize Spring Semester schedule (Add a two-unit)
2. Figure out housing for sophomore year
3. Figure out summer plans
4. Find a job near/on campus
5. Shop! :)
6. Christmas in the Park/Ice Skating with the boyfriend :) birthday?
7. Farmer's Market
8. San Francisco :D check!
9. Find a new phone :) check!
10. Visit the ol' alma mater
11. Alumni Holiday Partay!
12. Emerald Bowl, USC v. BC!! check!
13. Have an amazing, life-changing experience at Urbana '09 :) check!
14. Not get sick. Particularly after Urbana '09
15. See the guys :)
16. See the girls :)
17. Purikura check!
18. Bake lots of tasty things
19. Eat at: Johnny Rockets check! , Blue Rock Shoot check!, In n' Out, and Noah's Bagels check! with Minty ;)
20. Eat a fancy dinner at Santana Row
21. See snow check!
22. Go to a museum
23. Monterey Bay Aquarium!
24. Froyo!check!
25. Annual lunch at Fontana's with the madre :) check!

Happy Birthday Jesus :)

2009-12-25T22:56:00.000-08:00

Hooray! Merry Christmas everybody :)

These past three days have been relatively uneventful although I did get to cross four more things off my to-do list :D
I don't really remember what I did on the 23rd. Oh yes, I had my traditional lunch with my mother at Fontana's :) They have super excellent bread pudding, the first and only times I've had it is at our annual lunch (which came into existence in my 8th grade). SO GO EAT IT SO GOOD HOM NOM NOM. Afterwards, I just kinda chilled. Megan and I went to Vallco and took some Asian pictures :) Which crosses off two things in one day! Although my ultimate goal is to take purikura with Won bcus he has some sort of aversion to the place. Anyhooo, I had dinner with 4hoc :) and spent a good 3 hours catching up on each other's lives and naming all the countries in the world :D I missed home church :(

Then Ben was like oh hay we're at yogurtland so come pick up your EMERALD BOWL TICKETS and Won was like let's go to yogurtland and I was like OH CONVENIENT. So I met up with TCF :) and hung out a bit and then hung out with Won. We didn't actually get froyo bcus it's soooo cold!

Deniz and I spent the morning of Christmas Eve buying random things at Target for Simran's birthday :) We also had Chicken Pesto sandwiches at Blue Rock Shoot (ALSO A HIGH RECOMMENDATION :)) ahh so delicious! We ate them at the tables outside the little cafe. Another off my list :) Anyway, then we met her for fro yo at yogurtland and that was quite excellent :)
Christmas dinner with fam.

Christmas: did the normal Christmas thing and then set out for San Francisco (another crossed off!) :) revisited old memories at Golden Gate Park where I used to frolic as a young child, new to the wonders of America! Anyway, that was fun/cold. Then we went to the beach to watch the sunset and had dinner at this crazy Chinese restaurant that took forever to bring food bcus it was SO PACKED.
The Jewish tradition of going to Chinese restaurants on Christmas rings true! :)
Anyway, food was good. Then we went to Union square and looked at the lights and now I am at home and supposedly packing for Urbana. TOO COLD :((

Tomorrow: GAME DAY :D FIGHT ONNN

'Tis Christmas Eve

2009-12-24T01:16:00.000-08:00

First, happy birthday Simran!! :))

Second, it is Christmas tomorrow :D
Happy birthday Jesus!
And Mai and Noel! :D and everyone else. Alrighttt

CHECKPOINT:
TO DO List over Winter Break:
1. Finalize Spring Semester schedule (Add a two-unit)
2. Figure out housing for sophomore year
3. Figure out summer plans
4. Find a job near/on campus
5. Shop! :)
6. Christmas in the Park/Ice Skating with the boyfriend :) birthday?
7. Farmer's Market
8. San Francisco :D
9. Find a new phone :) check!
10. Visit the ol' alma mater
11. Alumni Holiday Partay!
12. Emerald Bowl, USC v. BC!!
13. Have an amazing, life-changing experience at Urbana '09 :)
14. Not get sick. Particularly after Urbana '09
15. See the guys :)
16. See the girls :)
17. Purikura Check!
18. Bake lots of tasty things
19. Eat at: Johnny Rockets Check! , Blue Rock Shoot, In n' Out, and Noah's Bagels Check! with Minty ;)
20. Eat a fancy dinner at Santana Row
21. See snow
22. Go to a museum
23. Monterey Bay Aquarium!
24. Froyo! Check!
25. Annual lunch at Fontana's with the madre :) Check!

Not too shabby :) Update tomorrow!
P.S. SC KIDS! Grades are out!!! o_o

Cold Feet

2009-12-20T13:08:00.000-08:00

I CAN'T SLEEP THESE DAYS
Actually, last night it was because my feet were cold.

Yesterday, I hung out with Deniz and we ate a lot :) I missed her so much!! :)
We ate at Johnny Rockets and then Yogurtland and ran around Westgate just like the good ol' days. Sigh I miss senior year :(

I just read a fellow '09er's post on facebook about how fun senior trip was and how he thought about it every week or two. I do too T_T
Sigh, I miss you harker '09! For real.

THERE IS NOT ENOUGH TIME TO SEE ALL OF MY FABORITE PEOPLE :((

Cellphone phase

2009-12-19T01:02:00.000-08:00

What I've been doing these past couple days...
1. Tuesday night, hung out with my kitty ket ;) <3
2. Wednesday, hung out with the best frand :) went to CLAIRE'S HAHA FAIL and thenn Daiso :) and crap, In n' Out, Tap-ex. We're so badass :) and fat :(
3. Thusday night, saw a bad movie with Alex and Paul. And went to get Megan's ears pierced at the mall :))

Sigh I feel like I'm pressed for time, for some reason :(

CELL PHONE PHASE AUGHH AGAIN.
If I was rich, I'd donate to charity and also buy tons and tons of cellphones :(( Those are the only electronics I go <3 over, I'm not sure why. And I'm a total sucker for ads and mass appeal, if I see it enough, I end up wanting it T_T That's why I hate dramas that totally endorse a certain phone and every stinkin' actor has the same phone -______-.
Anyway, I've been looking around for a phone since my precious LG Ice Cream failed me :( and I've been using my trusty ol' Sony Ericsson that I've had for 2.5 years now.
First I was like le sigh, daddy will just get me a new Ice Cream when he comes home but alas he did not. So now I have to find an American phone for convenience sake so we went to the AT&T store and perused the selection and at that point, I was between the Blackberry pearl, the Samsung Solstice, and the LG Xenon because they were so cheap!! Actually, I really wanted the Samsung Impression but PRICY even after rebate and it's flipping huge and it freezes. Paranoid about that now. Then we read the fine print and we were like WTF AT&T bcus they were totally ripping us off. Those deals and crap are total BS :(( So we were like screw the upgrade! We're buying off the internet! Which is totally the way to go. And it's basically just me bcus my mom would keep using the same Motorola Razr she's had since I've been in middle school if we let her -_____-.

Anyway, so if I can't have the SE Docomo or Softbank Japanese phones I want, I would go for the Blackberry Bold (if I were a wealthy girl) but now that best frand has informed me that Blackberries give off intense radiation, and the fact that they're huge AND total sorority phones, I've decided not to. My dream phone is actually the Nokia N97 if not the Docomo n706i but it's like 600 flipping dollars. Well, 500 at Costco but anyway yah, not spending over 200 -__-
I wouldn't mind the LG Lollipop either but that's almost exclusively in Korea and now many reliable sites are selling unlocked international ones so mehh. It's probably also pricy for a mediocre and simple phone. Therefore, I'm currently looking at the LG Viewty and the LG Cookie (Korean version is of course, cuter) and leaning towards the Cookie just bcus it's cuter, cheaper, and I don't need a high end camera. And the stylus isn't dangling around. Still, I wish I could have a physical QWERTY keypad :(

So I'm not sure why I posted my whole thought process about choosing phones but I am so fickle about this stuff :( And the dumbest things matter to me like case selection and if it has a charm hole -_- lawl. Good thing most Asian phones do :)
Anyway, once I get it, I will inform my dear readers :)
Tehe, and then I'll bling it out with crap from strapya-world.com
Just kidding, I'm not rich with money or time :((

So yes, hope I get a new phone soon :)

AGAGDSOF time for sreepinggg. I go to sleep late for having nothing to do and then I wake up at like, noon. -_-

It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas!

2009-12-16T17:21:00.000-08:00

Although living in California is like perpetual summer weather, Norcal is much more holiday appropriate than 70-degree-sunny all the time-LA. Today, it was 72. O_O A week till Christmas, too.
Anyway, yesterday (I can't believe it was only yesterday..) I woke up SUPER EARLY for my 8AM final (MY CLASS ISN'T EVEN AT 8AM T_T) and did pretty well. Then I sat around, ate with Breana and Julia, packed and took my stuff to Cauchy's, talked with Won on the phone, hungout, "studied," and failed my Jour final :D
BUT WHO CARES! I made my flight and now I'm home :)

TO DO List over Winter Break:
1. Finalize Spring Semester schedule (Add a two-unit)
2. Figure out housing for sophomore year
3. Figure out summer plans
4. Find a job near/on campus
5. Shop! :)
6. Christmas in the Park/Ice Skating with the boyfriend :) birthday?
7. Farmer's Market
8. San Francisco :D
9. Find a new phone :)
10. Visit the ol' alma mater
11. Alumni Holiday Partay!
12. Emerald Bowl, USC v. BC!!
13. Have an amazing, life-changing experience at Urbana '09 :)
14. Not get sick. Particularly after Urbana '09
15. See the guys :)
16. See the girls :)
17. Purikura
18. Bake lots of tasty things
19. Eat at: Johnny Rockets, Blue Rock Shoot, In n' Out, and Noah's Bagels with Minty ;)
20. Eat a fancy dinner at Santana Row
21. See snow
22. Go to a museum
23. Monterey Bay Aquarium!
24. Froyo!
25. That is all for now :)

"Slow! There are football players!"

2009-12-13T20:49:00.000-08:00

Barrett Glasauer
sigh
Barrett Glasauer
i dont know you
Barrett Glasauer
i hope no one reads this conversation
Barrett Glasauer
ever

Barrett Glasauer
dawg
Barrett Glasauer
you're such a man

ALMOST. DONE.
1. Two more finals :( Sed face D: I have no motivation to study and I'm so sleepy all the time!
2. I had the best ramen in LA today.
3. I want a double piercing???
4. UR.BANA. JFAOIDFO!!! 300 dollaz today :D
5. SREEP PRZ
6. I WANT TO BE CONTENT, I've been so restless I can't remember if I slept last night.
7. I want a new phone

I dunno. Time to study.

Guilty Pleasure:

2009-12-10T12:29:00.000-08:00

Jesse McCartney's music.

GO EAGLES!

2009-12-08T13:50:00.000-08:00

Harker is adorable :)

Finals studying is sooo mehhh
Yesterday, I accomplished far less than I expected and it was suuuper rainy, cold, and gloomy :( not okay. Today is just super cold D:
Discipleship was an immense blessing.

I. HATE. STUDYING.

Battleship

2009-12-07T15:17:00.001-08:00

Hello readers!
I think I'll write about the game first :)
Look at my pf picture! It's with T MAYS, #2 on the USC TROJANS!!
I woke up super early to have breakfast with Benn and then we went to wake up Cauchy and meet up with TCF for the game!
The game itself was meh, the weather was bad and our team was playing really bad. We were so looking forward to that 21st point in which we would raise Ben in triumph at his final game at SC but that never happened! It was much more than a loss, it was a personal disappointment :( moreso for him than me. So I think it's fate that the Emerald Bowl (which we are in, sadly) is being played in San Francisco! Which means we have one last chance to win and push Ben up! And he can have a happy last game :) the day before we lift off for St. Louis :D

Afterward, I just got ready for Frosh Con.

FROSH CON:
I went in not knowing what to expect. All that I knew was that it was supposed to help all the freshmen grow closer together etc etc. and I was like no problem! We're all so close already! But I met a lot of new people and grew a little closer to those I already knew.

That night, we listened to two speakers and then discussed in small groups. Afterward, we headed to the gym to play some INTENSE SPORTS for like, three hours. It was insane, four sports going on at once or something! Hockey...Football...Tennis, Volleyball, Wall Ball, jump rope hahah all in one gym! We played blindfolded capture the flag and that Ships, Sailors game and I am VERY SORE. Then we went back and played more games, ate, and discussed skin care products. Sleep happened around 230AM

The next morning, we got up and checked out a new teen center World Impact LA is to finish soon in a little under a month and then set out on our task of sorting out clothes for Sonshine Thrift Store which was really fun! We spent three hours sorting through donations and such and sorting out the bad and the good products. We also played a lot of dress up :D

That night, we had two more sessions and a lot of time for reflection as well as small group and prayer. Small group was such a blessing, I feel five times closer to these people just bcus we were able to honestly share our troubles and our burdens.

We spent over 24 hours about 2 miles away in a school in south central LA and although it was only a busride away, sc LA feels miles and miles away from the lives we lead at SC. This weekend has been an incredible blessing in 50 million ways and I'm so so so grateful for God and His grace and TCF :)

I feel so grateful for SC and TCF and ahh crazy, I'm so in love with life right now.
I sense the start of something new :)

At the moment, I am so sore I could write a poem about it. In fact, I did while climbing the stairs this morning:
I am so sore
From laying on that floor
And flopping like a whale
I can barely open this door
Much less hold onto this stair rail
I can't take it no mo!
Yes. That intense game+sleeping on the floor+the fact that those chairs had no darn cushions! Makes Steff-o a very sore person. Also, my throat is aching bcus Breana insisted on hugging me everyday for my nugetty-ness and holding me close to her diseased self. Plus, that last quarter of the game, I hadn't screamed that much in a while. So my voice is pretty shot.

BUT NOWW! Time to study for finals :(
This morning, I got this email:

Hey Class,
Earlier in the semester while I was in Mexico building houses for the needy, I was bit by a wild boar and acquired rabies and swine flu
etc.etc.

While this could possibly be true. The situation is still somewhat humorous.
I swear, as the semester goes on, they get more and more creative. I liked this one too:

hey guys,

I've been sick with polio as well as the plague.

Final review notes would be awesome.

Thanks

PAPER WRITING TIME: ACTIVATE
Then discipleship :)
FIGHT ON college kids! We can do it :))

Goodbye and good luck readers!

Fight On For Ol' SC

2009-12-05T16:47:00.000-08:00

Jack Wang win or lose, trojan for life! fight on all the way!

That's the trojan spirit :) We'll get 'em next year!
Our mascot is a horse but our athletes and students are nickname Trojans for our fighting spirit :)
Can't wait for Game Day next year!
Update Sunday on the game,
but nowww...
FROSH CON '09

What exactly does P. Diddy feel like when he wakes up in the morning?"

2009-12-04T22:42:00.000-08:00

So I was wondering this today whilst I sang this song with Mai and it turns out I'm not the only one!
Here is Yahoo! answers:

:((

2009-12-04T15:31:00.001-08:00

Daniel Tien i miss celebrating the start of a weekend with brian and sean after 4th period douglas. big chest bump and "it's the weekend, baby!"

I miss it.

Baby

2009-12-04T11:29:00.000-08:00

MM so what has been happening? Well I felt kinda sick the past two days while suffering through two papers but now I'm homefree except one more final paper which I haven't started and three finals! WOO! :)
Also, Ben took me to fball practice on Thursday and I got to take a picture with Damien Williams and Taylor Mays :)
Taylor called me a baby :( SAD.

Mmm we closed the blinds today for the first time since move-in day and now it feels like a cave!

I suppose I'm just not a very insightful person anymore because I never write about anything interesting and no one really even reads this anymore :(

But here is a quote from the inside of my honestea yesterday :D:
"When I do good, I feel good. When I do bad, I feel bad. That is my religion."-Abraham Lincoln.

and to that, Won says "BAD GRAMMAR!"

Good day for now! WASHING FACE TIME I love no class on Fridays <3

Come on Let's Fall in Love

2009-12-02T11:05:00.000-08:00

Coming back to USC is always mehhh :(
I almost missed my flight sighh ran to my gate barefoot and barely made it to discover that Mai missed the plane. I knew it.
I'm always reluctant to leave the Bay Area but there's something about seeing our beautiful globe tower that extends from the Von KleinSmid Center in the distance from the highway that makes my heart swell with joy :) I love that globe! I can see it in the surrounding area (ghettooo) at night and I'll always be able to find my way back to campus. I love The Bay I love USC! :)
These past couple days have been uneventful, just suffering in my room, working on papers. Four papers in the coming week.five!! :(
Today Ben and I went to the bookstore sale and I am heipi :)

I think I'm a selfish and bad person. And I have never been this afraid to lose someone I love.

愛我別走

On another note:
I had my last class with Matt Barkley today.
Tehe I'm creepy :(
BE MY FRIEND!!
Football practice on Thursday, whose down?

Hello Bay Area!

2009-11-26T14:35:00.000-08:00

It is Thanksgiving afternoon and I'm thankful for...
1. God, for His grace and salvation and for always giving me a second chance.
2. SOSr, for always being there in keeping in touch :) even if we're still only in the same state heh
3. The guys, just for being the guys :) I know I can always count on them for anything!
4. Won Hee :) for reasons that number to infinity. I don't know where I'd be without him :)
5. Mai mai, for being an excellent roommate and staying up late with me and being hungry and eating and being messy and stanky and being loud. And my other suitemates, for putting up with us and for being my friends :)
6. HOC4, my church family :) for everything. For the community, for Jesus, for lunches and fellowship, and for USC UCLA fights. :)
6.5 InterVarsity (my second church family :)), for helping me grow in my relationship with Him and for being the only reason i have friends in college.
....
7. Harker, for making the start of 2009 one of the best months of my life. And still offering a loving community I can go back to whenever I want.
8. HOME. Is where the heart is.
9. USC, for making the second half of 2009 a good end to the best year of my life. For the football games, the classes, the beautiful people ;), the crazy parties, the on-campus events, for being in Southcentral and being in LA (and it's amazing weather), for being better than UCLA, for school spirit and love of the students. I'm thankful for good decisions, like Parkside, and I'm thankful for EVAN OUR excellent RA :)) I LOVE USC.
10. I'm thankful for life and FEELING alive, my life is good.

To end this post, here is a vague schedule of my next few days. Call me and let's hang out :)!
Thursday: Thanksgiving dinner, work on paper, EAT A LOT, stay up late.
Friday: BLACKFRIDAY SHOPPING. Homework? Get glasses :( (I'm blind now, did I tell you?), HOC4 Thanksgiving dinner! Hooray!
Saturday: Frolicking with friends maybe, sister's ballet performance in the afternoon, THE BIG GAME V. UCLA AW YAHHH
Sunday: Church :) Homework? :(
Monday: USC. Comm class with MATT BARKLEY heheh: P

MY EATING HABITS

2009-11-20T23:30:00.001-08:00

of the past two days:

Thursday, I ATE BREAKFAST FOR ONCE!! And a lot of it O_O but then I had class all the way until 2 (but had a venti hot tea sometime then) and only had a handful of blueberries, kettlecorn, and a bunch of random samples from the Fresh Market. Then Mai came home and we went to Carl's Jr. (EWW) and ate 4 pieces of chicken and some chili cheese fries (DEF NOT AS GOOD AS JR). This was at 4PM. We ate at 645PM again at Parkside and had some delicious bowls of Lucky Charms and Coco Puffs and milk (I had soy). Then FRAY CONCERT! Then I came back and ate all my blue berries.

Friday, I got up at 10PM and showered and had no breakfast before we went to make sandwiches for the homeless and AUGHH BEING AROUND ALL THAT FOOD WHILST HAVING NONE IN MY STOMACH (besides a Kitkat bar) was kinda painful. And then we were gonna go to the In n' Out truck but we went to Ktown instead and ate for the first time like at 230 -_- AT A TOFU HOUSE YOMMM
Then I ate until I had a food baby of SEVERAL MONTHS and waddled around the super market in search of goodies. I bought chocopies yommm. And a cool new tea container thing for 3 dollars!! And then we came home and didn't really at dinner before we went to BREAKTHROUGH yee hip hop show :) We made a trogro run and ate some turkey sandwiches and now I'm eating a latka. AND GREEN TEA! Yayyy

COMM PAPER WRITING MODE, ACTIVATE.

hay boy hay

2009-11-19T14:30:00.000-08:00

mmm since last time!

the hc dance was fun :) freeezing though D:
won picked me up (FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER SO IT FELT LIKE A REAL DATE HEHE BCUS HE'S FINALLY LEGAL) and we went to SR to have dinner :)
mm then we had to go to harker early because he had to sell tickets and it was colddd
there were lots of people there early, even upper classmen O_O hahaha
anyway mm yah. hung out with won afterward and went homee

sunday was good :) went to church, then chipotle and argued about ucla v. usc :) heh.
sat around, yogurtland date with bf <3

the end.

tuesday, we went to the home opener of TROJANS BASKETBALL and we won!
we are really mean sports fans but i suppose it's part of the game? mehh
SOCAL WEATHER IS <3 jfaodisfkjg

yesterday, mai and i made cards for the elderly. check ittt on fb! :)

right now, i'm eating blueberries and kettle corn from USC's fresh market :) and feeling content.
fray concert tonight! but before that
comm paper, interview winston, shower, nap?
today was a good day :)
i paid attention in class so mm yah. satisfying.

aoisdjasoid comm paper!! :(

Now that I'm a Trojan...

2009-11-14T12:06:00.001-08:00

I feel the need to buy gladiator sandals.
Which I will. Mayhaps on black friday because people don't normally have large feet as I do so I can take my sweet time getting to stores :)

Anyway, "I came home" for homecoming and it was fun :) I can't say I like the Homecoming theme but meh, the campus was festive anyhow :P
The game was excellent and hanging out afterward was excellent, especially when our 2009 student council "borrowed" the spirit trophy from the 2010 student council ;) I miss high school...
The rally seemed not as high-spirited, maybe because the seniors weren't that loud. The freshmen and sophomores have proven quite impressive though :P

Why is NorCal so freaking cold DD:
So. Numb.

Tonight...well, I gotta watch the USC game first and then after we win, maybe I can run to a store to last minute look for dresses...and then dinner with boyfriend :))
and then the dance yaaay I'm excited :D

Haven't been to a dance party in while that didn't involve alcohol O_O so this should be fun :)

Anyway, it's so good to be home <3
Too much to do in so little time :(

FIGHT ON USC <3

Oh, Happiness

2009-11-09T20:06:00.001-08:00

I FORGOT TO MENTION that my cute, thoughtful, sweet boyfriend sent me flowers on our 9 month and asked me to homecoming :) teheeheheeee they're so pretty!
and thanks to maimai, my crazy roommate who helped him. esp when they're not fond of each other ;) :P

anyway. friday i went to bed shoooper late D: and had to get up two hours earlier than normal for sunday school (missional based) in preparation for URBANA 09 :) soo excited! that was cool and all. servce was a bit repetitive so ...yah. sleepy. then we went to BCD thank goodness, been craving soon dooboo FOREVER :D ate like a fatteh :) and came home to study for COMM D:

todaaay was mehh, comm was kinda :| the MC was harder and more detailed than i anticipated but the essay portion was :D soo i dunno! dang, this is supposedly the hardest comm class out of my major and it has been my misfortune to pick it as my first class :/ parents will not be plzed D:
mmm afterward, mai and i went to eat and that was delicious, we also talked about interesting stuff so :)
then ben, richard, and i had our first discipleship meeting which was really good! i felt somewhat small and unprepared in my faith though...something i've been semi-struggling with recently. praying for spiritual maturity! mmm and for this crazy sickness to leave mah body!
richard gave me the rest of his red bull and i never drink red bull and i'm very awake right now which is good! considering how little sleep i've been getting so hopefully i'll be able to finish revising my paper and get a headstart on a few articles :P
speaking of which, i told a newsletter type publication that i was interested in working with them in maybe design or photography and they just slapped me in the face with two articles due very, very soon (and i'm going home!!) oh dear Lord i've never written anything like this O_O lawl
emailed brian chao in a frenzy HAHA my newspaper frands come help meh!!
oh well, time to try new things...

my planner is crazy colored right now since i highlight each event/due date according to it's purpose (yellow=church/IV/God related, green=class related, blue=school events, purple=school partays!, pink=outside events) so mm busy busy until thanksgiving!

LISTENING TO DAVID CROWDER BAND :)
time to work on my 红楼梦 essay and it's views on female education :(( (i hate rewriting papers when the teacher hates your rough draft!! sigh)

1, 2, 3

2009-11-07T12:22:00.000-08:00

:)
:(
:|

life is sooo meeehhh right now T_T
i mean,
1. i feel like my grades are mediocre right now
2. i'm not involved at USC and that depresses me
3. i'm STILL SICK
4. ___________
5. ben wants to disciple me but i feel so spiritually weak right now and unprepared that i'm scared i'll just be useless -_-
6. i lost my mailbox key, that's like a 40 dollar fine
7. our bathroom lock is STILL BROKEN wtf T_T
8. my phone is broken

but i'm still happy.
or well, i feel happy most of the time but i have this cloud of hopelessness over my head and it's :( !!
mostly bcus of 1, 2, and 4.
and 8. my poor ice cream :((

anyway i g2g so i'll write latarrr

I bought a huge salad today

2009-11-04T11:26:00.000-08:00

because it seemed like a good idea, mainly bcus it has chicken in it.
Now I feel like a rabbit and I hate this stupid salad.

Deniz and I have a food baby whose name is Sydney and she loves chili cheese fries from Johnny Rockets and Froyo and peso chicken sandwiches from Blue Rock Shoot and definitely bacon.
Today, I bought Cinnamon Toast Crunch and Lucky Charms and thought of New York 07. I will eat them tomorrow and pretend Deniz is hurr with me.
:(

Sunny with a high of 83

2009-11-03T17:30:00.000-08:00

NOVEMBER IN LA IS <3
most of the time.
there is a large pile of clothes on my bed.
:(
class. almost. done. jaoisdjiof

EDIT:
i miss home.
i miss eating noah's bagels in the morning, driving my car, harker, yearbook, spirit events, homecoming, painting my nails at sephora, 4hoc, saratoga, the class of 09, best friends, late night food runs, just driving around in the wee hours of the mornings, the guys
random things like buying apples or tortillas in the mexican aisle
froyo every 5 blocks
in n out
sssigh.
i was thinking the other day about how winny worked at yogurtland and then i thought about how easy it was to just hop in a car and go wherever we wanted and see whoever we wanted or just sit there in the sunshine and talk. i don't really do that anymore. :(

then the world will never know
the greatest story ever told
did i tell you that i love you?
just how much i really need you?
tonight

QOD

2009-11-03T14:09:00.000-08:00

"To achieve great things, two things are needed; a plan, and not quite enough time" Leonard Bernstein.
That was the quote on the inside of my Mango Green Honestea :)

Thursday:
Intervarsity had our first annual Great People Hunt at the Grove in LA :) Basically, each person/team had an hour to find 5 heavily disguised people in the Grove and tell them "I think I've seen you before, can I have your autograph?"
The winner would received a bucket full of candy in Halloween spirit and get their photo posted on the website.
WHO WON? WE DID AWWW YAHH it was super fun :) teehehehe

Friday:
Woke up early and had breakfast which was quite delicious. I'm not really sure what else I did..probably homework. Then we had Intervarsity curry night which was DEFINITELY very delicious with tonkatsu and gyoza and REAL rice :)
Then me and the girlies hit up the row. Honestly, I was just super tired but I had a good time anyway. And it was really cold. And the tram sucked. And almost ran over a few drunk people. And then we stayed up until like, sunrise almost, talking about stuff.

Saturday:
And we woke up on Saturday feeling like crud at 1130 after going to sleep at 4AM O_O haha. BUT THEN WE HAD DIMSUM which was excellent, with zhongwen club and that was tasty :) I was really feeling sick though so :(
Then we watched the game which was just...no comment.
After that, I REALLY wasn't in the mood to go out or anything so I just stayed at home trying to write my paper and talking to the boyfriend :) <3

Sunday:
Woke up with great difficulty EVEN AFTER DAYLIGHT SAVINGS!! and went to church, which was good, of course. Ran into Daniel Wang from home! Which was cool...THEN WE WENT TO GUPPIES one of the most amazing places on earth. And ate so much shaved ice that we were all shivering by the time the bowl was done. We napped in the car and then went home :D to get ready for MAXT OUT yessss
So Solanda and I got rides to see C3 with Casa and we definitely should have gotten there like 2 hours later -_- and I definitely need my own car. But we watched a lot of really good dance performances-the minors were really good! I started falling asleep though, at one point, because we were there from like 6-10! C3 was bangiiin' :) and was one point short of third place so basically, we're awesome! Disappointing USC fanbase though :/ we need more C3 lovin!
Went to JJ Cafe after that for some really good Cantonese food and finally got home around 1230, 3 hours after I predicted.
Then I stayed up until 3AM talking to Mai and Won :)

That is all. I really need to work on updating this more often.

apparently i sleep talk.

2009-10-30T17:00:00.001-07:00

*GRUNT* "pesos...poking stuff....feels weird"
-sometime today in the AM

too lazy to be excited about halloweekend.
too. much. hw.
comm test postponed. i love the world.
except i feel sick. sad.

to the moon and back

2009-10-28T13:07:00.000-07:00

EDIT:
WHY DO ALL THE FRESHMINSTRELS WANT MY CUTE BOYFRIEND HAHA D: ???
/EDIT.

SATURDAY-football game :) but first, mai and i wanted to go to the alley but the bus never CAME FJAOSDJIOAS and so we walked through shady alleys to another bus stop to go to ktown bcus we were so FLIPPING HUNGRY and then walked around for like 928493 hour s looking for a tofuhouse but everything was BBQ faoisjdiosa!! but we finally found one! yes :)
SO after that, football game :) aw yah we won! :) good game!
dinner at parkside and thennn talked to won :)

SUNDAY-MMM cafe spot after church SO GOOD and hung out with parents hahah church was dandy too :)

http://www.axioo.com/
they're photographing my wedding.
PLEASE WATCH ME AND BE JEALOUS

IT'S BEEN SO LONG

2009-10-24T00:06:00.001-07:00

EDIT:
LIVE LIFE LOUD
i bought hawk nelson glasses @ the concert... ;)

what are they good for? absolutely nothing. except looking FAAAHBULOUS :B THEY FLIP UP HGOIDJIFO!
helena just called me a dork :( CRY CRY.
it is 1:23 AM and i am eating a muffin. mai is showering. hw time?
/EDIT

D: there's no way i can catch up but basicallyyy in the past two weeks...
1. USC FBALL (LAST SATURDAY AND TOMORROWW!!) aw yahh <3 last weekend was DUMB and jimmy clausen is a little girl but the trojans rise victorious once more :)
2. HAWK NELSON CONCERT (TONIGHT) WOOO so good, soooo gooood :) i got sick sunglasses too, they flip up and stuff.
3. I GOT A FREE SHIRT TODAY. excellent day. and i went to an extra credit event which was an interview with the author of the screenplay of Juno. siiick :) i love annenberg!
4. OVERFLOW GIG TRAINING (THIS THURSDAY), nuff said.
5. JAESON MA (THIS TUESDAY) IS AMAZING, he came to speak at our school on tuesday so we went instead of having bible study and it was SO INSPIRING, he basically does everything i want to do and he's combined entertainment+asian culture+asian media+christianity and is a crazy mega inspiration, i wanna intern for him SO BAD. and then 21 choices after and some rounds of ninja :)
6. GIRLS NIGHT (LAST FRIDAY AND SATURDAY) and i watched a walk to remember for the FIRST TIME which is kinda of blasphemous and makes me a man but meh! and then we watched ps i love you and basically, it was a room full of crying girls and a used up tissue box. then we watched 27 dresses :) and slept at 3. we got up, had delicious breakfast, and talked about life. i love tcf girls :)
7. omgoodness prayer couch (LAST MONDAY, WEDNESDAY, AND THURSDAY?)
i can't even begin to describe the prayer and courage that went into making it happen but so many good things came out of it.

God has been so good to me these past two weeks :)

"For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them."
Matthew 18:20

BACK IN THE BAYYY

2009-10-10T11:03:00.001-07:00

I LOVE HOME.

i had a sufferous three days of writing for my midterm paper (asian american lit) but i finally submitted it yesterday afternoon so i feel so burden free :)
i came home two nights ago and visited harker on friday. not much has changed i guess
and i saw a lot of people i looove :) teeheee
food is better now.
the end.

todayyy hopefully i'll get to eat with megan and jeff?? hahahah who called me last night specifically to inform me that he is now fb friends with stephen wolfram -___-
football game tonight? mayhaps

sunday, CHURCH :D and family picnic?

it's a new daaay

2009-10-06T17:11:00.000-07:00

it's been such a long time!
but yah since last time...
friday, we went to little tokyo and ate ourselves silly and browsed the selection and just had a ton of fun :) and thenn that night, we went to ktown and ate MORE, buffet bbq for 20 dollars with our parkside friends :) i love parkside!
simi came that night! and we stayed up really late talking
saturday, FOOTBALL GAMEEE, me and sim walked around the tailgates and hung out with some harker kids. then we went back home and did our ritual suite nail painting session before heading out to the game three hours early.
ROW 7 YEEEE :) we almost got on tv too andd yah. so basically, we won and it was excellent :) i got pushed up!! that was super exciting. afterward, we went to the smallest in n out i've ever seen and it was super delicious. and then i almost died in katelyn's car. the end!
sunday, CHURCH and thenn eating dericious vietnamese sandwichs on the grassy knoll :) then hung out with sim until she had to go home.

monday was my first college exam and i'm feeling pretty confident about it. i stayed up really late studying and christine saved my life bcus she took it last year and emailed me her old study guides so <3 :)
tuesday mmm nothing too interesting except bible study! :)
blahblah studying and then

FRIDAYYY :) left for fall con <3
we all met at the top of the parking structure which was a painful trek with all my clothes and moocow and we headed to trogro to get some food. then we GOT LOST on the way to the terminal and everyone was waiting for us HAHA FAIL
the boat ride was SOOO FUN so unlike the ride to catalina island in 8th grade eww :( but the wind was whipping and the moon was out and the ocean was calm and the STARS WERE VISIBLE it was gorgeous :)
when we got there, there were no lights in our cabins which was kind of inconvenient but the bathrooms were much nicer and there were pretty PALM TREES at campus by the sea.
we had session 1 and small group as well as snacks and then a MAD DANCE PARTY YEE it was so fun :) meeting other people from other schools and dancing the night away :) ahh it was so fun.
it ended around 1AM and we trekked back to our cabin to wash up and i saw a catalina fox! on the way out of the bathroom. then we dragged our sleeping bags out to the beachfront and our sleeping bags and blankets and pillows and fell asleep on the beach.

waking up on the beach is the most refreshing and beautiful thing in the world! :) sigh but i had to get up too early bcus i had to shower before the morning bell and everyone else got up. then we had breakfast which was delicious. why was the food so delicious?? then we had worship and session 2 (which entailed some snuggies...) as well as small group and alone/reflection time which was the perfect thing.
afterward, we had lunch and our small group and ben's was OTS so we sped through washing the dishes and joined the rest of the camp for THE GREAT RACE '09
which entailed (probably out of order...)
1. swimming from the big rock to the shore
2. spitting on an altsaseltzer tablet wrapped to someone else's forehead
3. sudoku with music blasting and people from other teams distracting you
4. running from the bridge to the cross on the cliff (REALLY FAR!!) while having water and flour flung on you
5. "helping grandma cross the street" four legged blindfolded race
6. "my girlfriend's purse" where you had to look through a whole bag for a random item
7. handfeeding blindfolded helena baby food
8. singing a sad song in a boat for a certain amount of time
9. kayaking half blindfolded to the dock and around and back
10. getting in a pyramid with two people on top and singing a song
all with a baton which was a raw egg.
AND GUESS WHO WON
YEEEHHH the wild buffalo won :) not only did we win a stainless steel campus by the sea waterbottle of 12 dollar value, we have also won bragging rights for a whole year!!

afterward we got like three hours of freetime so i and a couple people went on a "thirtyminute" hike up SCAR. it's called scar for a reason. i was practically climbing on my hands and feet -____- around prickly pears. but it was SUPER fun and SUPER exhausting and SUPER HOT AND SWEATY AND VERYYY rewarding. the view was beautiful :) God is good!
afterrr helena and i went kayaking and then went swimming with valerie in the ocean with inner tubes :)

SHOWER! and then dinner and listening to the game v. cal on the radio :D we even did pushups in the cafeteria -_- they think USC kids are crazyyy we have too much spirit hahahaha
everyone was reppin usc that weekend hahaha
then session 3 and small group, we saw a bat!!! but yah, very nice small group session. then we had snacks and everyone played a large game of mafia of about 50 people but solanda and i didn't want to so we had some girl time and talked a lot :) and ate a lot and drank a lot of tea. then we went for a night hike to the cross and played ultimate ninja on a cliff in the dark over an amazing view. afterward, we hung out and told scary stories by the campfire until late and played ten fingers until around 2AM and finally decided to wash up and get ready for bed

another beautiful night on the beach :)
but forgot socks so it was kinda cold :(

got up early to pack and had a really good breakfast.
woke up to a gorgeous sunrise and a seal! :)
worship was <3 and small group time was awesome. we were to create an outreach event that would happen in the following week and be both creative and risky. we decided to set up a comfortable picnic area on the grassy knoll by EVK as a way of showing our love to kids who had midterms and just needed some time to relax and hang out and eat.
then we went back to take photos and hang out on the beach for the last time and board the boat
which was barf central :( and involved paramedics. praying for that girl from fullerton! anyway

exhausting weekend, i studied a bit and then slept like a log -_- did laundry and showered and YET ben and matt still visited after i fell asleep with campus by the sea cookies. DANG IT I MISSED IT :(

yah. so basically FALL CON was amazing :) and i miss it a lot! but i had a lot of work to catch up with so i had my first official midterm this morning which i thought went pretty well and i finished early. i also had a paper due the class before that but FIRST i woke up at 8 to shower and then go to this AMAZING american apparel sale across the street and scored two hoodies for less than 30 <3
yes. after that we commenced our outreach and i met a lot of cool people on that grassy knoll :)
and thenn jour190 class and finallly! i get to rest today. haven't been home since 8AM :( almost 10 hours D:
bible study tonight with pizookies :))

God is good all the time, i'm so thankful for TCF and the good times and friends i've made so far and i'm looking forward to what He has in store for USC :)

PUT ON SOME PANTS, SLOOOT

2009-09-22T23:56:00.001-07:00

yar today was loong :( tuesdays always are D:
but biblestudy was fun, we did a scavenger hunt and i think we won! the only one we didn't get was the one that wanted us to record a DPS officer singing the theme song to cops. apparently they're not allowed to :( anyway yah.
now i'm doing homework that is due on thursday so i'm feeling rather accomplished and productive.

SEE YOU AT THE POLE TOMORROW :) or rather, see you at tommy trojan :) i remember doing this for the first time in freshman year? or something? good times. our group diminished by the time senior year rolled around and only one junior was at that one, i believe. mayhaps she will continue on tomorrow :D
even teachers came :P i miss high school D:

kay. IM EXCITED FOR THE GAME, we're going like four freaking hours early, why is ben such a nut D: and it's at night so i won't burn :)

friday...possibly little tokyo and ktown korean bbq :D <3
and BREAKFAST from wolfgang puck i'm REALLY excited about that, it's only 4 dollars.

WHY IS IT THAT

2009-09-21T22:59:00.000-07:00

i never remember what i do anymore? my memory is going :(
quick update:
1. i'm getting fat
2. stanley doesn't love us anymo :( BUT HE JUST VISITED YESS
3. i can't log in to soompi my life is over
4. i'm not failing school yet
5. matt barkley sat in my row again today <3

kayso
wednesday i went to a dodger's game which was SUPER FUN and i got burnt again, SO EXCELLENT omg. and then we went to BCD which is an awesome ktofu place and THEN SCOOPS best ice cream in LA.
thursday, we went on a prayer walk
last friday ALBERT PRACTICALLY STOOD US UP so mai and i sat in rowlands apartment for almost three hours watching Tool Academy which is the greatest show ever with rowland and freddy. then we went to KTOWN and went to this kinda lame korean festival with super expensive food and all i got was a sirry big bang poster. which is right thar on my wall :) all around us, these korean people were yelling at us and we were scared bcus NONE OF US WERE KOREAN and this woman is like yelling at my face and she called me unnie and force fed me and now i am sad. BCUS SHE WAS LIKE THIRTY FREAKING YEARS OLD
I
LOOK
OLD
?!?!?!
and i was force fed by a stranger. so. scarred.
sigh.
then we went to the galleria which wasn't really that interesting. LITTLE TOKYO BETTER BE MO EXCITING, bcus i really need a cellphone charm.

saturday...WAS THE GAME sigh :( went to steve's house and ate two baconwrapped hotdogs YES FOR HEARTATTACKS IN A BUN
sigh we lost :( OH VELL!
GO TROJANS GO

sunday: CHURCH, first sunday when we DIDN'T get pho which was an awesome idea steff-o, thanks. so we went to this really cute hong kong style cafe and it was SO GOOD aofidkjlg the pancakes were awesome and i still have dericious fried rice in mah fridge woooo

today: class went by quickly. the realization that my first college exam is next monday woke me up so i payed attention O_O matt barkley sat in mah row heh.
then i went to baja fresh with mai which was only moderately satisfying and then had red mango which was very satisfying.
my appetite is not cooperating with me anymore.
then i watched dramas since i did all mah homework already
i WIN.

METEOR SHOWER is <3 theosifdj wei chen hehehehiaedsjkf
kaybye.

It's sad to realize

2009-09-19T17:51:00.000-07:00

that our school is hated for petty reasons.
But then again, I'm Christian, Chinese, and I went to Harker High, so I should be used to being hated for no reason.

Fight on USC! :)

oh hay

2009-09-13T18:46:00.000-07:00

mmmm the rest of the week was relatively uneventful except i went to see one of my lit teachers to discuss my paper and it finally felt like i was doing something contributing to my grade haha -_- in college i'm never sure what counts and what doesn't D:

friday: we did a lot of homework and hung around and then helena and i departed from prb3203 for IGNITE '09 :)) which was basically an intervarsity conference down in irvine so we drove through some heavy traffic and arrived a little before 6PM
we had session 1 and some campus time and lots and lots of worship :) inside this BEAUTIFUL sanctuary with a massive stained glass window. photos on fb :)
then we challenged UCLA to an eating contest which should have theoretically been super easy for them seeing as they brought around 40 people and we had like
...15
but they chickened out D: PSH sirry bruins -_-
anyway they wanted to reschedule and we were like oh hay no. bcus we had a football game to go home too so we drove to where we would be sleeping and dropped our stuff out and went to guppies which is AMAZING
we had this MASSIVE shaved ice in which the bowl was like 5 times the size of my head and some brick toast which has to be the most amazing thing invented. so we fellowshipped and talked and ate until like 1AM and finished that massive bowl. the other tables didn't do as pro as we did but :) so content and happy and needing to urinate :D

then we got back and brushed our teeth and got into bed which was on a floor :( the guys got couches!!!

saturday: woke up sooo early D: and sore haha
also woke up to ben lui's fb update of "GAMEDAY BEAT THE BUCKEYES" so that was nice. got to the main church kind of late so we had to wait for breakfast
session 2 was really really useful for me, i think.
by the time the seminars came around, jeff and i were totally sleeping -_- heh.
so tired!! so we chugged the coffee before our last campus time and session 3.
worship :)
and thenn
RACING HOME TO THE BLUE HOUSE FOR SOME FOOTBALL :D

haha we listened to it on the radio. we had scored a touchdown by worship time and were tied when we left the church. then we all had to pee and ben got angry bcus he was missing the game -_- so we listened to it on the radio and i fell asleep so when we got back to the blue house after ridiculous highway 5 traffic, it was 10-10 and the blue house was very nervous O_O
but bacon hotdogs helped with that, i had three
........

anyway, MOST INTENSE GAME EVER i was about to cry from nerves hahaha but we won yeee trojans <3 teehee :)

then we walked home and did homework.

sunday: church!! the message was shooper interesting today and JUSTIS KAO led worship YES he's like famous!! he's on itunes, check ittt
anyway, i'm glad they talked about this today, it was something i was thinking about after the workshop i attended on saturday (post-modern apologetics) so yahh
then we had pho.
sigh -_- third sunday of pho in a ROW for me blehh

i think i gained 1/3 of the freshman 15 this week D:

meeting alex for dinner soon :))

tata.

Gentlemen Don't

2009-09-09T19:16:00.000-07:00

1. on monday, i promised helena i would go with her to rite aid to get her meds so that was quite an adventure. actually, not really but i did take LA public transport all by mahself :) and i am quite proud of myself :P we ended up not being able to get the medicine because her insurance office was closed and the price was 300 dollars anyway O_O for such a minor treatment so we bought some facewash, hairties, and slippers instead.

ever since college started, not that i'm hard on money or anything, but i find myself questioning "do i really need this?"

and i feel guilty spending money. unless it's my dining dollars bcus i have entirely too many of those T_T

meh stayed up finishing my paper :(

2. tuesday was my hard classes day but it went by relatively quickly. jour190 was not very pleasant but whatever, 12 more classes, fight on! i can dooo it.

bible study was fun :) it was application week so me and matt and john went to see matt's RA jana. i dunno why matt lives on the jewish muslim floor but whatever! she was very cool and i learned a lot about california history and jewish culture so :P

3. today was excellent just bcus i slept in until 11. we went to bed relatively late and talked really late but my first class was at 12 :) it went by entirely too slowly and i was totally zoning out but i did well on the surprise reaction paper which was on today's lecture so :P after that...did some homework and ate a lot of junk food.

ben came to visit so we talked for a long while and then mai came home so we went to dinner. now she's at her audition and i'm supposed to be doing my hw.

that text made my day :) teehee

i'm wearing really fobby earrings today. :D D:

I WANT TO GO HOMEEE

2009-09-09T00:11:00.001-07:00

and go to the mixer :(

Camels and Midgets!

2009-09-07T17:36:00.000-07:00

these past like 6 days have been crazy!!
thursday:
SPLASHDOWN :) was a success, i think :) i met a ton of people and had a lot of fun sliding down two huge slip n' slides that we set up on mccarthy quad and a lot of people came which made me proud :) bcus i told them about it!
andd i love my suitemates :) heh.
i woke up the next day SUPER sore and with bruised knees but SO worth it.
than mai's cousin took us to diddy reise in westwood :) and we had some sushi. hahaah wow UCLA's area is so much nicer O_O but there's something endearing about the ghetto around USC and i say that in the most serious way. i think it's because of all the signs and posters and spray ons of the fight on symbol and "welcome back Trojans" all the laundromats and bike stores and rundown shops put up. it makes me feel loved! :)

friday:
woke up sorta late and mai's cousin took us to boiling crab!! heh that was really fun/REALLY TASTYY then later than night we went to poker night with TCF and helena got stung by a bee O_O wtf. yah but it was a lot of fun playing taboo but we had to leave bcus we were meeting rowland to hang outtt
which ended up being super disappointing since we couldn't get our guy friends in without paying a very handsome sum O_O oh well. the night was young. mai and i ended up going home around 1 and eating foods whilst talking and everyone else came home around 3 and we all stayed up to chat.

saturday:
GAME DAYYYYY woke up SOO early to meet with TCF at Tommy trojan and begin our long wait in the sun. at this point it's like 10AM and we're in the stadium by like 1045 and it is HOT. REALLY HOT. we had amazing seats though and the game was SUPER fun ofaedsjfofijfodi trojans <3 the halftime performance was sick too :D
so yes. the game ended around 3 something so that was a good 6-7 hours in the sun and i was VERY VERY burnt :(( sadface
it hurt to scrunch my nose or wink my right eye but so worth staying the whole game
yeee the mighty trojans defeat the spartans 56-3 :D

then i stayed in and tried to do hw before going out for some victory parties :D yeaah we were preparing to go to a dance party when these guys told us to come by the ATO house and check out the monkeys and waterslide and we were like YEE MONKEYS so they told us to follow the spotlight and we did but the party DIDN'T HAVE MONKEYS :( but they DID have a freaking CAMEL and MIDGETS O_O one wore a pimp suit with dollar signs all over it. anyway there was no dancing :(
yet it was still fun but we left when some people needed to go home and the camel started stanking D:

sunday:
church! and pho afterward :) made some new friends :P then came home and did homework. i feel like i'm suffering memory loss, i can hardly remember what i did last night hahaha

anyway. must write paper tonight D:
on this ridiculous book.
NO PLAYING UNTIL THURSDAY NIGHT, PROMISINGGGG

bleh.
i love college!

HOTHOT

2009-09-02T10:49:00.000-07:00

so when i last left you readers,
i was waiting for my clothes to dry
so mai and i went to the elevator and it's around 1AM right now and the elevator slides open and in comes ____'s crush heh and he was like "OH HARRO" (he's from china) and we were like "oh heyyy" and then it was really awkward so i decided to introduce myself since it was like 3 floors to go and so we got to talking and he like told us he had no more underwear to wear so that's why he's doing laundry at 1AM -____-
laaawl.
so yah then mai and i went to take out our clothes and the dryers are like 50000 degrees hotter here, i SWEAR. i think my clothes all shrunk -_- i flung my towel at mai and she shrieked in pain. just kidding. kind of.
anyway we watched some informercials whilst we waited for our last things to be done.

yesterday's bible study was fun :) and i'm suuper looking forward to splash down tomorrow :))
andd i think i solved my hc dilemma almost :D yeee
FIRST FBALL GAME OF THE SEASON ON FRIIIIDAY
FIGHT ON :)

"Show You"

2009-09-01T00:26:00.000-07:00

HAI GUYS :) it's been a while!!

1. so i went to the testing bureau after the last post i posted and i found out i placed out of a foreign language requirement for chinese!!! who woulda known ;) anyway, that was exciting EXCEPT that i did not expect to place so high and therefore none of the chinese 4 or higher classes could fit my schedule so i'm not taking chinese this semester :(

2. then i went to the annenberg county fair with rachael and didn't score as many free things as i would have liked but i did get a super cute annenberg t shirt for free :)) anyway, they also had amazing little donuts there blehh MMM fried doughy goodness.

3. the welcome back dance was also friday night and it was a "foam party" and ridiculous to say the least. no to getting wet and seeing swimsuit-clad foamy people grinding up on each other but breana mai and i basically started the partaaay so it was fun :) then we went back and played chill ice breakers with our RA ;) and some other people on our floor.

4. geez it's been too long to remember what we did but we went to this welcome back carnival and i got super lucky and won two prizes, one from skullcandy :) and we had some pinky's? hotdogs which are apparently a big deal in LA/Socal so yahh and had a little harker reunion over early dinner :D
the concert was afterwards and mai stanley and i watched down down down, as tall as lions, and stayed for one cold war kids song. then we went home bcus we were tireedddd

5. SUNDAY! i got to go to church and meet tons of cool people like ben through emily. he took us to evergreen baptist church and i was like yeaaaahhh for getting off campus :B hahaha
the service was interesting and VERY different so i was like mehhh (this weeks was way better) and we had some shaved ice before we headed back for the christian fair where i picked up some info on some on-campus fellowships.

6. then i met with mai and deej and julia at tommy trojan to take part in a scavanger hunt. we literally ran around for like an hour searching buildings that fulfilled our ten riddles and took cute polaroid photos in front of them and we came in...8th place T_T but it was super fun :)

7. CLASSES STARTED!! the first day was awesome bcus i had a total of 45 minutes of class for 4 hours of lectures so yah :) and then we just chilled the rest of the day and had fun :) but then tuesday is like my killer 6.5 hour day but i did get my schedule straightened out FINALLYYY so this is how it looks:
Mondays: Comm from 12-120
Tuesdays: Dream of the Red Chamber, East Asian Humanities, and Asian American Lit from 930-2, Jour190 from 4-6
Wednesdays: East Asian Humanities from 9-950, Comm from 12-120
Thuresdays: Dream of the Red Chamber, East Asian Humanities, and Asian American Lit from 930-2
Friday: NOOOONE :))))

8. i really enjoy most of my classes and i so didn't know my comm class would be literally 50% sorority girls but that's aite...i had fun this week :) tuesday, i went to IV/TCF parkside fellowship led by cauchy and ben!! and played fun ice breakers and met a lot of cool people :) but i was exhausted afterward. then i went to overflow with TCF on thursday and met more people! i really like intervarsity but i feel biased since i know some people in it....yet i felt like i connected with them the most so i think i'm sticking with them :D
everyone should come out for splash down on thursday!!

9. most of the time i'm not at class i've been chilling with people and hanging out :) we watched koizora last night in our room until like 1AM and breana and stanley laughed at it all the way till the end -___- HAHA desecrating my fav japanese movie D:!

10. friday, we met rowland and his cool sophomore friends (which included isaaac!) and we took the bus to ktown where we bought some food and returned to his apartment. he made us really good dinner and we hung out there for like 5 hours and walked back home at 1130. then we stayed up till 3 talking and eating spicy korean food which resulted in 3 bad dreams that night :( saaadface! never again....no spicay food fo me :(

11. sunday was really fun :D heh. we went to church and then to pho afterward and the service was great :) the music was AMAZING, the singer had a great voice and killed at the piano and i didn't get to meet him although he was like 5 feet away. then i found out he's on itunes and won some award in 2003 for best male singer/songwriter of LA O_O
listen to "show you" by justis kao. and yes that's his real name :) sooo amazing!
he apparently doesn't usually sing his own songs but i'm glad he made this exception this sunday :D
the pho was real good and i really got to know a lot of fellow freshmen in TCF so i had a lot of fun. then we just hung out in my room not doing much/hw until like 6 and we ate dinner.

not much serious partying yet or serious studying :P so it's been pretty chill in college so far

i'm doing my first laundry EVER and overcoming my paranoia of people stealing my underwear by NOT babysitting the dryer right now. also bcus it's 1AM and most people don't get up to steal underwear at 1AM.
:) i'm so happy teeeheee

but i miss home :( sigh @ harker for having the same HC as USC D:

and i finally know what it's like to be a "poor college kid" ssssigh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE <3 :)

FIGHT ON

2009-08-21T09:40:00.000-07:00

hayy :)

hmm so these past two days i've been suuuper tired but i didn't really do anything strenuous hahaa
(this is going to take so long to type since mai thinks i type too furiously in the mornings.)

wednesday: boarded a delayed plane at 655 and arrived at burbank around 820. cousin got us to USC in 34 minutes despite LA traffic and i was moved in by 1000. then we drove like 9 miles which took 45 minutes -_- to target/staples/costco and loaded up on the food and toiletries and etc. we then drove half an hour to santa monica, about 5 miles away and ate at this really good italian restaurant. i LOVE santa monica it's a cute little beach town like santa cruzz :)
thenn we came back and i really don't remember what we did until the parkside palooza at 7?? anyway yah that was super lame, i was there for the free pizza and the tshirt haha :) but got to talk to alex and meet his friends or whatever.
went to sreep at 1230, they were playing up right outside our building until 1230 very loudly and no one was watching outside -_- parkside palooza fail D:

thursday: woke up suuuper early D: to go to a seminar titled "academic success" haha -_- wut. yah anyway it was surprisingly crowded O_O when i got back, i chilled in my room and went to lunch with some people at the lot. then i had to come back and study for my test -_- which was the most disorganized thing in the WORLD but surprisingly less challenging than i thought. but some questions were like WTF with vocab about like third world countries and technology and stuff -_- anyway we'll see what i get todayyy
then we just chilled and go to to know each other in each others rooms
we went to the dive-in but that was a bust so we watched marching band on the field and met a drunk guy named CONG LAWL he was the best. anyway haha the story is too long so ask me and i'll tell you in person :)

then we went back and our suitemates got locked out :P and we met a lot of people from our floor like the guys next door HAHA anyway.
then i ate ramen at 1AM bcus i was soo hungry :( and i woke up hungry too!! but we went to sleep at like 2AM.

kay that is all, i have to go to the testing bureau soon to check out mah score. :) wish me luuck

in 6 hours

2009-08-19T00:53:00.000-07:00

i will be boarding a plane destined for LA.

my mom bought me a manual powered flashlight that functions as an FM radio, a red light, a cell phone charger, and a siren. i'm ready for USC. lawl

i am sad to be leaving :(

2 days

2009-08-17T11:53:00.000-07:00

wednesday night: went to nate's house and had a grand time :) hahaha we watched for stars and saw some too :)

thursday: went to the moves with DENIZ <3 and then we went to westgate and dined at johnny rockets :D mmm so unhealthy D:
then i hung out with won :) teehee
and did somewhat lame things for a while like work on college apps -_- sighh
anyway, i haven't seen him since! :( he does not want to see me.
i hung out with the guys later who wanted to make mini movies in crowded public places late at night and i was supposedly their female hostage but they got bored and we went to BJs instead and had pizookies at midnight.

friday: went to megan's! and departed for seascape <3 heh yayyy!!
we played at the beach and ate a lot and stayed up late watching movies and baking cookies

saturday: went to the beach in the morning and then left for home all sandy and exhausted. when we got home...we went to tartini! haha and then i actually went home home.
showered and then went to youthgroup where we made cards for the elderly and the sick :) it was fun.
then we had girls night out and watched the time traveler's wife which was really sad/cute/creepy/confusing all at the same time and reminded me of secret kind of -_-

sunday: church!! last sunday at 4hoc :( sad day. we went to lunch afterwards at chipotle and thenn to hau's house to play basketball/frisbee
came home very sweaty and tired at 5PM
then! went to megan's at 7PM to watch the comedy of errors at memorial park :) it was difficult sitting on that slopey hill and only simi knew the actual plot (somewhat) but it was still fun/cold :B
then simi came to my house and my mom cut her hair -_-

and that is the end of my very very eventful week, i overslept this morning.

AWHFY?

2009-08-12T16:29:00.000-07:00

last night/this morning was pretty ridiculous

i went out around noon to run some errands and it took way longer than expected -_- i first went to petroglyph to pick up my mug :) i should have painted more coats :( but i'm pretty satisfied with the way it came out :) anyway, there was no close parking so it took soo long to walk in the heat :(

then i went to the library to return my books before i jet off to L.A. thenn i went to fill up my gas tank. last but not least, i dropped a visit to harker to return my beloved nimbus 2000 to it's rightful owner and talked with mr. daren a bit. then emily chow dropped by with her friend so of course i talked with her. then won and jun came so...i stayed a bit longer. i went home around 4PM -___-

anyway, brian and i came up with the brilliant idea of watching the perseid's meteor shower in my backyard and inviting everyone over and then, after talking it over with alex, we decided that we would hike to some far remote location that was darker than my backyard and watch from there so we all gathered in front of my house at 830 PM. well actually, we left at about 940 PM bcus everyone was late!! (group as of now=alex, paul, anthony, brian, megan, me, and david.) kaytee was supposed to meet us there and we kinda...were really late bcus paul wanted to get his two free tacos at jack in the box -___- so when we finally got there, megan showed us a shortcut to hunter's point, which was the "short" walk and we waited on the curb for kaytee to arrive. then, we waited for won to arrive and the guys to come back with batteries for a flashlight bcus the road up was SCARY AS HECK O_O
it was like walking 20 minutes in pitch black and the guys kept making axeman jokes :( and we had to lug all our sleeping stuff up too.

alex and paul had gone back to pick barrett up and our group grew to 10 people! :P we set up tripods, cameras, blankets, and sleeping bags, and observed the sky. barrett and them just barely came back and we had seen about 4 stars before we kinda got busted for being there after hours and were forced to leave. the park ranger was nice though and let us off. HAHA we are so badass it's awesome.
anyway, barrett paul and alex gave megan a lift back haha and all our stuff and we began our long trek down. at the end, won had to leave and kevin kim joined us as we continued our adventure in the direction of in n' out for some munchies at 1AM.

afterwards, after some minor complications (HAHA and kaytee had left our group :() we made our way to the park near my house (in quite a shady manner). then barrett left :( and we lay under the stars counting meteors and gossiping and laughing until 4AM.
our group had shrunk to 5 people by then and by 5AM, it was just megan, alex, and i lying on my driveway. we finally crashed in my living room at around 530 AM (me and megan) and slept the morning away (hah)

we got up at around 10 and went to hobees for a really late brunch at like 1130 (but not too late yaddidamean ;)) and then went back home to watch cadet kelly -___-
so now i am here. about to go out again.
and very very tired.

i didn't see as many stars this year but i will make wishes for them later :)

last night was the most fun i have had in a long time and a perfect almost-goodbye for college
and it almost made me realize how much more fun it is to be young and reckless
we also reminded us of those silly reality tv shows of those rich fabulous glamorous beautiful people and all they do is hang out till the wee hours of the morning
but we're cooler.
i wouldn't have had last night any other way :)

i can't believe i have to say goodbyeee :(

Manic Monday

2009-08-10T21:32:00.000-07:00

hello again.
so i've taken to writing everything i have to remember on these little post-its (the electronic kind), including many things i have to buy before college so you can imagine they've grown rather long and numerous. and i feel kind of desperate to get rid of one, which i've written down the content of my dreams on so here goes:

this dream was in three separate parts:
1. i guess albert and anthony's meeting of the wondergirls triggered this but my friends and i (simi, megan, ana, mash?) were walking on this like wooden really long porch at night and suddenly out of nowhere this group of famous kpoppers stroll out and are like "OMG DO YOU LIKE US?? ARE YOU FANS??" and masha's like nah "BUT SHE IS!" and shoves me at like, yoobin, or someone. and it was like the wondergirls and some guys who were supposedly in like super junior or something but he didn't look familiar at all and then masha began to take photos of us but the first one, the guy was making some kind of strange pose and totally blocked my face and the second was blurry so i left rather flustered and annoyed that the photos did not come out well.
2. the second part flashed back to when i was part of the senior homecoming court and for some reason, my mother and i had to drive to a far away destination through death valley like land and the buildings along the way all looked very familiar. this segment was rather sci-fi and very degrading as each person we met along the way told me my hair wasn't nice enough (and chopped it off) and my skin wasn't nice enough (and injected this strange thing that made me all wrinkley??) anyway, very nightmarish :( and then i returned back to where the rest of the senior court was and told them that i quit bcus i couldn't handle it (i looked back to normal though for some reason...) and i explained why and then they got all riled up (HAHA) and deej was extremely enraged at this injustice. i guess that was it.
3. the third place was at mai's house although it resembled my old house more than it resembled her house and everything was tinted blue (this isn't the first time this has happened...). for some reason, i was just sitting there chilling with an open umbrella and i dunno, the whole thing was really weird, she had this trunk in her bathroom that had all sorts of things in it and her little brother was jun hee?? and we went upstairs to tell him something and he was with his friends playing video games and he got really annoyed i don't really remember anything else that happened.

yes, i woke up very confused.

anyway, today, albert came over to return my SD card and we ended up talking for a couple hours on the steps in front of mah house. then my mom and i went out for a super late lunch at SR and thenn i chilled at home. then! i hung out with won hee :) and now i am home.

seeing best friends tomorrow <3
began using ipod touch. sadface, kind of!

Late Morning Rambles

2009-08-10T11:44:00.000-07:00

1. i think that i'm a huge hypocrite and people give me more credit than i deserve. people supposedly view me as "sincere, and nice" and i "have a heart of gold." they seem to view me higher than how i view myself and to be honest, i'm not a very nice person. i don't think? and i'm quite loud and obnoxious and tend to gossip too much and cuss a bit. all sins.
i went to church by myself on sunday, which was a bit sad. i mean, yesterday was just a sad day in general bcus my rose salve also melted :( and got on my car leather!! :( though it got better bcus won and my mommy and sisters came home.
anyway, the pastor spoke (more generally directed towards a family audience) about leading a blessed and changed life in order to SHOW people how God's affected the way you live. and i began to think (along with the fact that i was translating the sermon in my head faster than the translator was...) that i am hardly a walking testimony.
back in the underclassman years, i tried quite hard to bring my friends to church-and i did. they attended youth group, sunday services, Christian concerts with me, but i have nothing to show for it. so maybe i was trying too hard.
i considered myself to be a good person at the age of 13, naive and innocent. sort of
i'm vaguely different now, although people tend to remember how i used to be.
i don't know where i'm going with this.
but!
as of now, i'm swearing off swearing.
and i hope college makes no time for silly girl gossip.
and i wish i had gone to retreat...

2. i have an (irrational?) fear of becoming completely unoriginal. which is why the thought of having a mac, an ipod touch, a jansport backpack, and rainbows, all at once (not that i do. yet.), makes me feel slightly disturbed
.........
and very materialistic.
i can't help but want to go shopping every last day i'm here just bcus shopping, among other things, presents a dark black hole of mystery down in LA.
MUST. NOT. SPEND. MONEY.
FIND. JOB. (at school...)

3. i'm sorry if i offended anyone/if you have all of the above^

4. my bedding in college is going to be extremely festive. which is vaguely exciting. okay, i lied, very exciting.
my comforter has cinnamoroll on it :) heh sanrio <3
i'm sorry mai, it had to be done.

5. i probably use my mac flight tracker more than a normal person would. which makes me feel slightly all-knowing as well as really, really creepy. on that same note, i am going to track deniz's flight from amsterdam to SFO and i am shoooper excited.

6. my sisters went to thailand WHAAT -_- jealous. they got me cute things though. from hk too, keychains and pens and pencils and the headphones i was GOING to buy with cheney. they know me too well??
cell phone cases and charms (PANDUH!) and a laptop case and my beloved cinnamoroll blanket <3

anyway, that is all.

TEN DAYS!

2009-08-09T19:45:00.000-07:00

!!!!!
it's passing by too quickly :(
and the more i think about it, the less willing i am to convert back into school mode. senior year was a bit different from "regular" high school, i think. so i feel like i have to convert back to the student i was in junior year.
this will take adjustment.

there are so many things to do before i leave and i fear i will not be able to do all of them :(

still excellent!

2009-08-08T23:05:00.000-07:00

today was a good day :)
megan came to my house and picked me up and we went to blue rock shoot to munch on delicious sandwiches at the cute park in the back. after that...we drove around LG downtown and got a bit lost before finding parking and walking to petroglyph! then we spent 4 hours painting cups that WERE NOT OUR FIRST CHOICE haha :( boo
but that's okay, we had fun.
during which, sean called and we made dinner plans before the twins left for scandinavia (norway in a nutshell!) not many people came though being UNREACHABLE DD:
anyway, rio adobe was good as always and i am very content. as is my stomach. we conversed for almost three hours and now i am home.

mommy+sisters come home tomorrowwy :)
and won!!
should i go to church/chinese service tomorrow...? no one there :( not even parents. hermm

HOLD MY HEART

2009-08-07T20:22:00.001-07:00

what
the yecckkk

JAY CHOU IS IN THE GREEN HORNET???
BUT HE CAN'T SPEAK ENGLISH -____-
not that i'm complaining.
but wotttt?

come onnn everybody if you feelin' alright

2009-08-06T16:27:00.000-07:00

in the third grade, one of my favorite books to read was "The Kingfisher Young People's Pocket Atlas."
ah, according to the inside cover, i received it as a gift in the winter of '98. excellent. hmm...vaguely outdated, korea doesn't even have it's own section...
lawl the book automatically opens to the worn pages of "the pacific islands," "australia," and "antartica."
i was a weird kid.

anyway, i went to the library a couple days ago to return a few books and came home with quite a few cds and a couple books.
i was in search of some passionate faith-inducing books but the library doesn't quite have a religion section, much less a Christian section. they do, however, have a mystery section....anyway. i gave up only bcus i had to look through monster rows of non-fiction for authors such as c.s. lewis and that was just ridiculous work. also bcus i realized that i have a copy of "mere Christianity," "the purpose-driven life," and "the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe" (which really belongs to brian chao) already sitting on my bookcase.
so i just picked up some girly teenage novels before going home
i didn't really look at the content of these books but upon opening one of them, just happens to be about a Christian girl and her experiences with her faith, her walk with Jesus, and high school.
:) heh, He never ceases to amaze me.....

SO, i haven't really been doing anything these past couple days (in an effort to make up for the few days i skipped out on breakfast, lunch, and dinner at home...) except eating, reading, and DLing old music.
hawk nelson never gets old :)
no matter how good their last couple of albums were, their first one is bombb. i remember listening to it in simi's house in freshman year. still so good :)
i am ashamed to admit that i began listening to them bcus i saw a picture of their rather attractive lead singer, jason dunn, in the SJ Merc accompanying an article titled "building their house on rock." witty title :) it was about Christian rock.

i am having too many subsequent bad hair days. sighh :(
TOMORROW, I WILL GO TO TOFU HOUSE.

next time you're at in n' out, check the bottoms of your cups and wrappers for bible verses :)

marry me, juliet!

2009-08-05T23:05:00.000-07:00

so i was just watching this video of an old friend and a new friend sing/play guitar, they know each other! who knew. anyway,
this inspired me to make a list of random things.

list of random things:
1. i, like ana, have always wanted to kiss someone with pop rocks in mah mouth.
2. i think that there are several things that could be the worst possible things to ever happen an that would be: contracting an STD (mostly from casual sex), getting pregnant when you don't mean to, being infertile, accidentally killing someone (i mean like in a car accident -_- not like accidentally chucking a knife at someone), being involved in a failing marriage (particularly in the middle of your life. like in your 40s or something :/)
3. i think i'm the only girl in the world who thinks that being in the worship band at church is +2938493493 points in attractiveness -_-
4. my first kiss was a girl.
5. i like to reuse teabags but by the third soak it doesn't taste like anything :( and i have an unhealthy obsession with babybel cheese and salami. and i ate in n' out two days in a row. ssssiiiighhhh D: but! i ate a lot of carrots today in an attempt to balance out the inordinate time i spent staring at my computer today.

exactly two weeks

2009-08-05T20:54:00.000-07:00

until move-in!!! woww can time just stop now :(
i was excited to go until i realized that it's also exactly three weeks until CLASSES start wwwaaaatttt like after second semester senior year i fell into this lax kinda position where i didn't really care too much about school. i still did well and tried and went to bed late and spent hours on papers etc etc but man it feels weird to get back into that crazed super ridiculous study mode that will persist the next four years T_T
i almost envy 2010.
nah, not really, nvm.
although i was looking at all my photos from senior year and i'm going to miss high school a lot :( particularly october/november etc etc around hc and football season. which sounds silly bcus i'm going to USC but meh.

naoo i am listening to hawk nelson and thinking about how their first album was <3 even though smile it's the end of the world is pretty rad. i'm at a loss as to where all my cds disappear to. esp the ones with autographs on them T_T lawl i opened all my cases today looking for cds and they weren't there??? sighhh
"it's over" is probably the happiest break up song in the world HAHA.

mmm looking forward to:
date on sat :))
sunday!
whenever the fam comes home.........LAWL I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHEN??
nate's
megan's
mr walsh's wedding?? i wish
stargazing on the 17th
welcome week at USC :)

i need to go shopping. and buy some bedding.

TODAY I BOUGHT TICKETS TO THE AWAKE AND ALIVE CONCERT IN LA with skillet and hawk nelson YES i'm so excited hahaha IF ANYONE IS IN LA AT THAT TIME (OCT 27) COME WITH US!! :) they were kinda cheap too so :) i'm excited.
i also finished alcohol education today which was....really really long :(
and onething is coming to LA :) so hopefully the hoc4 '09ers can finally go to a convention together :P

oh yah, 6 months :)!

"Will you stand by me"

2009-08-05T01:00:00.000-07:00

SIGH SO RIDICULOUS.

yesterday, i went out with simi and then albert felt lonely so i went with him to the mall AGAIN and wasted so much time and got shoooper fat and then he was running late to a dinner date with winston so i had to go with him and guess who was late? winston.
sighhh it was supposed to take one hour, it took three.

and today we went to do the actual filming and it was crazy, i just barely got home -_____- ri.di.cu.lous. i will not elaborate.

anyway, this survey looked fun so i will do it:

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
uhhh i dunno. hair i guess??
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
i don't have a favorite. lawl but i like my new USC sweatshirt bcus it's fuzzay inside, still haven't washed it. SO CARDINAL AND GOLD <3
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
yesssss
4. Do you plan outfits?
if it's important. but usually, no.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
TIRED and kind of anxious
6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
my "love punch" charm that hangs on my keys
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
uhmmm won and i were at this park and we were walking a a dog?? and he was freaking out bcus i was bouncing this egg up and down for some reason and he was scared it would break and the chicken would die but for some reason, it was an invincible egg! :D
question 8 ?
9. What are you craving right now?
well i ate a ridiculous amount today so not anything particularly solid. juice would be good, or natural soda or tea or i dunno, something tasty and liquid. :)
10. Do you floss?
....not as much as i should
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
BAI CAI WANG ZI. <3 <3 <3 NATHAN ON AN OSTRICH. haahha only mai would understand this...
12. Are you emotional?
definitely.
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
yup, we were in grand canyon for the 7th grade field trip and ms. martinez said we'd get back to the hotel in thirty minutes so simi megan and i counted until 1,800 and they fell asleep on me so i finished it and lo and behold we did return in half an hour give or take a couple minutes :P
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
liiiick
15. Do you like your hair?
nah. or maybe today i just had a bad hair day :((
16. Do you like yourself?
hahah sometimes!
17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
yah, why not? interesting man.
18. What are you listening to right now?
can i stay here forever-starfield
19. Are your parents strict?
ermm, depends :) they're alright now though since i have nothing to do but PLAYY until i move away forever in two weeks.
20. Would you go sky diving?
meh, i'd be scared hahaah
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
every time i see it i want to eat it and then i eat it i don't like it.
22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
ermm jah. i've kinda "met" several christian singers: kutless, hawk nelson, matthew west, stellar kart
meh i've met other famous people but i don't remember. they're just normal people like us :P
23. Do you rent movies often?
nope, only when i go out with fam friends to blockbusters to rent our traditional DVDs
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
hmm well the door says "STEFF-O" on a somewhat sparkly red star from winterball two years ago. i think that's pretty much it. my ring is sparkly, the ugly side. the rhinestone side, eww :( haha
25. How many countries have you visited?
australia, canada, china, new zealand, england, france, italy, mexico, 8?? maybe more...?
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
yupp
27. Ever been on a train?
yah, across china a couple times
28. Brown or white eggs?
both!! i love eggs :P hahhaheoaif
29. Do you have a cell-phone?
LG ICE CREAM GAHH SO CUTEE <3 <3
30. Do you use chap stick?
sometimes, and rose salve heh :P the box is a cute pink.
31. Do you own a gun?
nope
32. Can you use chop sticks?
yahh!
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
i've had enough of hanging out these past two days -_- i was witthhh mai, her siblings, albert, michelle, and anthony -____-
34. Are you too forgiving?
forgiveness is a good thing.
35. Ever been in love?
of course
36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
working, i dunno, exploring spain, community outreach in las vegas, playing in turkeyyy
37. Ever have cream puffs?
BEARD PAPAS <3
38. Last time you cried?
couple weeks ago??
39. What was the last question you asked?
"HE HAS A LETTERMAN?? IN WHAT??? FENCING??" LAWL to deniz <3
40. Favorite time of the year?
ALLLL
41. Do you have any tattoos?
nope.
42. Are you sarcastic?
sometimes.
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
nah dudeee
44. Ever walked into a wall?
uhmm i can't think of a particular instance but probably :B
45. Favorite color?
pink, teal, mandarin orange :P
46. Have you ever slapped someone?
probably, i hit people when i laugh sometimes. i feel like i picked this quality up from janet...HAHAHAA but yah sometimes
47. Is your hair curly?
nahh
48. What was the last CD you bought?
MATTHEW WEST, SOMETHING TO SAY. AND ITS SIGNED :)
49. Do looks matter?
a bit but not much :)
50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
of course.
51. Is your phone bill sky high?
OMGAHHH MY TEXTING BILL IS THROUGH THE ROOF THIS MONTH IM GOING TO DIE. but other than that it's alright.
52. Do you like your life right now?
yah. kinda bored these days, tired, missing people :( not wanting to pack half my life for college :(
53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
don't really watch tv.
54. Can you handle the truth?
yah i guess so.
55. Do you have good vision?
20/20 <3 anddd i'm asian! heh winnn
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
hmm not hate, but i dislike the way some people act. all people are good people though, with the exception of a couple people.
57. How often do you talk on the phone?
i don't like talking on the phone but ti depends :)
58. The last person you held hands with?
won hee
59. Wearing?
the latesttt harker athletics t shirt :) and underwear. and some jewelry.
60.What is your favorite animal?
MONKEYS, PANDUHS, DOLPHINS, KANGAROOOS, jellyfish. NARWHALS.
61. Where was your profile picture taken?
in santa cruz with won hee <3 :)
62. Can you hula hoop?
JAH i beat out a bunch of people with tianna to win a free tshirt at swc 06 heh :) good memories...
63. Do you have a job?
nah mann
64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
in n' out. and if it's not supposed to be food related....swimsuit bottoms from a&f?
65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
yahh all the time.

**********************************************

Do you want to know the date of your death?
nahdude
What comes to mind when I say 69?
....lawl whatever i say will be interpreted wrongly.
Last person you hugged?
winston wey :P
Does the last person who put their arm around you mean anything to you?
uhmmm...if it was anthony, nah lawl besides mah friend :P if it was won...of course :)
Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
mmm HHAHAHAAH before playing that ridic balloon game at fellowship on saturday.
Do you say sorry first?
yes, i don't like to fight/argue about silly things.
Could you go a whole year without cursing?
uhm. i should be going my whole life without cursing...
Do you act differently around the person you like?
i used to. but anymo :)
Are you happy with the way things are going?
jah.
Do you believe in forever?
mmhmmmmm
Who's your favorite redhead?
heh kaytizzle :))
Have you smoked a cigarette today?
yuck ;(
How's your hair looking?
gross. in a ponytail.
Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
of course!
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
hopefully :)
When you're bored in class, what do you usually do?
doodle, think about other things
How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
HAHAHAHAAH WHAT??
countless hah.
How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?
i dunno, depends on what it is and where it is.
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name starts with a j,c,d,l,or z?
nope.
Can you go a day without thinking about the person that’s on your mind now?
nah man, some things are always on mah mind. like Jesus and food.
What were you doing at 1 in the morning?
lawl well it's 2AM right nao. i was probably sreeping yesterday or talking to deniz mai and albert like i am right now.
How are you feeling at this moment?
meh. CRACKING UP with deniz hahahaa <3
What woke you up today?
blerg had it get up and drive to anna's house to pick up her phone -_____-
What ruined your day today?
WHY ARE YOU ASSUMING I HAD A BAD DAY? i dunno just that it was taking sooo long
Where would you be at in 5 years?
uhm i'd be 22 and be graduated and heipi and free and maybe traveling or working or getting into grad school.
What are you doing right now?
fb-ing videos, watching fti on youtube, talking to mai and deniz
Are you mad about anything?
nahhh
If you were given $100, would you spend it or save it?
save!
Who was the last person you have a missed call from?
anna?
Do you wear flip-flops during the winter?
nope
Do you want your tongue pierced?
AHAHA no. i don't ever want to pierce anything in mah life again
Is your room clean at this moment?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Are you comfortable with your height?
mmm an inch or two more and it'd be perfect :)
What is on your wrists right now?
my wwjd bracelet, the leather bracelet i got for us in venice, a friendship bracelet won made me heh :P
Where did you last sleep other than your own bed?
uhmm on alex's floor???
How was last night?
meh
Who did you talk to on the phone last, why?
nobody? i dunno
Who's in your profile picture with you?
won heeee
Who was the last person to send you a text message?
simran
Do your parents yell at you constantly about "cleaning up after yourself"?
nah just clean mah room
Would you rather give up the computer or the TV?
tv hahaahahha
Do you like being kissed spontaneously or asked?
spontaneously although i thought it was rather cute when guys asked, like the first time. ....HAHAAHHA THIS IS WEIRDLY IRONIC
Do you hate when people call you when you're sleeping?
nah, unless it ruins mah dream D: i like texts when i'm sleeping hahaha i'm weird. i've been sleeping with my phone under mah pillow since sophomore year bcus of _____ and i've never gotten out of the habit. but if you're thinking of me late at night it makes me feel special :)
Are you tall?
nah kinda average. and very unproportional.
How many people have you had feelings for in 2009?
one.

My Sweet Escape

2009-08-02T20:26:00.001-07:00

i finally fell asleep a couple hours after i went to bed last night and woke up exhausted but made it to church on time :) God is good.
i'm really really sad that i can't go to retreat :( and we're hosting it this year!! sigh.

i went to the SCend off lawl and there were so many harker children :P it was fun though, i met a lot of interesting people and we all socialized in a 38 million dollar home. it was excellent.
i met a girl from 1hoc who isn't going to retreat either and that made me feel better :) and she's already suggested that we fellowship-hop once we get to USC :P God is so good.
i also met some fellow fangirls hehhh
i'm really excited for school, i suppose. kind of. we got free stuff too!! that's my favorite kind of stuff.

with that, i leave you with a passage that joe so helpfully pointed out yesterday, one that went right over my head the first time i read it:

"No, in all things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to seperate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Romans 8:37-39

the perfect promise :)

Jesus culture

2009-08-02T01:55:00.000-07:00

i am COMPLETELY blown away.
i don't usually go to fellowship and i thought, what the heck, i should make up for the years of not going and go the rest of the summer (aka the last three weeks before i leave) but what a weekend to go! i mean, fellowship went normally enough, logan brought some friends from agape lynbrook including joe! but yesss
at around 9PM we concluded fellowship and we went to tapex to hang out afterwards and what started as a casual tea outing turned into a five hour discussion about God and the less conservative side of christianity and i have to say my mind is on overdrive right now trying to process everything i just heard. we ended up hanging out until past closing time and we finally got kicked out of tap ex and continued the talk in the parking lot until the cops showed up, so we left for a 24 hour donut place so we wouldn't be loitering
it was insane, i mean i suppose joe did all the talking and we did the listening and the little question asking but i'm completely taken by surprise. when i first met joe three weeks ago, he was a very very quiet guy. but today i saw him in a completely different light. he confessed that he would rather talk about God than anything and i believe it, i have almost never seen anyone of our age speak with such conviction and courage. it's obvious what He can do with willing servants.
anyway, i promised i would spend quality time with Jesus and this was amazing timing. the insight that was shared today, between the 6 of us and eventually, the four of us, made me realize how shallow my faith seems to be, not because i am unwilling but because i am unexposed and not fully seeking Him.
but now it is 2AM and i am kind of sreepy, church tomorrow and i promised i wouldn't be late :/
praise the Lord that logan brought joe today, and that no scary men jumped me on the way home bcus i was really weirded out driving home at 1:45 AM. every time i break curfew, it's for church...shhh :P

good night!

Love at the Core

2009-08-01T15:02:00.000-07:00

HELLO EVERYONE
i am currently listening to run kid run and this blog is coincidentally named after one of their songs :) just remembered....anyway, these past few days have been good.

thursday:
i woke up super early! kind of, well not really! because i've been waking up early everyday, and went to SR to see 500 days of summer with won :)
what a cute movie, definitely not what i expected though...but i don't want to ruin it for you all so see it!! gordan-levitt is reallyyy cute. i felt this strange surge of anger when i saw UCLA's marching band in it. USC is succeeding in brainwashing me T_T haahahaha
anyway. so happy to see won :) even though he's left me AGAIN this morning for 9 days without any means of communication :((
then! i drove to church and waited for mah friends and then we departed for monterey!

i talk too much. siiigh

anyway. i am so thankful to God that it went well, we got cheaper tickets for going half day (DID NOT EVEN KNOW THIS WAS POSSIBLE!!) and got good standing space relatively close to the stage for almost all three concerts. traffic wasn't bad and parking wasn't bad at all.
the concerts were amazing :) GOD IS AMAZING :D hah. i got matthew west's autograph but we were too lazy to get jeremy camp's hahaha and we didn't see kutless this year :/ but we saw them at the autograph thing hah.
anyway, there is nothing quite like hanging with hundreds of Jesusfreaks. on a very full bladder and a sore back -_____-
tiring, but fun day.

now they're making me wear my "i <3 hardcore Christian boys" to church today -_-

friday:
met with won at 12 and hung out with him until around 3PM when he left me agaain :( so sad.
then i hung out with albert and we did lame things HAH jk like get lots of food and hang out at the park and talk about his SM video he's submitting to them. i hope he becomes a famous chinese kpop star and he can make retarded shout outs to me on tv <3 :)

saturday:
i have not done anything all dayyy. my phone was freaking out just now but it's okay now i think...God i got so scared hahah D:
awaiting fellowship tonight :)

yeee won got me the ft island cd, the new one heh so i can listen to it in the carr i keep forgetting though since i threw a sweatshirt over it so no one would JACK IT. hahahaha :)

mmm won's on a youth retreat in LV for 9 days!! and we won't get to talk AT ALL but it's a good thing, i think. becauseee...whilst he is chilling with Jesus this whole time, i've decided it's about time JC and i had some quality time together.
time to read up on my kingdom challenge :)
andddd catch with mah GIRLFRANDSSSS

next saturday, petroglyphcollegemugmaking date <3
leaving in 18 days....
surreal.
WHY IS AUGUST HERE ALREADY???

O, for a Thousand Tongues to Sing

2009-07-29T20:34:00.000-07:00

mmm hello!

i haven't done anything this week. on tuesday, i spent the morning at simi's house doing secret ____ things lawl andd baking cupcakes :) we made chocolate cupcakes with vanilla cream cheese frosting, yumm :9 so good. i ate three in one day :X sighhh. after i departed from her house, i bought some necessities and went home. that is all!

and today....also didn't do anything. half expecting ____ to ask to hang out but also know that she/he won't bcus she/he never does. flaky=no :(

siiigh this summer has been too short.

going to college soon :X dislike.

tomorrow, though, is spirit west coast yaaaay i haven't gone in like three years :( david crowder band! matthew west! jeremy camp! kinda bummed about missing hawk nelson but oh well! sacrifices must be made. tres tres excited to be going again :))))

i desperately want to see 500 days of summer. and frolick on the beach. and watch a meteor shower (the drama AND the real thing :D), go to petroglyph, move away. kind of.

GARA GARA GO!

2009-07-27T19:39:00.000-07:00

hmm wednesday/thursday need to come faster and be over now.

sunday:
got to church semi-on time? ate ice cream and caught up with kathy :) made plans for spirit west coast. went to in n out for lunch! yom and saw CCIC SJ+naynay+alyssa thurr, pleasant surprise :)
afterward....returned to church and played around whilst the retreat band practiced and thenn went to amc 16 to watch the hangover! haha with church. talk about awk :P heh.
looong day

monday:
hmm impromptu plans to chill at SR with danyo, drank PMT, browsed the selection at UO, ate at pinkberry, and talked about many things for three hours :P i'm gonna miss my friends so much :((( sighhh

anyway, danyo was being really pessimistic or what he calls "realistic" about maintaining relationships during college and how loooong four years really are T_T DD: sighh.
anyway although the talk was kind of sad, it was, i suppose, a productive talk as well. sort of. :/

oH HAYY STEFF-O'S BORED AND NO ONE IS CONVERSING WITH HER ON AIM.

Six Things I Wish I Could Say to Six Different People. (but don’t say their name)

1. i love you waayy more than you love me
2. stop bailing on me. supah lame :(
3. i stalk you frequently on facebook
4. thanks for being my email buddy :) and being there for me
5. REPLY.
6. i'm not that bad at organizing :/

Nine things about myself.

1. i'm a very shy person
2. i like to look at myself in the mirror. heh. usually?
3. i think it's pathetic when people are ashamed of their own race.
4. the only channel i watch on tv is the food channel
5. this half year was one of the best half years of my life.
6. i am strangely unproportional and i think the best part of my body are my hands
7. i stress out very easily
8. i've been waking up at 8AM every morning without an alarm this past week
9. i find it hard to imagine life without church every sunday morning.

Eight ways to win my heart (not in a particular order)
1. pick me flowers :)
2. cuddle/hug/kiss me a lot :)
3. hold my hand
4. tell me you love me
5. hold your promises
6. tell lame jokes
7. play the guitar and sing a song
8. be optimistic, especially when i'm being "realistic."

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. youu!
2. food cravings
3. Jesus
4. college
5. checking my email
6. fixing my bangs
7. songs

Six things I do before I fall asleep.

1. pray
2. check my email
3. brush mah teeth
4. wash mah face
5. ...look at myself in the mirror
6. dance.

Five people who mean a lot (in no particular order):

1. won hee
2. (cheatingg...) SOSr
3. the yaks :P
4. deniz
5. Jesus

Four things you’re wearing right now.

1. a guy vneck shirt
2. booty shorts
3. friendship bracelet :)
4. WWJD

Three bands/singers that you listen to often. (not necessarily your favorites)

1. big bang
2. snsd
3. ft island

Two things you want to do before you die.

1. travel the world
2. marry the man i love

One confession.

1. i'm not looking forward to leaving.

COME BACK NOW, I MISS YOU :( hurryyyy

:(

2009-07-25T21:24:00.000-07:00

these past few days have been ridiculously looong and uneventful :( except last night! but yes.
i can't wait till...next week, which is technically tomorrow, but whatever.

hmm yesterday, jeff, pao, barrett, and i went to palace and ate meat. which was good. and then barrett drove us all the way to palo alto to drink the best milkshakes with the best whipped cream in the world at this creamery. and thenn we went to pao's house where we ate some pie (that he spent thirty dollars on at the creamery!!) and watched mall cop. congratulations pao for picking a TERRIBLE movie. anyway yes, that was 5 hours of fun and mayhem and korean bbq

i also finished harry potter book 6! i officially have no life!

anyway, i am hoping that i will have interesting things to do from now on and interesting people to see.

my tummy hurts D:

good night!
muchlove,

you suck.

2009-07-24T17:25:00.001-07:00

ajfdojohoud D:<

p.s. i'm wearing pants for the first time in a month and it feels weird.

Tibet part 1!

2009-07-23T20:10:00.000-07:00

hellooo readers. i am sitting here at 11PM and i am very lonely :( and i've decided to write a little bit about tibet so you'll know what to expect when you go! because i strongly recommend going once in your life :P preferably with a tour guide you understand completely :P

1. my friend and i stayed at the pullman, this really nice hotel in dongguan for a night after our trek across hong kong and entering chinese borders. this was quite difficult as we carry american and canadian passports but anyhow! we spent the day eating, sleeping, and catching up on facebook -_____- we awoke at the wonderful hour of 4AM the next day and showered (long story) and hurried to the airport to catch our flight.
2. we took a connecting flight to xining. there, we met one of our tourguides who took us to this...lake. which wasn't exactly spectacular considering it was very rainy the day we went and we were all really groggy and it took like 2.5 hours just to drive there and we only spent like half an hour there -___- lawl. then we hurried back and ate a 5-minute dinner to catch our 9PM 24 hour train to lhasa <3
3. we were lucky to leave the restaurant when we did because we encountered some difficulties when we got on the train. at the end, we managed to get all 6 of our travel group in one 6-bed cabin and it was a happy ending! or so my friend and i thought. this part was the most uncomfortable part of our journey -___- there wasn't much to see after 9PM so my friend and i climbed up to the very top bunk, being the youngest, and slept the night away. kind of. we woke up and the old people made us do productive things such as look at the scenery siighhh still 13 hours :(
4. we traveled through BEAUTIFUL scenery, lots of animals, and wonderful snow-capped mountains. we also passed through altitudes of 5,000 meters, intense right?? they have emergency oxygen supplies in case you pass out (someone in our group did but was saved by a laptop-wielding man!) and there is rumored to be an ice box to put the dead bodies O_O anyway. let me tell you the reasoning behind this train ride. this would be your wisest decision because if you were to take a plane, i would gurantee that you would pass out the minute you stepped off the plane as your body has not adjusted to the high altitudes. although the train was supplied a bit with oxygen, you could still definitely feel the effects :X
5. we finally arrived in lhasa at around 10 PM and met our tourguide WANG DAO lawl what a funny man. anyway, he gave us these white silk scarves, a traditional sign of respect, and we were on our way to the lhasa four points sheraton.
i love this hotel.
6. even this night, after two plane rides, a long road trip, and a 24 hour train where the toilet was a hole and no one bothered to undress for "bed," we were still not allowed to shower because of the danger it posed. wang dao said we could shower the next NIGHT sighhh and even then, we had to leave the door open to let steam out and stuff -___-
tibetans rarely shower anyhow (and no, they don't smell) but there are three important bathing events in their lives. at their birth, their marriage, and their death (in preparation for the sky burial, to be explained later.)

anyhow. that was day one/two of our wonderful journey through the mystic orient. lawl.

until latar!

못난이

2009-07-23T09:46:00.000-07:00

if i haven't mentioned yet, ft island's new cd is <3<3 <3
and brown eyed girls video for abracadabra is O_O ga in is soooo sexy T_T

anyway.
yesterday, simi came over and we dyed some tshirts. lawl and ate a massive pancake. and we also went to pick up my sisters from tennis and i showed her hugo who is like the cutest little japanese kid EVER :)
my sisters dyed their socks.
then we watched crappy shows on tv.
mmm besides that...i read the whole 7th book of harry potter today!
:( won hee IMed me but i wasn't at my computer :( i haven't talked to him in like 5 days or something T_T siiigh

my life is boring.

i had a dream

2009-07-21T21:26:00.000-07:00

a couple nights ago and it had to be the weirdest dream i have ever had O_O

anyway, i'm PRETTY sure it began with ana, simi, and i having to jump from this helicopter or something of that nature and we were plunged into the icy depths of a glacial ocean with the sole objective of swimming underwater until we found the shore. for some reason it never occurred to any of us that we should be swimming upward before we ran out of oxygen. but then this brilliant idea happened on ana and we just HAPPENED to swim through one solitary hole in the ice, the only hole for like, miles, or something. anyway, from there, we could see land/a beach (with sand and everything....lawl so tropical!) and we swam there and when we got closer and were randomly clinging onto a mini iceberg, simi whips out her phone and it says it's got "bear reception" on it which means both that there are bears on that piece of land and that she can call. and i took mine out and it says there is "monkey reception" and i got all excited bcus i was certain this was my motherland, australia.
but no, it gets weirder.
when we get close enough, there is this MASSIVE sign that says "WELCOME TO LOS ANGELES" with a smiling sun and we're like wott and we run into the guys (i specifically remember barrett asking where we'd been) and we were all there on some sort of seniortriplagunabeach kind of adventure.
then the scene shifts and i'm with mai and unknownmale? and we're in like chinatown. and we were really desperate for some pure aloe harvested from the aloe plant and we spied some on the top of someone's house and the houses were all very victorian. anyway, we snuck in and climbed all the way to the top and snipped off the leaves and began to come down. i remember waiting in anticipation for that moment we could run away in freedom with our aloe leaves but the owners of the house catch us and all we did was ask very calmly if we could have some aloe and they said yes. then we saw sabrina paseman and her brother sitting at the foot of the stairs. in my dream, i vaguely remembered that she was in hong kong and asked her how hong kong was except the weird thing was that she was like...a younger version and she just looked at me with this confused face (bcus she hadn't, in fact, gone to hong kong). then we finally escaped and we were on the streets and i was telling every street vendor our exciting story bcus mai magically happened to be in the iceberg adventure too.
THE END!

100 truths.

2009-07-20T23:30:00.000-07:00

STEFF-O IS BORED. GO LOOKIT MY YAK PHOTOS ON FB.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = green tea
2. last phone call = simran
3. last text message = henry
4. last song you listened to = bodyguard by shinee!!
5. last time you cried = hahhaha a couple nights ago? for random reasons -___-

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = yes
7. been cheated on = ....hopefully not
8. kissed someone & regretted it = at one point
9. lost someone special = mhmm
10. been depressed = naaah just sad.
11. been drunk and threw up = nope!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. pink
13. teal
14. tangerine!

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = uhmm i think so!
16. Fallen out of love = nope
17. Laughed until you cried = lawl no. but i've got abs of steal now!
18. Met someone who changed you = yess!
19. Found out who your true friends were = i've always known
20. Found out someone was talking about you = HAHAAH ALL THE TIME HAHHAHA
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = oh yahh ;)

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = most if not all
24. Do you have any pets = nope.
25. Do you want to change your name = uhmm i'm okay with it :/
26. What did you do for your last birthday = spent two days and a night at the beach with my closest friends :)
27. What time did you wake up today = uhmmm 945 AM
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = talking to mai :P
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = spirit west coast, retreat, when won comes home.
30. Last time you saw your Mother = half an hour ago?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = taking some things more seriously in high school. and being a more confrontational person
32. What are you listening to right now = the chinese dramas downstairs
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = probably...?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = nothing
35. Most visited webpage = gmail/facebook
36. Where do you want to be right now? = on the dance flo, with won, at the beaaach, on the town.
37. Nicknames = steph, steff-o
38. Relationship Status = IN LOVE
39. Zodiac sign = pisces
40. Male or female? = girlieee
42. Middle School = HARKER
44. Hair color = dark brown? black?
45. Long or short = medium ish. long.
46. Height = 5'4
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = i guess you could say that
48. What do you like about yourself? = my nails.
49. Piercings = ears
50. Tattoos = NONE!
51. Righty or lefty= righty
52. First surgery = uhm...none?
53. First piercing = ears
54. First best friend = bryan yu, aimee nguyen, and lauren strom-berg :P
56. First vacation = sydney? out of the country...china?
58. First crush = bryan yu.

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = nothingg
60. Drinking = nothingg
61. I'm about to = brush my teeth and sreep. or read a good book.
62. Listening to = the highway near my house. kinda.
63. Waiting for = tomorroww

OUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = three please
65. Get Married? = def
66. Career? = something out of a cubicle

WHICH IS BETTER
67. Lips or eyes = lips. heh
68. Hugs or kisses = uhmmm BOTH!
69. Shorter or taller= taller please
70. Older or Younger = older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = a bit of both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = mmm arms :P
73. Sensitive or loud = ...both. you can be both.
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant =a fungi

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = nope
77. Drank hard liquor = err
78. Lost glasses/contacts = nope
79. Sex on first date = no
80. Broken someone's heart?= most likely
81. Had your own heart broken = oh yahhh
82. Been arrested = noo
83. Turned someone down = back in the day...
84. Cried when someone died = definitely
85. Fallen for a friend? = haha.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = i am here. and alive.
87. Miracles = definitely
88. Love at first sight = that is lust
89. Heaven = yes.
90. Santa Claus = nope
91. Kiss on the first date = mmm maybe, depends!
92. Angels = of course

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf?= nahh
95. Did you sing today? = in the car
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = nope!
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = i dunno...on a small scale? maybe freshman year. large scale...the ice age :D heh jk
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? uhmm from 2008? good question.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody? = uhmm kind of. nothing to worry about right now though :P
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = yesh.

party every day p-p-p-party every day

2009-07-19T20:47:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY:
aakash's bangin party :B haha it was nice to see a lot of harker kids again although i saw some only 4 days earlier O_O this week has been ridiculously long.
hanyway, lots of delicious food and conversation and then we danced the night away with strangers
........
HAHAHHAHA

SATURDAY:
church grad night! was awesome we had this city-wide scavenger hunt (tino and SJ) and we ran allll over the place. i am SO out of shape T_T
anyway the senior girls tied with the senior boys, LAMEEE
the list included
"number of a payphone" "take a picture of you making a pyramid at tap-ex" "take a picture with the merlion statue" "ride the escalators at AMC 16" "take a picture with a stranger" "run through the tartini fountain"
haaahaha it was amazing.
i love 4hoc :)
hopefully i'll find a fellowship just as amazing at usc....

anyway, we were also presented with the kingdom challenge/assignment in the form of one hundred dollars. ask me about it or google it :) i'm excited :D

SUNDAY:
after church my sister had her bday party
it was amazingly...loud.
her cake was a pikachu, i'm quite proud of it.
the children were obnoxious
i got my tan on.
lawl. sort of.

THAT IS ALL, GOOD DAY.

4:38 PM Seoul Time

2009-07-17T00:39:00.001-07:00

i've just been freaking lazy since i got home from orientation and maybe i don't even plan on blogging about tibet! sighhh.

1. THIS WEEKEND WAS GREAT. or well, sunday. we spent it at alex he's house screwing around with old friends and indulging in quality girl gossip.
2. monday, we arose after a long night bright and early at noon and went to harker! hooray!
3. HARRY POTTER PREMIER on tuesday was flipping AWESOME bcus, well, we got to see it four hours early, and bcus i got to see seany megan naomi and barrett! well, mostly seany naomi and megan since i saw barrett the past two days. we ate at armadillo willy's sooo gooood :) i love that place.
hanway, it was fun walking out of the theatre a full hour before the suckers in line could even get into theres :) teehee
4. i didn't do anything all day! and then sean texted me about the miraculous tournament going down at saratoga high but to be honest i was way too lazy to drive the whole two miles. but then the guys came later to pick me up after their match and they sent the two guys who don't know where i live. so david got out of his car, convinced it was my house, and serenaded a large white man three houses down. it was excellent.
anyway, we watched napolean dynamite, it was terribly hilarious. terrible. and hilarious.
5. i didn't do anything today.
6. PAAARTAYYY :)
7. gradnight on sat? hopefully...and happy bday lil sis :) teehee

sigh i've been wasting my post-grad summer away eating cheez-its, reading tacky girl books, and talking to the boyfriend whose in koreaaa :(
sigh.
he gets off work in a little less than two hours. :D

kay bye.

HELLO READERS

2009-07-11T12:49:00.001-07:00

it's been a while, my bad :(
since coming back from china, i haven't really had time to upload photos/too lazy or write about my trip but i promise that that's coming soon!
orientation wasn't amazingly fun but i met a lot of cool people and i LOVE usc :)
i'm really excited to start school but i'm kinda bummed that i didn't get all the classes i wanted :/
anyway.
i just saw a fleece blanket with a toucan on it. it seemed to be rainforest themed hehe i want it.
i love fleece blankets.
my dorm is amazing.

that is all,
good day to you all. call me up, i'm home, with a car, and usually hungry.

HKIA

2009-07-04T19:30:00.000-07:00

at the airporttt
not looking forward to this 11 hour flight
sadface :(
will update with 8? day journey in tibet
tata!
happy fourth of july, americans! it's july 5 hurr already
speaking of which
5 months :)) <3

zai jiaan.

Cup o' Noodle or Summin

2009-06-22T02:18:00.001-07:00

I'm watching Rush Hour :) Teehee

Today has been totally uneventful, all I've done is sit at home and talk to Won anddd yah. I wanted to go to Mongkok but it was pouring on and off and I felt kind of yucky :(

Jackie Chan is such a baller.

Yesterday, my dad took me to Festival Walk at Kowloon Tong annd then Sha Tin mall on the way to dinner. Yesterday was very tiring :(

This entry is very incomprehensible bcus I'm watching a movie.

http://www.cyon.co.kr/data_svc/product/feature_img/LG_LH5000_feature.jpg
Pretty, huh :)
The LED lights turn into pretty shapes and I spent like half an hour changing them hehhee.
Kay I'm too distracted to keep talking about it.
Good day.
Time to watch Jackie kick some assss :)

ice cream juseyo

2009-06-20T17:04:00.000-07:00

I GOT A NEW PHONE YAY :))
heeheehe I bought it on Mongkok (of course) for really really cheap and it's...beautiful!
Oh I got the Ice Cream LG btw :) The only thing I'm bummed about is that the unlocked version (basically any version outside of Korea) doesn't have an internal camera so I can't camwhore like Kim Tae Hee or anything T_T but she's got the Ice Cream 2 which is fuglier. Anyway, I've also been reading soompi and there have been some pretty negative reviews but I'm crossing my fingers bcus the phones bought in Mongkok are magical. :) /on steroids! Anyway, I'm hoping that since I didn't buy it in the U.S. or Canada or on Ebay, mine will be perfectly fine.

I want to go shopping today. Hm, my second day in Hong Kong....
Well, we first went to Mongkok and bought my phone and wandered around nu ren jie and various other places. Then we had lunch and I got all jetlagged so we just chilled at home -_-
Thenn...we watched a really good movie. AHAHAHA
Afterwards, my dad and I walked to the Harbor and had a really good dinner and wandered around the huge shopping complexes enjoying the frigid air conditioning. The sudden temperature changes from outside to inside CAN'T be good for you..
Anyway, Cheney comes tomorroww
Sigh, must eat with father's boss tonight. Happy day................

I want to do something exciting today.
I'm hungry.
Goodbye!

Hong Kong Day 1

2009-06-19T14:32:00.000-07:00

The plane ride sucked :( 13 hours. I wish someone would just invent teleportation -__- that's not even a word in the blogger dictionary! ridiculous.
Anyway, I saw an inordinate number of people I knew on my plane -_-

BUT it's good to be back :D teehehefdk all I've done is eat though since I got here at 6 PM
and now I am awake at 5AM (2PM your time, the hottest time of day LAWL) and I'm hungry :( So I will eat Milo cereal. (WHY DON'T THEY MAKE THAT IN THE US).

Oh I briefly went cell phone shopping at the mall, like in the real stores and was kinda disappointed BUT they had the LG Ice Cream!! fadojf I WANT.
Hopefully I'll get to go to Mongkok before making a decision. And hopefully my mom gets me unlimited texting. And hopefully Won starts talking back on gmail -_-.

Kay good day to you all!

Goodbye California

2009-06-18T09:42:00.000-07:00

See you in 18 days!
Helloooo China :)

I ate three gummy vites today O_O

2009-06-17T14:44:00.001-07:00

I'm a badasss
Monday:
I hung out with Albert and we went to Korea Tofu House and ate to our stomachs content. We bumped into Mike Lee and Whitney Then we digested and ate at QCup. Then we picked up Dena from the airport and then Anthony came over, but before that! We watched Boys over Flowers :) HEHEH SO EUN <3 KIMBUM
Kay after that we ate at this pho place where we bumped into Glish and Alan and them.... Then we went to Beard Papa's.
200 lb beauty status.

Tuesday: Hung out with Won :))))

LOL AT THIS SURVEY, all the under classmen are doing silly myspace-y things such as these quizzes and posting them and since i've done nothing but stalk people on fb (and not pack) and OD on vitamins, I'll do one more useless thing today.

This is the Layer Cake, covering different parts of your life.
Fill it out and tag TEN people you would like to fill this out!
11 Layers of Me

--Layer One: On the Outside

Name:: (N/A bcus Mr. Daren says creepers might read this. :D)
Birthday:: March 19, 1992
School:: Hmm tough question. I'll say USC bcus...creepers read this.
Major:: Communications
Minor:: N/A
Current Location:: Saratoga :)
Eye Color:: "Dirty water with fishies in it." Sean Mandell
Hair Color:: BLACK
Righty or Lefty:: Righty
Zodiac Sign:: Pisces :)

--Layer Two: On the Inside

Your Heritage:: CHINESEEE :))
Weakness:: Being alone :(
Goals:: Be awesome. And happy.
Regrets:: Not living it up in high school :/
Change one thing about your life:: Hmm...I wish my mac would come earlier. Or that I could stay in China longer. Or that this summer wouldn't end so fast. ORR if I didn't have to clean my room :( or pack....
Relieve Stress:: Cry, talk to people. Lol -_-
Hardest thing ever dealt with:: HAHAAHAHAHAH the first couple college rejections...maybe? Things that upset you:: Racism, close mindedness, cruel people, unfair things, when people treat other people badly
Vent about something:: Life is good.

--Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your thoughts first waking up:: WTF THAT WAS A SCARY DREAM. And my throat hurt. Partly bcus of my dream.
Your bedtime:: Uhmmm sometime along in the morning in the summer :)
Your most missed memory:: Middleschool/Senior year (May, especially :D)

--Layer Four: You're picking

Pepsi or Coke:: Coke, please
McDonald's or Burger King:: MCDONALDS :)
Single or Group dates:: Err...both! :)
Lipton Tea or Nestea?:: Chink green tea plz. Hehh
Chocolate or Vanilla:: Ice cream? Vanilla.
Cappuccino or Coffee:: Either :D

--Layer Five: Do You

Do drugs? Medicinal
Have a crush:: A HUGE ONE O_O
Think you've been in love:: Mhmm!
Want to get married:: Yes
Believe in yourself:: Sometimes
Think you're a health freak:: Sometimes

--Layer Six: In the Past Month

Drank alcohol:: Probably
Gone to the mall:: Too many times since graduation -_-
Eaten Sushi:: Too often
Gone skating:: Nope
Dyed your hair:: Never
Done something exciting:: Every day.

--Layer Seven: Have You Ever

Played a stripping game:: Hahahah no.
Gotten beaten up:: Only by the guys :D
Changed who you were to fit in:: Uh....not that I recall? Mayhaps back in the 11yearold days of 7th grade....
Hid something from someone:: Sigh, probably.

--Layer Eight: Getting Old

Age you're hoping to be married:: 25? Sometime then :)
Age to start having children:: 28? Well, after I get married of course.
Want to travel to:: Greece, Japan, Africa, Spain, Rome, Korea, the motherland :(

--Layer Nine: Perfect Mate
Best Eye Color:: Beautiful
Best Hair Color:: Dark?
Short or Long Hair:: Not short but not long. In the middle :)

--Layer Ten: What were you doing...

1 minute ago:: SOOMPI HEHEHE
1 hour ago:: Eating Kimchi Ramen
1 week ago:: Eating lunch with Henry and Logan
1 year ago:: Hm...IN EUROPE?? :)

--Layer Eleven: Finish the Sentence
I LOVE:: Youu
I FEEL:: Content
I HATE:: My hair. It won't grow :(
I MISS:: Everyone siiigh. The class of '09 :((
I NEED:: To pack...

OH HARROS YOU BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL GROUP OF PEOPLE.
Kay. I'm bored.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ymxE3Ahqeg&feature=related

2009-06-15T00:59:00.000-07:00

This week was pretty long/felt busy although in reality, I still didn't really do much :/

Monday
I went out with Simi to buy things that we didn't even end up using this week!! :( Mayhaps this coming week...

Tuesday
I watched Star Trek with Won, he was pleased about that hahaa
and etc.

Wednesday
Had lunch with Logiebear and Henry at Red Robins, which was really really good and took like two hours. Got to see Lynbrooks yearbook too! Really different from ours. But the biggest difference is that the opening and the closing are entirely incomprehensible.
I also went to the library and borrowed some books, I JUST finished Pretties by Scott Westerfield. It's the sequel to Uglies and what I HATE about these books is that they all end in a cliff hanger. So I'll have to go to the library tomorrow to get Specials. It's a sci-fi series, actually, and it's pretty interesting. Eyeopening social criticism on conformity, change, and superficiality. I definitely recommend it :)

Thursday
I hung out with Simi, we ate at the foodcourt and wandered around aimlessly. Kind of. I went to three graduations too, what a ridiculously tiring two hours O_O
My plan was go see Henry by 6:30PM at Prospect (they started at 6:00 PM and he's the tenth person to be called), go by Lynbrook and see at LEAST Logan (they started at 6:30 PM and he's the sixth person), drive super fast to Monta Vista and see Megan (they started at 6:00 PM and she's like, the last row or something!) and MAYBE see Cupertino (they started at 6:30 PM and Alice was in the second to last row). It was an AMAZING PLAN. Except Prospect ran late, so I went straight to MV and spent like half an hour looking for Megan. We almost missed her, but we did run into four different Harker kids/alum -__-. Then Cupertino :) made up to the Lynbrook kids at dinner haahahaha. We ate at Chevy's, the same place I ate at after MY grad :)
It felt kinda weird to be the only graduate who had graduated almost a month ago O_O
But talking about college was fun, the guys gave me a lot of advice on how to survive at USC :P

Friday
Baseball game! A's v. Giants. A's lost though, unfortunately :( It was quite disappointing. But it was still fun to sit in the box with the guys and co. :) (Drew's grandfather is Lew Wolff O_O, DREW AND THE OAKLAND A's ARE ON A FIRST NAME BASIS.) It wasn't even that cold and the ice cream hadn't run out by the seventh inning stretch so we all paid 8 dollars for some Ghiradelli's ice cream sundaes :9 Life is good.
MMM cracker jacks, free nachos, peanuts, garlic fries, chicken tenders homnomnomnom
We stayed in the room for a good twenty minutes to avoid traffic and took a very interesting elevator ride down....
It rained that night!
Hung around Seany's front yard for God knows why and then went downstairs and watched Superbad which was superbad. Well, not really, but it didn't have much of a point besides the whole "coming of age" thing -___-. That and I was the only "girl" in the room haahahaha awkward questions ftw.
Got home late.

Saturday
David's grad party! Was pretty fun, the food was good, the company was great. It was full of random things like the Ninja Game and karaokeing and having strange conversations by the hot tub. A fabulous bash for sure. :D
Then..late into the night...
Party at Doherty's of course. This time, we watched Officespace which was kind of ridiculous and I was apparently the only one who hasn't seen it yet. It wasn't THAT funny, but Milton was great.
Got home late again.

Sunday
Of course, woke up late for church :/ Service was good, but hard to concentrate. Sigh, that is no good. A lot of college kids came back, which was cool, got to talk to Kathy and Johnny.
Hmm...went to lunch at In n Out with Won and hung out all afternoon :)

And that is all.

I BOUGHT A MAC BTW, but before anyone gets excited, it's the oldschool white one. Not the new macbook pro. It came with a free iPod Touch, though. That already came.

LAPTOP COMES ON FRIDAY. CHIPOTLE OPENS ON THURSDAY, FREE BURRITOS.
LEAVING ON THURSDAY FOR HK/TIBET. FML.

Mon Amour

2009-06-08T12:04:00.000-07:00

Oh hello readers!

I am still succeeding in doing absolutely nothing this summer :(

Friday (FOUR MONTHS):
I went to the Y with Simi and then we went to Tartini, I spent 6 dollars :( Then I went home and Anthony picked me up. We went to get his tux from Mens Wearhouse and it took like HALF AN HOUR. I honestly don't understand why it takes guys so long to put on tuxes -_- Anyway, then we went to Mai's house to battle her dog, Foxy Grandfather. Afterwards, we ate a bunch of crap and watched fob videos on Youtube for like...2 hours. The end!

Saturday:
I woke up shoooper late -___- and went to the park with the bf :)
Yes, that is all.

Sunday:
I woke up at 10:15 AM for church -___- The sermon was for the graduates, mostly. And then they bid us farewell :( So sad. Sigh, I will be leaving a church I've attended since the second grade :/ that's 10 years!!
Afterwards, some of us went to Chipotle to eat lunch. Many unmentionable things occured there. Then they decided to follow me home where James needed to urinate in my bathroom.
I washed my car yesterday! Yes for something productive!
One of the things 4Hoc gave us was a Starbucks gift card and a note that read "Help for your first all-nighter."
:)

That is all, good day.

Skyway Avenue

2009-06-04T14:26:00.000-07:00

TIME FOR....
STEFFOS SUMMER LIST :)
(semi-inspired by Lana)
Okaaaaay....

So I've decided that this is the one summer not to get a job because it should be the most carefree summer possible so definitely holding off on getting a job.

June:
1. Go to the GYM (that is in progress, thank you very much DOUBTERS lawl)
2. Go to at least one game of the A's v. Giants series before leaving for the motherland
3. Finish up those grad parties :D
4. See all the summer movies that are coming out
5. THEN the rest of the month will be spent in HK/Tibet :D

July:
1. Come back just in time for JULY 4th with Wei Wei (hopefully :))
2. Orientation down in L.A. 6-7
3. Attempt to continue to work out in anticipation for FRESHMAN 15 :(
[Create a summer bucket list (SUCKET LIST. Inspired by Alyssa, Sarah, Lauren, and Co.) which will include the following (at least):]
4. Baseball games!
5. Parties at Doherty's ?
6. Beach trips, bonfires, boardwalk (summer goal: watch the sunrise)
7. Stargazing
8. Plays
9. Seeing Juan as much as possible before he leaves for Kolea :(
10. Club Ice lawwll

August:
1. See friends AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE before the dreaded departure.
2. Go to Martin Walsh's wedding.
3. Clean my room
4. Pack my bags
5. Go to school.
:(
6. HOPEFULLY see Warped down in L.A.

Kinda vague at some points, kinda specific at others.
I have a strong craving for Gemelli at Pasta Pomodoro, WHO WANTS TO GO WITH MEHH
Today, I went to the Y with Simi and then went shopping. Again. What a sad life I lead D:

Today I

2009-06-03T21:50:00.000-07:00

went to the movies with Juan :)
And then we went to Yogurtland and saw Jeffrey Tan and VALERIE <3
Hmm

Mai got really annoyed at this guy who told her that the only way to have fun in college is to get drunk and so she said:
[21:38] x swirly whirl x: YEAH I KNOW
[21:39] x swirly whirl x: but yeah i'll avoid being shitfaced anyday.
[21:39] x swirly whirl x: you can depend on me to drag you back to the room though
[21:39] x swirly whirl x: if you throw up on me i'll throw you in a bush for temporary punishment
[21:39] x swirly whirl x: AHAHAHA
True friendship. For the record, I don't plan on getting "shitfaced" either....

Anyway, missing high school more but definitely more excited for college.
Seeing the best friend tomorrowww :))

p.s.
Cut off french tips today :( they were pretty T_T
Didn't chip once in three weeks.

DISGUSTING, you are :)

2009-06-02T22:02:00.000-07:00

Hm...today, I went by Harker to pick up four years worth of crap from the yb room andd help Mr. Daren clean/mail back PDAs. Which took a long time.
Afterward...
Hung out with Simi :) at the Y, at the mall. We ate sushi at Sarku and shopped around.
Then I came home.
Excellent day.

I've done a fair amount of stalking on FB, scoping out future suitemates and classmates. :) FOUND A BOYFRAND FOR MAI <3 <3 as much as she doesn't want him :)) teehee

tomorrowww :)

Will work for love <3

2009-05-31T20:41:00.000-07:00

OH HARROS

Yesterday, Seany picked me up on the way to Elena's and we joined the rest of the partayy in enjoying some pretty good food and meeting Sejal (AHAHAHAAHAHAHA). Afterwards, in attempt to cure my slump in actually having a life without school, we decided to do something "fun." First, we went to Gold's Gym and the three guys joined as step one of their plan to "get big" this summer. Conveniantly, Mr. Glasauer was there so he gave us a tour. The place gives me the creeps but I might as well visit the guys sometimes when they're there. "Steff-o, we can't protect you here." AJDOI BIG MUSCLES D:. Then we were given the mission of delivering 6 cartons of bouqets to Bucknall for the dance show so we did that. THEN we had to go shopping for Mrs. Mandell so we browsed Santana Row and took a promenade to Valley Fair.
Our first stop of eatingthroughthemall was Pizza My Heart where we all had one slice and a free shirt, which we quickly donned. Paul bet Barrett I wouldn't wear it over my dress and is now one dollar poorer. Then, as the Mandells and I browsed Claire's (HAHA) the guys bought copious amounts of Auntie Anne's pretzels. Next, we went to Abercrombie and had a wild dance party in there because that is honestly the only useful thing the store is good for. We left due to lack of oxygen (the place reeks). THEN we hit the food court and Barrett bought 60 mini cookies to share.
The rest of the day/night was spent at Seany's where I looked at childhood pictures of Barrett and Seany as pre-k-ers at St. Andrews and the guys shot hoops. Paul made us some of his "famous" lemonade and we stalked people on facebook and watched "The Waterboy." Then we wasted away in his basement as usual.

Today, I woke up SUPER late for church, but it was good to be back. After service, I headed over to Seany's and then to AT&T park for the Giants v. the Cardinals :B It was a fun game, fun drive, the Giants won!
Okay weather too :)

This weekends been good. I WANT TO GO TO WARPED TOUR PLZ.

"Barrett, WTF are you doing."
"I'm feeling the pecs that will be there in two months."

Now what to do...

2009-05-29T16:59:00.000-07:00

As a graduated 17-year-old kid with a license, the only remotely interesting thing I've done since summer has started is go to school.

Seriously, that has to be the lamest thing ever. Not that I haven't been doing other things such as shopping and movies but I have an urge to actually do something super exciting. Yet I'm LAZY sighhh.

As of now, my tentative summer plans include going to HK and possibly Tibet and coming home just in time to get over jetlag and board a plane to LA for orientation. After that, I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with myself for a month but I'm thinking Bikram yoga sounds both good and painful.

UNTIL NEXT TIME :)

SENIOR WEEK :)

2009-05-24T21:24:00.000-07:00

SO this week has been ridiculously long, just 7 days ago, we were enjoying our first night in Laguna....
SPEAKING OF WHICH,

SENIOR TRIP:

Sunday: Woke up too early to be legal and boarded a bus to Laguna. Stopped at a rest stop and ate McDonald's for breakfast and spent a total of 7 hours on a bus watching Top Gun and 5 hours worth of How I Met your Mother.
Our bus was the last one and we wandered around the surrounding area waiting for the other buses to clear out whilst listening to Julianne rap to Jizz in my Pants on the loudspeaker. We got there last and decorated our cute sand buckets :)
NEXT, we all went to the beach and had some fun under the clouds. HAHA the guys made competing sand castles and we basically played in the water for a few hours.
We had dinner with our advisor, Mr. Colletti. We went to this Mexican restaurant and he gave us back the goals we wrote to ourselves at the start of senior year.
1. Watch the sunrise on the beach
2. Try to get to know everyone in my grade
3. Beat the juniors
I think I accomplished only one...kind of. Anyway, then he returned the letters we wrote to ourselves in sophomore year and it is RIDICULOUSLY embarrassing...sigh
The surprise, though, was getting letters from our parents, which Mr. Colletti had them write at the start of the year. Of course they all failed at that and wrote it in the last like, week of senior year. Anyway, pretty much for the next twenty minutes, almost the whole table cried. Over what their parents said, over graduation, over everything. Then Kaytee cheered us up by reading the "10 Rules for Dating my Daughter" sent by her father.

We went back to the hotel and PASSED OUT YEARBOOKS, after an epik 5.0 earthquake. We also had an icecream sundae party and hung out in each other's rooms until 11PM when Winny and I fell asleep after watching episodes of Parental Control.

Monday: We wandered in the downtown direction in search of food that was not overrun by Harker kids and found a cafe where we ate bagels. It was still too early in the morning. We wandered down to the beach and joined our class in some good spirited and COLD frolicking in the waters. I waited until it warmed up. Anyway, watching people attempt to skimboard was VERY fun to do. After some sandy play, the guys and the ovaries went to this EXCELLENT pizza place and had some really good food, and then returned to the beach for some serious wave jumping. I proceeded to get a SLIGHT tan, get beaten by the waves, take a long walk with Andy and Rachel to the tide pools, and thrown in the ocean four different times in 5 minutes. AFTER I had some of my clothes on :(
We took our class photo
which is pretty cute, I must say
Well then we went back to clean up and prepare for dinner, I went to Brian and Daniel's room to join an awkward party before heading down to the lobby to find some food. The guys ended up sprinting half the way downtown just to beat another big group to the excellent sushi restaurant.
The best part was that it was ALL YOU CAN EAT, twenty dollars!! I had 8 plates worth of food and Kevin Kim said I ate like a man. Anyway, we ran back, basically, because we were almost late to the bonfire (AKA Mr. Keller standing in the middle with a box of tshirts).
Anyway, the bonfire made me super sad and reluctant about leaving, I cried a couple times just because what people said really made me realize how awful life will temporarily be without this group of people :(

"If the class of '09 was a girl, I wouldn't wait the two day grace period-three day- to call her back. I'd definitely ask her out on a second date, and I'd be completely heartbroken if she ever dumped me or left me-like I am now"
(or something to that effect)-Brian Chao

Good God I love this class from the bottom of my heart :'(

After that, we had some excellent hot chocolate and I called Won and was all sad about leaving. Then we crashed at the guys and wandered down to the beach to join some other children for some night time playing. It was BEAUTIFUL and the water felt much warmer due to the colder night time air. I dunno, there was probably no where else on earth I would have chosen to be at that moment than on the beach at night with my class.
We went back to our rooms and packed, kind of. Watched some T.V. and talked until 1AM when Winny and I decided to call it a night.

Tuesday: Woke up and wandered around to the Koffee Klatch which is a TOTALLY adorable coffee house with awesome deco. We grabbed some food and sat on the beach, pretty much alone, for the last half hour. The rest of the day was really just crappy travel time and 7 hours of How I Met your Mother.

SENIOR PRANK
Began the night we got back from Laguna, the senior prank committee revealed a couple nights ago that our prank was going to be SENIORLAND, an amusement park set up for our amusement primarily, but also hopefully others as well. Classes were not canceled and the kids thought it was a terrible prank but every senior I talked to thought it was amazing so I would say it was a smashing success! :)
We stayed until 11PM setting up for the rollercoaster, drive-in movie, and petting zoo.

The next morning, we came to school bright and early at 7AM to act as a welcoming committee, chasing down children in a mob of white glory, tying balloons to their wrists, stamping their hands, and shoving maps in their faces. It was ridiculous fun.

The rest of the day was excellent, the rollercoaster ran screaming down the hall 9 times throughout the day at strategically timed occasions all ending in the digit of 9 and it had to be my favorite part. Kids came out of class to watch :)
The house of the occult was HILARIOUS, we captured three history classes in seances and put them in the zoo. Feeding time was the best and Joe and Lexi were amazing as tour guides. The drive-in movie was super duper cute and the sign was awesome, if I do say so myself ;) hehe

Anyway, senior prank was excellent and the most fun I had since...well...Monday.
jfoASDIF it was so fun :)

BACCALAUREATE
Not very interesting, went shopping with Deniz and came back kind of late but just in time for the start, the speeches were AWESOME, indicative of our class as Jeff says. I agree. I loved Mr. Silk and DKs speech. Especially DKs because I was mentioned in it personally :) teehee
Afterwards, we all went to Falafel Drive-In only to realize that it was closed!! So we went to Daniel's house instead and had won ton soup and watched basketball games.

AWARDS CEREMONY DAY
We had our alumni luncheon which made me even more nostalgic and sad. The food was great except for the part where lousy sophomores stole it. The music made me kind of sad, especially after spending a good two hours after the end of lunch writing letters to our future selves to put in the time capsule and signing yearbooks. GHHOASJDOSAI By the end of that day, I definitely did not want to graduate.

Seany's grad party was that night, their house/party was AMAZING O_O GEEZ, valet parking?? Wtf. Anyway, we danced the night away, kind of. Left around 11PM so I could go home and write that darned senior essay :)

GRADUATION
I woke up that morning deciding that I DEFINITELY did not want to graduate and my stomach was all butterfly-y up until we began walking out of the door. But when I got to the winery it wasn't so bad bcus everyone was there and it made me feel a bit better :)
It was hot, the speeches were good, and I dunno, I suddenly got excited that we were graduating. After I got my diploma, I was filled with this odd feeling of happiness that carried on for quite a bit and now looking back on photos of us throwing our mortarboards or whatever, I guess high school graduation would be one of those events I would relive anytime. Afterward was definitely chaotic and when we finally got out of it, I ended up eating with Deniz's family for lunch and then hanging out with her and some random underclassmen outside of Tartini (don't ask).
We then watched Angels and Demons and yah. That was that.

BTW, brunch this morning was excellent. Lots of good food and conversation :) I'm going to miss my friends so much :(

I can honestly say that I was looking forward to graduation so much up until this past week, which made me feel bittersweet about leaving.
Thanks for the memories, '09 :) I'll never forget you!

But now that I'm out of school, I have nothing to do. Thank God for grad parties.

grad parties galore

2009-05-24T10:10:00.000-07:00

Today, my girlfriend and I went down to the pier. I brought an empty bottle and some paper, and we both constructed a massive letter expressing our passionate love for each other. We stuck it in the bottle, and threw it out to sea, only to see it explode in slow motion on a protruding rock. FML

HAHAAHAHAH

kay brb
BRUNCH :)